Inspiring Quotes

Be inspired!

Life is rarely, if not never, a smooth-sailing one. Depression and sadness are emotions that we will inevitably experience perhaps many times in our lives. But with a positive mindset and attitude, and a strong belief and mentality, we can achieve our goals and dreams. :)

There's 88 inspiring quotes which I would like to share, so take your time and be inspired! You can, of course, come back again another time to continue read on.
Cheers!

1. "It is easy to sit up and take notice. What is difficult is getting up and taking action."

2. "Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great make you feel that you, too, can become great."

3. "A positive attitude may not solve all your problems, but it will annoy enough people to
   make it worth the effort."
   
   
4. "I've come to believe that each of us has a personal calling that's as unique as a fingerprint and that the best way to succeed is to discover what you love and then find a way to offer it to others in the form of service, working hard, and also allowing the energy of the universe to lead you."
   
   
5. "Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have."
   
   
6. "Never tell a young person that anything cannot be done. God may have been waiting centuries for someone ignorant enough of the impossible to do that very thing"
   
   
7. "People forget how fast you did a job - but they remember how well you did it."
   
   
8. "Every problem has a gift for you in its hands."
   
   
9. "We don't live in a world of reality, we live in a world of perceptions."
   
   
10. "The harder you fall, the higher you bounce."
11. 
    "You may be disappointed if you fail, but you are doomed if you don't try."
12. 
    "Our destiny changes with our thought;
    we shall become what we wish to become,
    do what we wish to do, when our habitual thought
    corresponds with our desire."
    
    
13. "If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."
    
    
14. "Every problem has in it the seeds of its own solution. If you don't have any problems, you don't get any seeds."
    
    
15. "It is impossible to win the race unless you venture to run, impossible to win the victory unless you dare to battle."
    
    
16. "Put yourself in a state of mind where you say to yourself, Here is an opportunity for me to celebrate like never before, my own power, my own
    ability to get myself to do whatever is necessary."
    
    
17. "The greatest use of life is to spend it for something that will outlast it."
    
18. "No pessimist ever discovered the secret of the stars, or sailed to an uncharted land, or opened a new doorway for the human spirit."
    
    
19. "Good, better, best; never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best."
    
20. "Do what you feel in your heart to be right - for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't."
    
    
21. "The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing."
    
    
22. "The victory of success is half won when one gains the habit of setting goals and achieving them. Even the most tedious chore will become endurable as you parade through each day convinced that every task, no matter how menial or boring, brings you closer to fulfilling your dreams."
    
    
23. "It's the friends you can call up at four a.m. that matter."
    
24. "The last of the human freedoms is to choose one's attitude in any given set of circumstances."
    
    
25. "Conquering any difficulty always gives one a secret joy, for it means pushing back a boundary-line and adding to one's liberty."
    
    
26. "Every exit is an entry somewhere."
    
    
27. "Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."
    
    
28. "I would rather lose in a cause that I know some day will triumph than to triumph in a cause that I know some day will fail."
    
    
29. "Most of us ask for advice when we know the answer but we want a different one."
    
    
30. "Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were."
    
    
31. "Keep your fears to yourself, but share your courage with others."
    
    
32. "Always do your best. What you plant now, you will harvest later."
    
    
33. "Opportunities, many times, are so small that we glimpse them not and yet they are often the seeds of great enterprises. Opportunities are also everywhere and so you must always let your hook be hanging. When you least expect it, a great fish will swim by."
    
    
34. "If one does not know to which port one is sailing, no wind is favorable."
    
    
35. "A compliment is a gift, not to be thrown away carelessly, unless you want to hurt the giver."
    
    
36. "You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, Why not?"
    
    
37. "A great part of courage is the courage of having done the thing before."
    
    
38. "There are so many things that we wish we had done yesterday, so few that we feel like doing today."
    
    
39. "Those who are not looking for happiness are the most likely to find it, because those who are searching forget that the surest way to be happy is to seek happiness for others."
    
    
40. "Each of us makes his own weather, determines the color of the skies in the emotional universe which he inhabits."
    
    
41. "We do not know the true value of our moments until they have undergone the test of memory."
    
    
42. "Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives: where we focus our attention."
    
    
43. "There are no shortcuts to any place worth going."
    
    
44. "Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there is love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong."
    
    
45. "We don't know who we are until we see what we can do."
    
    
46. "All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them."
    
    
47. "Above all, challenge yourself. You may well suprise yourself at what strengths you have, what you can accomplish."
    
    
48. "Begin doing what you want to do now. We are not living in eternity. We have only this moment, sparkling like a star in our hand - and melting like a snowflake."
    
    
49. "One of the most sublime experiences we can ever have is to wake up feeling healthy after we have been sick."
50. 
    
    "Getting ahead in a difficult profession requires avid faith in yourself. That is why some people with mediocre talent, but with great inner drive, go much further than people with vastly superior talent."
    
    
51. "Unless you believe, you will not understand."
    
    
52. "The truth is that we can learn to condition our minds, bodies, and emotions to link pain or pleasure to whatever we choose. By changing what we link pain and pleasure to, we will instantly change our behaviors."
    
    
53. "Stride forward with a firm, steady step knowing with a deep, certain inner knowing that you will reach every goal you set yourselves, that you will achieve every aim ."
    
    
54. "Learn from the past, set vivid, detailed goals for the future, and live in the only moment of time over which you have any control: now."
    
    
55. "Concentration comes out of a combination of confidence and hunger."
    
    
56. "The real measure of your wealth is how much you'd be worth if you lost all your money."
    
    
57. "Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact."
    
    
58. "I have learned this at least by my experiment: that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours."
    
    
59. "A gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials."
    
    
60. "There is a real magic in enthusiasm. It spells the difference between mediocrity and accomplishment."
    
    
61. "Obstacles are necessary for success because in selling, as in all careers of importance, victory comes only after many struggles and countless defeats. Yet each struggle, each defeat, sharpens your skills and strengths, your courage and your endurance, your ability and your confidence and thus each obstacle is a comrade-in-arms forcing you to become better or quit. Each rebuff is an opportunity to move forward; turn away from them, avoid them, and you throw away your future."
    
    
62. "It's good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it's good to check up once in a while to make sure you haven't lost the things that money can't buy."
    
    
63. "Dwell not upon thy weariness, thy strength shall be according to the measure of thy desire."
    
    
64. "It is no use saying, 'We are doing our best.' You have got to succeed in doing what is necessary."
    
    
65. "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."
    
    
66. "Happiness, or misery, is in the mind. It is the mind that lives."
    
    
67. "With everything that has happened to you, you can either feel sorry for yourself or treat what has happened as a gift. Everything is either an opportunity to grow or an obstacle to keep you from growing. You get to choose." - Unknown "This above all: to thine own self be true..."
    
    
68. "You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through."
    
    
69. "Most of us have far more courage than we ever dreamed we possessed."
    
    
70. "Whatever you want to do, do it now. There are only so many tomorrows."
    
    
71. "Others have done it before me. I can, too."
    
    
72. "The happy people are those who are producing something; the bored people are those who are consuming much and producing nothing."
    
    
73. "Every moment of your life is infinitely creative and the universe is endlessly bountiful. Just put forth a clear enough request, and everything your heart desires must come to you."
    
    
74. "Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose."
    
    
75. "There are admirable potentialities in every human being. Believe in your strength and your youth. Learn to repeat endlessly to yourself, 'It all depends on me."
    
    
76. "Honor your challenges, for those spaces that you label as dark are actually there to bring you more light."
    
    
77. "You must take action now that will move you towards your goals. Develop a sense of urgency in your life."
    
    
78. "Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal."
    
    
79. "I will act now. I will act now. I will act now. Henceforth, I will repeat these words each hour, each day, everyday, until the words become as much a habit as my breathing, and the action which follows becomes as instinctive as the blinking of my eyelids. With these words I can condition my mind to perform every action necessary for my success. I will act now. I will repeat these words again and again and again. I will walk where failures fear to walk. I will work when failures seek rest. I will act now for now is all I have. Tomorrow is the day reserved for the labour of the lazy. I am not lazy. Tomorrow is the day when the failure will succeed. I am not a failure. I will act now. Success will not wait. If I delay, success will become wed to another and lost to me forever. This is the time. This is the place. I am the person."
    
    
80. "Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it's time to pause and reflect."
    
    
81. "It's not knowing what to do, it's doing what you know."
    
    
82. "Welcome every morning with a smile. Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday. Be a self-starter. Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day. Today will never happen again. Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all. You were not born to fail."
    
    
83. "Falling into the deepest valley is nothing to fear. It just means that you are in the perfect position to climb the World's highest mountain."
    
    
84. "The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy."
    
    
85. "Remember, happiness doesn't depend on what you have, it depends solely upon what you think."
    
    
86. "You can complain because roses have thorns, or you can rejoice because thorns have roses."
    
    
87. "That which we persist on doing becomes easier - not that the nature of the task has changed, but our ability to do has increased."
    
    
88. "What worries you masters you."
    

人生

好啦，我终于为我的部落格更新了！这应该是我第一次以华文来叙述我对人生的心情吧。已经好久没有写文章了，不晓得脑袋有没有生锈，写出让人明白的东西。

最近的生活过得很充实，过得与一般人不一样。也许正是因为时间过得实在充实，时间也似乎飞得很快，转眼间，已快要到两个星期了。每天忙忙碌碌地过日子，其实也并不是件辛苦的事。至少这段时间使我对这世界大开眼界，学习到了在职场上所需要注意的事项，样样都马虎不得。从对工作的责任感，至人与人之间的相处关系，及如何做到有效的沟通，甚至到自己对人生的态度，皆让我以崭新的视角去窥探。工作或许会使人感到灰心、疲惫，但却是这样的心情才让我觉得真正活着。所以，我也还蛮享受工作所带来的疲惫，只要凡事问心无愧，我已很满足了。其实，辛苦不见得是辛苦；辛苦或许才是幸福。一些人想要辛苦，却无法达成。另一些人可以辛苦，恐惧和怯懦却征服了他们。这又是何等悲哀啊。

公司在一次每月举行一次的小组开会时，给我们播放了录影带。最让我印象深刻及倍感感动的是关于一位老妇人天生就没有双臂的人生经历。由于天生的缺陷，凡事得以双脚来代劳。一般人根本无法想象没有双臂的日子将会如何去度过，但这位老妇人没有被打倒。她的双脚可做的事可多了，不管是洗脸、拾螃蟹、煎蛋、包饺子，甚至还可以写出漂亮整齐的字，都难不到她！现场观看着录影带的人，没有一个不张大嘴巴，发出哗然的声音。老妇人如此坚强的求生意志，让我打从心底佩服她。看到了她的经历，我所面对的困难根本不值一谈。

十八年的日子快要结束了。十八年来，我不知到在别人的眼中，我是个怎样的人。小气？吝啬？无聊？或许吧。其实我是个怎样的人，连我自己也不是很清楚。有时，知道未必比不知道来得好。知道又如何？逃避也不见得是件坏事。当然，我不是在鼓励逃避现实。我们还是要有一定的智慧去决定哪些事情才是值得我们不需百分之百的了解。听起来，好像有点儿矛盾，是吧？嗯。。。我不知道。我只知道我的心似乎总有一个方针，它有能力指引我下一步该往哪里走。或许，是靠感觉吧。十八年来，也没留下什么啦，除了那些在慢慢淡化的记忆。

0705 Class Dinner

Yesterday was a tiring day! Woke up at 5.23am in preparation for my final A level paper - Bio P1. At 9.15pm, the official end of JC life was declared! Yay! Truly a relief... Phew... There's Class Dinner at Fish n Co later. Before that, I went home, of course (not as if I would wait like a moron till 6.45pm), and go online to watch videos and most importantly, catch the cantonese radio live show on the internet! I love the way how people use cantonese to communicate, it somehow could make a communication, even boring topics, seems interesting enough to keep you listen. Also, I got to learn some new cantonese words through their chatting. For those who understand cantonese who might want to listen, click: omlive. The hosts are Don Li and Colleen. FYI, Don Li is one of the actors in Ten Brothers! He acted as the No. 4. He's also a singer and the songs on this blog was sung by him. Their sessions are on every Wed and Thur, 4pm - 6pm. One of the most interesting topics they chatted was when Don talked about he defaecated in his pants in school and the embarrassing moments! LOL!!! They also have talked about how they learn swimming which was very beneficial to people like me...

So after that, I rushed to take the MRT to Dhoby Ghaut but I was, however, late. But thanks to Ragha who alighted at the NEL, I wasn't the lastest - I was the second latest. Phew~
Had seafood platter as our dinner. Though I didn't eat alot but they suffice to keep my stomach full, much better than buffet in which I will definitely lose out since my stomach can't seem to endure any more weight after 40 min or so. After our dinner, for dunno-what reason, we actually went 'hiking' at Fort Canning. Actually the walk wasn't that bad considering that it aided in the digestion and with the beautiful night scenery, as well as the seemingly eerie atmosphere and buildings that surrounded us while we were walking through the dark walkways. Some even took lesbian marriage photos outside the ROM with the security guard watching! =.= Next, we walked towards Clarke Quay and took a seat in the Häagen-Dazs where some had chocolate fondue with fruits. With only a pathetic 10 bucks left in my wallet, I had to give up the delectable fondue. Oh well...

Anyway, I think I will give up yet another thing, that is the chance to pursue undergraduate studies in top China universities with PSC China scholarship. I've checked the courses which are available already which I'm not interested in even though I don't mind studying them. The courses are Economics, Political Science, Chinese Language and Literature and Science, and Engineering. Oh please, I've vowed that I'll not be writing Chinese characters anymore unless I work in China. Study for 4 years and serve the bond for 5 years are certainly not what I want me life to be like.

Right now, I should be worrying about making $, $ and more $!

榕树/李逸朗

榕树 by 李逸朗

好感动啊！T_T
在讲述妈妈与孩子的美好！
不错听的啊！

after 1 week of A level

I remember I wrote "Dream big" as the last 2 words in my GP P1. For those who are having A level this year, you should know which question I did. Thinking back, I thought I was rather hypocritical, and perhaps stereotypical. Seriously, how important really is dreams in today's context, especially when we are all living in a rat race society? I need some enlightenment. But for exam sake, I wrote as an optimistic writer about this world, convincing the examiners, as well as myself, that though the world today is becoming increasingly complicated, dreams are nonetheless important for dreams give us the much needed motivation, and that nothing great had ever been achieved without bold dreams. Hmmm...

Pure math was rather difficult while statistics was okay. I just felt glad that I've managed to solve the triangle question using cosine formula after thinking real hard, a question which was supposedly easy but many people either didn't recall cosine formula or couldn't link both binomial and Maclaurin's expansion to solving it.

Bio P2 was tough! So tough that I spent more time than given thinking what the answer should be that I didn't manage to complete the paper - I left a 2-mark suggest-type question blank. I thought that the standard was prelim standard, if not higher. And I realised that school papers were so much easier in comparison. I think the difference was school papers were easy to do but hard to score, while A level was hard to do, needless to mention if one could score easily. It really made you crack your brain that you probably prefer to run 2.4km, rather than feeling breathless in a well-ventilated air-con hall. Must really do well for P3...no choice...

Chem P3 was okay, at least is wasn't as difficult as the other papers so far. I only have myself to blame for committing stupid careless mistakes, and perhaps changed to doing question 1 in the last 20 min after I couldn't get a logical H:C ratio in question 2. Anyway, there's no point dwelling in too much since they're already OVER. It's wiser and better to prepare for future papers... jia you!

PS: 十兄弟 is a nice show! Channel 8 7pm weekdays. haha

巴黎恋人

Click the link below to listen to a LOVELY SONG!
陪在你身边 - 曹成模 (“巴黎恋人”片尾曲)

Lyrics:

《陪你在身边》的歌词哦


是否知道我始终想起你雪白笑容
让我不经意的微笑
也许我的双眼对你思念更深
因为我一直看到你的身影
爱情对我而言很陌生
也从来不曾爱过任何人
所以试着抹去占据我心的你

可不可以爱上你
我们可不可以开始相爱
满是伤痕的心也许会让你流泪
我不懂爱要怎么说
不懂该如何拥抱你
唯一能给的这份心却没有勇气守护你

你是否愿意爱我
我已经习惯的雪白笑容
它开启了我人生的早晨
我好期待你的日子里也有我
而且越来越渴望
偶尔在你的眼中看到我以外的另一个人
我就像站在悬崖的尽头般绝望

可不可以爱上你
我们可不可以开始相爱
满是伤痕的心也许会让你流泪
我不懂爱要怎么说
不懂该如何拥抱你
唯一能给的这份心却没有勇气守护你

你是否愿意爱我
我不曾相信爱情 我也不曾爱过
但是你却填满了我空虚的心
用你满心的爱




ma la lu in ni, nen ma lia, no ye ha ya nu su mi,
吗 来 路 硬 你， 南 马 呀，耨 也 哈 呀 努 苏 米，

cha ku mang, ki yiong nang, pa bu chor liao mu ke tui
掐 酷 忙， hi 一 那， 怕 不 巧 聊 木 可 对

na bo da kong qiong, ne nu li,
那 播 大 空 炯， 内 努 里，

mi ka ku gi wo na cha jia, ka leng ji~ nu luo lu bu ke tui
米 卡 酷 gi 我 那 掐 家，卡 冷 机~ 努 落 卢 不 可 对

mie nu ni su ka ji na la sor
迈 努 你 苏 卡 机 那 拉 搜

u gu do sa lang nang jor gor sor sor
屋 古 读 撒 浪 囊 巧 够 艘 艘

cha ku go jor ga nu, nor lu ji mo bor ji mang
掐 酷 够 桥 该 努，挪 卢 机 莫 博 机 忙

nor lu sa lang he dor tui ge ni
挪 卢 撒 浪 hi 夺 对 给 你

hu li shi zha ke dor tui ke~n ni
互 里 时 家 可 夺 对 肯~ 你

na e sang jor ma lun ka su mi
那 一 桑 巧 吗 轮 卡 苏 米

nor lu u ge hai qi dor u la
挪 卢 屋 挤 海 其 夺 屋 拉

sa lang mang mu e ju mo la sor
撒 浪 忙 木 哎 句 莫 拉 艘

nor lu a no ju lu mu la sor
挪 卢 啊 耨 句 卢 木 拉 艘

de ga ju su e nu, ma hu~n ma lu nu,
德 该 句 苏 一 努，吗 互~ 吗 卢 努，

nuai ji ka me liong ge on~ng nun na
吗 机 卡 灭 冷 gi 哦~ 囊 那

sa lang e jior ge~n ni~
撒 浪 一 就 该~ 你~

na lu s ke qior, pa lu sor, no ye ha ya nu su mi,
那 卢 苏 该 桥， 怕 卢 艘， 耨 也 哈 呀 努 苏 米，

ha qi mun, ge u nun, na e sa i dui o sor
哈 其 吗， 该 物 浓，那 呀 撒 一 对 哦 艘

mang ki de ha gor, hi sor sor,
忙 ki 德 哈 够， hi 艘 艘，

no ye ha lu hui dor ne ga hi gi lu
耨 也 哈 卢 会 夺 内 噶 hi gi 卢

tor pa la ke de sor~
拖 怕 拉 可 德 艘~

ke kun no ye nu bi su bi sor
卡 古 耨 也 努 笔 苏 笔 艘

na a nin nu gun ga lu ku die miao
那 啊 民 努 古 噶 卢 酷 跌 秒

miao lang ku te sang du, chong nang in na ge wo sor
秒 浪 酷 特 桑 读， 冲 囊 硬 那 给 屋 艘

nor lu sa lang he dor tui ge ni
挪 卢 撒 浪 hi 夺 对 给 你

hu li shi zha ke dor tui ke~n ni
湖 里 时 家 可 夺 对 肯~ 你

na e sang jor ma lun ka su mi
那 一 桑 巧 吗 轮 卡 苏 米

nor lu u ge hai qi dor u la
挪 卢 物 给 海 其 夺 物 拉

sa lang mang mu e ju mo la sor
撒 浪 忙 木 哎 句 我 拉 艘

nor lu a no ju lu mu la sor
挪 卢 啊 耨 句 卢 木 拉 艘

de ga ju su e nu, ma hu~n ma lu nu,
德 该 句 苏 一 努，吗 湖~ 吗 卢 努，

nuai ji ka me liong ge on~ng nun na
吗 机 卡 灭 冷 该 哦~ 囊 那

sa lang e jior ge~n ni~
撒 浪 一 桥 肯~ 你

sa lang mi dor ben jior or sor sor
撒 浪 米 夺 奔 巧 哦 艘 艘

sa lang he ben jior du or sor sor
撒 浪 hi 奔 桥 读 哦 艘 艘

tong bin ga su mor lu, sa lang ga dor~ng nan,
同 饼 噶 苏 莫 卢，撒 浪 噶 夺~ 南

ka du ki long che u gor i sor
卡 读 ki 龙 车 物 够 一 艘

ma e sa lang nu lor
吗 一 撒 浪 努 落



The tune is quite catchy.
Even though you (or we) might not know what the song is about in Korean language, you could take a look at the translated Chinese lyrics.
and touched by it. =]]


=DDD

jia you for a level =)

BLOG ON TEMPORARY HIATUS

After getting to know that failing exams in JC especially are pretty common after all, I can't help but to feel comforted that I'm not those exceptionally poor ones for flunging tests and exams throughout my JC years. Of course, that doesn't mean you can slack, it just means that you have to work hard to close the gap between your acqured knowledge and the expectations of the teachers.

If asked to do a summary of my results (both tests and exams) for whole of these 2 years, it is not really a difficult task since I can only be bothered with just a few alpahabets (the grades). LOL.
The first thing I would do, or rather I have to do, is to eliminate the first alphabet from the 26 letters. Then, for the second alphabet, it takes no sweat at all for me to tell you the frequency: once. For the third letter in the sequence of the 26 letters, it is relatively easy too since I just have to add just a few more numbers from that for 'B'. I guess it's about 6 ?? For D & E (they do not stand for Diversity and Evolution, a chapter in Biology - they are the grades, for your information), they are perhaps the mode for my assessments results. Let me emphasize, it is 'perhaps'. For US (not United States nor the word 'us', I just group these 2 grades together since they seem to be rather united and are always competing with each other to be imprinted onto my test papers), this might be a bit tedious for me because I can easily lose count of the numbers when counting.

Anyway, I guess you know what I am driving at - that is, my results have LOTS OF AREAS FOR IMPROVEMENTS.
If they were to be plotted on a graph, you will see a strictly monotonic increasing curve starting from the origin. And yes, you will be able to obtain an inverse function. (sorry, a bit of Math here) And the rate of change increases with increasing x. And be sure to leave enough space for the 1st quadrant, or rather the space for plotting y-values, too.

Okay, I shall not disregard your wish, so I am going to stop crapping.

Just watched the Beijing Olympics Closing Ceremony. I must say that the Olympics, on the whole, had been very successful, perhaps exceeding the expectations of many when they initially thought that China couldn't have been able to host a smooth and satisfactory Olympics. Beijing Olympics 2008 just wowed me, especially the Opening Ceremony. Both the Opening and Closing ceremonies were just marvellous, thanks to Zhang Yi-mou. London has admitted that they are feeling the pressure and commented that the high standard put up by China is indeed hard to emulate. I wonder if Singapore is feeling the pressure too for hosting the very first Youth Olympics Games in 2010. Will we wow the world then?

Below are some burning Bio questions I have. Some people to enlighten me please if you know the answers, either personally or through tagboard? Thanks in advance.

1. Since prokaryotes have no mitochondria, how do they obtain energy? Or do they have other mechanisms which we did not learn?
2. I know that Nucleic Acid Hybridisation is carried out after Gel Electrophoresis. But what's the purpose of Nucleic Acid Hybridisation? I just couldn't recall, suddenly.
3. Why is it that [cAMP] is inversely proportional to [glucose]? WHY?
4. What is the role and function of CAP, as discussed with regarding to lac operon?
5. Is embryonic stem cells equivalent to blastocyst? Does the ovum need to be fertilised before it develops into a blastocyst? I think, for the latter, it is 'no'. But why and how that an ovum could actually develop into a blastocyst?

I guess I just need some good Bio notes.

4 more days to GP Prelim.
And guess what, Chemistry department had actually set the Chem prelim paper pitched against RJ standard. Luckily, the college has decided to reduce the difficulties to VJ/TJ/NJ standard. In any case, it would be more difficult than Mid-year. Good luck to me.
And I seriously need to improve my Math by alot.
I shall abandon my blog from this moment onwards.

Disappointed with myself with my interpersonal skills. I'm just not good at it. Maybe I could truly communicate effectively only when in touch with the soul and spirit. How intangible. I guess very few people, or even none, could ever understand.

像一股清风一样来了，又悄无声息地荡去；而那至深的情丝，竟在招手之间，幻成了“西天的云彩”。那三个“轻轻的”，不忍惊动，不愿惊动。看似安静，实则沉重。
表现出的飘逸洒脱，实际上是难忍的万千离愁。来的喜悦，走的忧伤，如那一缕清风，淡淡的盘桓在似有若无中。

心潮起伏，思绪难平“波光里的艳影，在我的心头荡漾”，恍若回到了从前。
今梦虽破，而那彩虹般斑斓的碎片依旧那么绚丽多姿。梦沉淀在康河里，心也沉淀在康河里。

眼前那一谭青绿的泉水，幻成了“天上虹”，而在这“榆荫下的一谭”中，那星辉的斑斓，不正是被揉碎的彩虹般的梦么？
还能如过去一样“撑一支长篙”漫溯于康河之上，“满载一船星辉，在星辉斑斓里放歌”吗？

将这些都寄托给萧声，深沉舒缓的笙箫“如怨如慕，如泣如诉”。
我梦且未碎，心仍如昨，但站在这梦的胚芽潜滋暗长的康河，怎能不感慨良多“便纵有千种风情，更与何人说”。

就让那份美好，永远积淀在康河，永远尘封在记忆的画册。不要去惊扰，更无需去打破。

内心的苦涩、怅惘和某种难以言说的苦衷与悲哀。
“悄悄的走”如同“悄悄的来”，纵有千般不舍，更多的却是万般无奈。
寂然凝虑，满含着无限的眷恋与期待，心里不舍但故作潇洒，“挥一挥衣袖，不带走一片云彩”，留下那情真意切的依依深情。

:]

fear

I was relieved when I was promoted to JC2 upon receiving Promotional Exam result slip.
I did horrendously for JC2 Block Test but was fortunate that I was not demoted to JC1.
I unexpectedly improved from Block Test results in the Mid-Year Exam, partly due to the greater area for improvement since my reults for BT were damn bad.

It was certainly not easy for me to meet the expectations of the college for exams.
A tough journey for me, it is.

Just as I thought that I shall endure till the end of A level, the principal announced during morning assembly that "the college reserves the right to make you do a U-turn if you underperform for prelims".

My jaws dropped.

I've made it thus far.
Yet there's no guarantee that I can take my A level at the end of the year.

fear~
x_x

school

Time trials, time trials and time trials.
School life basically revolves around time trials after mid-year exam.
Really have to thanks such arrangement, or I won't know how the tireness and pain of my hand would feel like.
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Just endured a gruelling 6 hours of tests just now.
Cool. It's been quite some time since I went through 6 hours of tests in a day.
Sort of gotten used to it. =]
Firstly, there was a 3-hour Math Mock Paper 1 from 8am - 11am.
Followed by 3-hour of CLL P2 revision test from 1pm - 4pm.
It just feels so great after knowing that I've yet again endured through the mentally-draining tests.
Physically, there shouldn't by a big problem when doing a test. It's the mental strength that is the main factor whether or not you can carry on doing the paper.
IQ is not the only factor, EQ plays a rather major role too.
For me, given that IQ is not that high, needless to talk about EQ. =/
t_t
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Chem tutor has announced that Chemistry Prelim Exam will be difficult.
In fact, it'll be twice as hard.
*speechless*
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GP in-class compre next Mon.
CLL Paper 1 Part 2 test. 5.15pm - 6.45pm. =)
CLL Paper 1 Part 1 test. 5.15pm - 6.30pm. =)
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Looking forward to the end of next week.
Then it will be the official end of Term 3!
Week 10 will be study break.
Supposedly, there will be 2 weeks left before the commencement of Prelim.
BUT, GP Prelim on Thursday. *pray* GP is damn important!
Then, the next day, Fri, there is 3-hour Math Mock Paper 2 right after Teachers' Day. =)
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Some rumours here and there recently.
Sigh...
They're rather annoying.
Since I termed it as 'rumour', so stop being rumour-mongers and spreading untrue stuffs.
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I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE RELEASE OF S.H.E. ALBUM!
=p

unclassifiable

Prelims is just round the corner.
Sad to day, I'm not fully prepared yet. Everything's so unlike O level.
I shall embrace the challenges that A level pose upon me.

Anyway, I suddenly realise one thing recently. I sort of know what I truly want to do - that is to dance. Yes, dance.
If not for the opportunities to dance in sec sch to perform, whether during student council camps, sec 1 orientation or teachers' day, I wouldn't know how greatly dance really interests me.
Not that I can't dance well anyway, I even think that I have the potential to become a, well, good dancer. If I had known such interest of mine earlier, like in P6, I would have joined Dance as my CCA. On the other hand, I was glad that I didn't join after knowing that all the members of Modern Dance are girls only, even though no gender restriction is imposed for the CCA. Oh well, I'm a little fickle-minded. =\

So after I realised that I like to dance, I wanted to join Dance in JC. Unfortunately, I didn't. Firstly, I couldn't find the teacher-in-charge because I didn't know what is the name of the teacher, nor how he/she looks like. Secondly, there was this innate fear of being mocked at if my movements were not as proficient as others who might have more experiences in Dance. Thirdly, the deadline to join a CCA was nearing then, and so I just went to join CCAs that I could find those teacher-in-charge, lest I ended with no CCA, and hence had nothing to write for SGC.

Why interest for dance? I pondered myself over this question. Hmmmm....perhaps I enjoy the moments on the stage where I dance. Perhaps I enjoy dancing with others and together, to bring a wonderful performance to the audience. Perhaps I like to be involved and be part of a dance specially choreographed. And perhaps, since I'm not a good conversationalist, which is why I'm so gonna screw up my interviews, I could only express myself through body movements. (I used could as I don't want to be so certain that I acknowlege it as a fact. =\)

I always admire those dancers, especially those who got the chance to dance with a star/singers, who can do what they like to do. They don't just get to earn, they are also doing what they are happy about.

If only there is a industry that involves dance ... ... ... (Ok, I think I am dreaming ...)
Reality kills dreams.
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Attended LEP Farewell last Friday after National Day celebration. Received lots of encouragement by the Principal, VP and teachers. My heartfelt gratitude to them!
A quote by Subject Coordinator Mr Pang,

学会的东西很忙
学会的东西很多

（里头蕴藏着双层意义）

We were served a very delicious Nasi Lemak meal after the farewell party. It was actually one of the main reasons that I attended - FOOD, which helped to settle my lunch. =D

Christian the Lion - Reunion

Touching!

here i am!

Alright, I shall blog so as not to disappoint those who have been visiting my site. >.<"

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 23RD STUDENT COUNCIL!
5th July 2008 is our 3rd anniversary since we took over the office. Had a great time! and while we were walking towards clarke quay, we saw fireworks, as if they were celebrating with us too. LOL. think too much...

Mid-year results were released just few days after my last paper which was Bio P1. The teachers marked damn fast... Was awaiting my results with trepidation, vexing over how terrible I might fare this time round. I seemed to become not as confident as before towards my studies after getting all sorts of grades for major exams, EXCEPT 'A'.
Oh man, is my 'A' ever gonna to appear???

Now I can fully understand the value of 1 mark. For 2 subjects, I'm away from the next grade by a mere 1 mark. That cost my few ranking points.
On a high note, I'm glad I've improved from Block Test. My ranking points for mid-year doubled from the Block Test, can you imagine how horrendously I'd fared for that damn Block Test. I might as well just not attempt the Block Test papers, seriously.

Am glad for Chemistry and Maths. I swear that my heart was literally racing for dunno-what when my tutor was announcing our Chem results. And a second after my result was announced, my heartbeat went back to normal. Adrenaline rush...amazing... Anyway, I was commended with sarcarsm, something which I thought I should not deserve though it's not unexpected. lolx...

By the way, 0705 top the cohort! woohoo! Indeed, besides our tutor, I felt surprised too. 'Huh?!' was my first reaction.

Time-table was revamped for Term 3. No significant difference from my previous time-table. Went home at 5pm every day, except on Tue 3.45pm. But I thought it was okay, as long as the revision programmes are useful, which I thought they were.

Life hasn't been really exciting. Well, what can I ask for in JC? Nonetheless, there had been laughters, at least.

Endure! Endure!

happiness

What defines happiness?
It's not just a state of contentment or satisfaction for your current life, nor is it just when things are good, but is when they are getting better.

Sometimes I am really a cynic, with a cynical view (duh!) that life is prolonged misery interrupted by brief moments of happiness. Till now, I can't seem to agree to disagree. Much as I desire happiness, it becomes an impossible tasks, considering the fact the there are numerous voids gradually expanding in my heart. Anyway, intense happiness is just a transient, fleeting sensation, which I thought was akin to the reaction intermediate in a multi-step reaction mechanism (learnt in Chemistry -.-) that cannot be isolated, and will cease to exist after a brief moment of time.

Sigh, with those poignant memories creeping into my mind every now and then, life seems to become an even more arduous undertaking.

Face it, life is never a bed of roses.
And I have to concede that this fact of life is indeed saddening.

in the midst of MYE period

SO I took Chem P3 and Bio P2 today. Shan't do any postulations on my results since the level of disappointment will be proportional to the level of expectations.
I suddenly realised a trend in the duration of my exam time-table. 3 hours of Math P1 on Mon, total of 4 hours of Chem p3 & Bio P2, and a total of 5 hours of CLL P1 and Math P2 coming Friday. After this week, I would have taken 12 hours of exam, equivelant to half a day. And that's not it, there's still next week.

Oh man, I think I am suffering from some sort of "exam-anxiety" syndrome. Even though I made myself to lie on my bed at 11pm, I am somehow unable to travel to my dreamland for hours, and by the time I finally slept, I think the clock is showing 1am or perhaps 2am. Consequently, I only had 3 - 4 hours of sleep instead of 6. [V_V]

Had been watching SHE videos on Crunchyroll. So funny! Oh well, need to take a break after intensive studying and shall continue tomorrow to memorise Chinese and also to practise Math.
Functions, Maclaurin's Series, Area and Volume by Integration and perhaps some Vectors might come out for P2. And I seriously need some logical thinking or I can't do P&C and Probability!

Oh ya, I love my mum!
LOLz....
I'm quite random, at times.

Enough of blogging, I shall go and watch more SHE videos =]

mid-year exam

MID-YEAR EXAM!

SHIT! I am so scared now.

3-hour MATH P1 on Monday.
Hope that it is really a 3-hour paper for me, and not 1-hour or any less (that is, there are many questions which I dunno how to go about solving them). *Touchwood!

Chem P3 & Bio P2 on Wednesday.
CHEMISTRY - my greatest source of phobia.
If only my tutor could believe in me that I can eventually make it for A level for this subject, then perhaps I can relax myslf a bit and not getting myself too stressed up. If only no one is bugging me to drop any subjects no matter what my mid-year results would be... and have faith in me...
Perhaps some people out there thought that I am obstinate and perhaps, shameless. But I have no time, nor do I want, to care about their perception for me. I'll just have to carry on with my life as usual, along with faith.
Chem tutor has said before that the mid-year exam serves to 'kill' us. Oh man... Nothing being said now will aid in better my grades. I just have to perform my best abilities during exam. I want to pass, and, if possible, get better grades.

BIOLOGY - the subject which I have always been passionate about, and was my most confident subject in sec sch and O level. I want to reverse my JC Bio exam results trend. Oh man... =\

CLL P1 and MATH P2 on Friday.
For this June holiday, I TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY did not even read my CHINESE LANG & LIT stuff at all! Well, I wanted to devote my time to other subjects actually.

MATH P2 - Hopefully can score for Statistics, provided that the questions are not asked in such a way that I don't know what it wants.

Alright, I know I should be studying instead!

25th SLC

Just came back from the SLC organised by the 25th SC - their last event working together, as is with any other batch of SC from JSS. Expectedly, sense of nostalgia was stirred up while watching the campers being punished together and yet not forgetting to encourage one another to 'endure!'.

Many seniors from 16th, 18th, 19th, 20th, 22nd, 23rd and 24th SC came back to help out in this camp, though some of them only wish to participate in one special event organised during SLC. But for me, the objective is not for the special event, but rather for the sense of togetherness being in the big family of Student Council, as well as to be a part in the mission of grooming leaders. One can easily notice that in every batch, there are always a few who are very 'on' one who will definitely come back without fail to help out, perhaps this is due to the level of commitment.

Just 4 hours ago, yet another batch of leaders have successfully endured through the test. Congrats to the upcoming 26th SC. At the same time, it just means that I am getting older, just like other seniors who whine about their age difference compared to the campers. Time flies.

Enjoyed myself during my stay in the SLC. Had lots of laughters! Lolz...

Allan Er Jun Yao

Alright, the purpose of blogging right now despite not having my sleep for 29 hours is so that my hair will dry because I just showered. Since my hair is almost dry, and I am almost zonked out, I shall stop and head for bed... ...

some deep-seated thoughts

Just wanna pen down some of the many deep-seated thoughts that are in my mind these past few days / months / years... (i think i lost count of the period of time already -.-)

When somebody has lost something that is deemed invaluable, it is only 'normal', 'natural' and 'correct' that he/she desires very much for it to be returned back to him/her. Being the descendants of Neanderthals, if you believe in evolution theory that is, it is only natural and logical that you couldn't forget that invaluable 'thing' so easily simply because Homo sapiens do have feelings. When people advised you to 'Forget about it. There's more to life to look forward to', besides being grateful that you have such supportive friends around you, in reality it is actually not easy, or I should just say very difficult, to just 'forget about it'. I think this stems from the fact that humans are not cold-blooded animals, all of us have the ability to feel emotions. Hence unless you belong to the group of total cruel, naive, benumbed or apathetic etc, you wouldn't agree or believe that you could forget something that easily and simply.

The point I'm driving at is that something that have had been able to become one of the most memorable events in your life are hard to completely forget, especially if they are the very first time you got to experience and learn to appreciate the beauty of it. I believe that the first-times are events that will be etched in one's mind the most deeply, perhaps because it is the first time that a particular part of the brain got triggered by the emotions stirred. Since these first-time experiences are so unforgettable, just like indelible marks which have been impressed in one's memory, it is inevitable that one will relate similar experiences he/she meets again with the first-time experience. Very often, one wouldn't want to accept these new similar experiences unless the emotions stimulated are so much 'better' / 'superior' than the first-time experience, so much so that makes them feel that they are fortunate to miss their first-time. Only then would one want to risk to forget their first-time and allow the new experience to gradually occupy their lives fully. Still, some fragments of the first-time memory remain etched in their minds.


Before I met you, I never ever imagine myself how good it would be if I were to be in some relationship. Though I saw lovey-dovey couples before, I never take the trouble to seriously contemplate what exactly is so nice about it. How could somebody suddenly like to be with another person so much when both of them were still strangers beforehand. The process is too complicated for me to illustrate then.
Suddenly, you approached me and talked to me after a lesson when the class was walking down to canteen for recess. I was shocked, since we rarely or never actually talked before. I vaguely remembered that you said I was 'cute', or 'handsome' (lolx.... (",)) and seemed interested in me. At that point of time, I dunno how to react, and so I exhibit my usual humorous way in responding back to you, and you laughed, and I continued my way to canteen with my friend.
Back in class, you approached to my seat and talked to me again. For fear of you liking me, I treated you coldly, since I had always been skeptical about being involved in any relationship then when I still had no idea what that feeling is exactly. You realised that I was beginning to treat you coldly whenever you talked to me, and to resolve the situation and to salvage the friendship, you then told me that you had never thought what I thought you had in mind. At that moment, I was relieved that history wouldn't be happening again like when I was in P4. I just said, "Okay okay" to you, trying to tell you that I knew you didn't have that thought, though I knew very well I was deceiving, and you looked relieved that you didn't cause an end to a friendship and walked back to your seat.
Since that day, we started to talk to each other more often, and it was so frequent that you became the one I talked most with. Somehow, I began to see the first glimpse of light guiding me to the knowledge of being in a relationship. The process itself is indeed complex, which can be attributed to my initial unconceivableness of this subject matter. Problems arose when the fact that each of us has a network of friends, as is with anybody else, and similar feelings may be stirred upon in different individuals concurrently, and these made the matter even more complex. I found myself somehow lost between human-to-human relationship, and found myself floating in the middle of an ocean knowing no knowledge of the right direction I should be heading to. Confused and lack of courage, I stay put in my life. But the rest had been able to find their way out of this complex issue. I admit that jealousy overwhelmed me then but I managed to suppress it from erupting, like I have always been. Still water runs deep. I think I am one, a thinker who is analytical and think deeply about an issue.
Now, things are not exactly the same. Having tried dipping myself in the river of the Lethe, I think the river has failed its power on me, or perhaps I didn't dip myself fully in the river, the first-time trigger is still there somewhere. I have no idea how this is going to end up. I just hope that each of us follows our heart, and not commit to whatever actions hastily which may lead to regrets later in life or find out that perhaps one has acted against the will of destiny. If these were to ever happen, I guess one will feel an extremely unbearable angst.
Having been evolved to an organism with a complex mind, a person may change, in terms of character, mindset or perception, perhaps due to exposure to new events and thus, new experiences. Such thing may happen - that is a person changes, but I doubt the extent is very great. Some things just are unable to be forgotten that effortlessly and decidedly.

I know I have written many. But you know what, this is just a tip of an iceberg. There are many more issues I have thought about. I think that I think alot. lolx...

Maybe I'm more of a writer than being vocal in expressing and conveying my thoughts.

Nonetheless, if anyone of you wanna get to know about me, you may still talk to me. Rest assured that I will try my best in translating my thoughts into the correct words so that you can know what's exactly in my thinking mind. But there's no guarantee that I will be able to succeed though. Sometimes, you may find that I am at a loss of words when you hear me stutter - having difficulty at expressing. Then, for fear of wasting your time waiting for me to say something out, or that your attention span for me is lost, I will just quickly say whatever that comes to my mind in trying to say the exact thoughts I have, which is often not exactly what I wanna say. In such cases, do prompt me with whatever you think that I am trying to say, then I may be able to find the correct words from you, and together with my own words, and tell you the exact things in my mind. Well, if you want, perhaps you can provide a pen and a paper for me to write down instead. hahax...
Of course, I won't just tell any Tom, Dick or Harry about my thoughts. The person would be someone who I could trust, which is the most fundamental, and/or with any other criteria which are left to me to decide and judge, before I would want to share with you my thoughts. So when you see me unwilling to tell you anything personal which you may ask, then there's no point harping on the questions you want to ask.

Seriously, I need to learn the ability to talk out my thoughts. Right now, I am at a big disadvantage in many situations which require talking, and in the future, I am going to screw up my interviews.

Oh well~

june hols

Watched "Windstruck" yesterday night on Channel U from 11.30pm to 2 am! I woke up only at 1.25pm today~~ oh well...
Sure feel guilty for sleeping so long and wasted my time to study. But this is the first time this year that I watched a movie till so late and slept for so long! So i shan't feel so bad about myself.

Windstruck is somewhat similar to "My Sassy Girl". But Winstruck is a SAD ROMANTIC story. Oh my, I nearly cried while watching it cuz it's really sad!

The girl is a policewoman who is determined to get rid of the criminals while the guy is a Physics teacher. One day, the guy was chasing a robber but he was misunderstood by the policewoman as the robber instead. So this is how they met.



The guy later went to volunteer as a police patrol and was teamed up with the same policewoman he met earlier. On their course of patrolling, they witnessed a case of illegal trading of drug and the policewoman wanted to catch them by following a guy involved. But the timid Physics teacher wouldn't want to follow, so he attempted to run away but the policewoman handcuffed him together with her, and both of them followed the guy.




After successfully catching the criminals, the policewoman found out that she had lost the key to unlock the handcuff, thus they spent a night sleeping together while being handcuffed with each other. Thereafter, their love for each other grows and they become involved in a relationship.

After some episodes of life, in a dark alley, the policewoman accidentally shot her boyfriend in the heart in an attempt to shoot another criminal she aimed for. The boyfriend actually wanted to help his girlfriend to catch the highly dangerous criminal, which his girlfriend never knew of. His boyfriend eventually died. The girl wanted so much to die with her boyfriend that she committed suicide but was eventually rescued.

The girl belived firmly that after 7 x 7 = 49 days, the spirit of his boyfriend would come and look for her, as it was depicted in a legend that in 49 days after a person died, the ghost spirit of the deceased will come and look for his loved ones before the spirit leave the mortal world forever.

And on the 49th day, the spirit of her boyfriend indeed come to look for her. The girl was really delighted to be able to finally get to see her boyfriend again. Tears rolled down the cheeks of both parties. After a short conversation, the house becomes brighter suddenly, signalling the boyfriend to leave.

The girl wanted so much to leave with him. But the guy said to her that she still haa a long way to go in life and let him leave with her love she had for him instead.

[Oh man, the scene was so touching.... I wouldn't want to carry on with my life if I can ever follow the person to wherever we will be going, anywhere but remaining in the mortal world, forever.]

Left with no choice, they bade goodbyes with each other.

The story ended with the policewoman met with another guy at a train station. She vividly heard the voice of his dead boyfriend, in the wind, telling her that he will come back to her somehow and belived that she can sense his existence. The guy she met at the train station was clearly the one whom she felt the existence of his boyfriend. The girl, with tears rolling in her eyes, smiled at the guy, knowing deeply in her heart that his boyfriend was near her; while for the guy, he looked puzzled but somehow felt that the girl is special in a certain way...

Perhaps her dead boyfriend left her with hopes somehowwhile she continues living her life.

And the story ended~~



Not bad a movie. Anyway, the point is it is really touching. haha...
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Anyway, 1st week of holiday is coming to an end very soon. Just when I am pondering why I have only managed to finish revising only Chemistry, I found out that I have to study for Bio and Chem SPAs until Wed. So I am actually only free to study what I want only from yesterday. No wonder I thought that I am so not productive. -.-

But that also means that I need to study intensively so as to be able finish my revision for all subjects and am prepared for mid-year exams!
Good luck~~~~

I shall force myself, no matter how, to memorise all the Inorganic Chem reaction equations, to fully understand Vectors and Recurrence Relations, to selectively memorise (not going to memorise poems that have come up last year A level) Chinese Language and Lit stuffs! As for Bio, I will just have to reinforce all those I have understood and polish my answering techniques with details.

Holidays = Days to study except for the need to go to school. (by Ms Amy Phua)
But this will not be applicable to the December holidays this year! I am so looking foward to its arrival~

past week

MY wisdom tooth remains intact. The dentist just gave me antibiotics and medicine which cured the pain around my neck, as well as 2 small bottles of Listerine which contain fluoride -.-"
Hope nothing worse will happen, at least until the end of this year. *cross finger*

J2s went to watch the A Div Volleyball Boys final at Toa Payoh on Thursday. NYJC beat TJC 3-0 to clinch the championship! I would say it was relatively easy for NYJC to win this time round compared to last year against AJC. It was much more exciting last year.
Unexpectedly, the J2s actually cheered loudly. lolx... I thought the SC would have a hard time to making us cheer but most of us were very enthusiastic. Perhaps some of them have never watched a Volleyball match. "N -! Y -! J - C!" Even the primary school kids followed us and cheered for our college.

This 3-day long weekend, as usual, was not enjoyable for me. Had 3-hour CLL paper 1 on Sat morning. After that, I have to crap testimonial for quan hui out... lolx... And need to MEMORISE Chem SPA Skill A for the mock SPA tomorrow. Bio Mock SPA Skill A will be on coming Thursday.. argh.... I just want to get SKILL A over and done with!

Saddened by the many natural disasters that happened recently. I restrained myself from reading too much on the news for fear that I might become desensitized. Oh well, just like a doctor who may have used to seeing life and deaths in the hospital, I may well become numb to such human disasters which I wouldn't want myself to become to be. Life for the affected people would be very difficult. Let us all show our compassion and love for them, perhaps this is the least which all of us can do.

'Wisdom' indeed -.-

ARGH!
I can't believe that the swollen gum at the back of my lower left molar which I thought was a huge ulcer is actually a Wisdom Tooth!
Damn wisdom tooth! Why must you only erupt now? And I miss school today because I know I won't be able to concentrate anyway! And I would be going to see dentist later to see how's my condition.

Unfamiliar with Wisdom tooth, I went Wikipedia to know more about it.
And I found out:
Wisdom teeth are the third molar and usually appear between the ages of 17 and 25.

Most people have four wisdom teeth, but it is possible to have more or fewer. (Oh man, I hope I belong to the minority!)

Sometimes the wisdom tooth fails to erupt completely through the gum bed and the gum at the back of the wisdom tooth extends over the biting surface, forming a soft tissue flap or lid around the tooth called an operculum. (I think I have this problem! Argh!)

Common symptoms include a swelling and redness of the gum around the eruption site, difficulty in opening the mouth, a bad odor or taste in the mouth, and pain in the general area which may also run down the entire lower jaw or possibly the neck. (Yes! Pain!!)

Evolution may be part of the cause of getting Wisdom tooth:
Wisdom teeth are vestigial third molars. In earlier times, when tooth loss in early adulthood was common, an additional molar had the potential to fill in a gap left by the loss of another tooth. It has also been postulated that the skulls of human ancestors had larger jaws with more teeth, which were possibly used to help chew down foliage to compensate for a lack of ability to efficiently digest the cellulose that makes up a plant cell wall. As human diet changed, a smaller jaw was selected by evolution, yet the third molars, or "wisdom teeth", still commonly develop in human mouths.

Other findings suggest that a given culture's diet is a larger factor than genetics in the development of jaw size during human development (and, consequently, the space available for wisdom teeth).

Different human populations differ greatly in the percentage of the population which form wisdom teeth, ranging from 99.8% in Bantu speakers to nearly 0% in Mexican Indians The difference is related to the PAX9 gene (and perhaps other genes).

(PAX9 gene has found to be associated with a number of organ and other skeletal developments, particularly teeth. It transcribes a protein of 341 amino acids from 4 exons and 1,644bps in humans.)

Sigh...Dunno whether I'll be asked to go for operaton to have the wisdom tooth extracted out or not. If I'm advised to, of course I will. I don't want any future problems. Moreover, it takes a shorter time to heal when you are younger. But the healing process will be a very painful one! Bleeding and oozing are inevitable and will last for at least 3 days. =(
=.= I have thought and worried so much about it when I have not even go and see a dentist.

I have been starving for 2 days already! Because I can't even bite properly as it is really painful!
Including today, it will be 3 days in which I am consuming only a tiny percentage of calories recommended for a 18-year-old. For these 3 days, a bowl of very watery porridge, a bottle of soya bean milk, 1 cup of milk, 1 cup of milo and 2 slices of white bread are what I have consumed in total. And of course drank about only 5 mugs of water which provides 0 calorie.
But weirdly, my stomach didn't give me hungry pangs, or least not those loud ones. It only gives me an 'acidic' feeling of my hydrochloric acid churning air. Guess my body understands my problem well. Much as I want to eat something nice (I want to go try the Fish Zinger!), I am unable to. Hope my body won't mistake me as anorexic though. =.=

Maybe it's a good and rare chance for me to cut down my weight and to become slimer. lolx...
Measured at 55kg when I go weighed myself recently, I wonder how many kilos I will lose after this ordeal.

Perhaps the fortunate thing is that my widsom tooth erupt now rather than during important exam period, though there is GP mid-year exam next Friday and Bio and Chem SPA 2 weeks later. To digress a little, I passed my Chem Organic Test! =] And I passed my NAPFA test!!! I was so relieved!

J2s are invited to go and support the Volleyball boys in the final match this thursday. It's been a long time since I watch a match since last year (only once) and I'm looking forward to this match. But I have to see how my condition is first....=\

Wish myself good luck for the dental visit later ... ... nervous and scared....

'labour' day~

SO I slept till 12pm+++ on Mayday (or Labour Day). Hahax..I admit that I slept like a log~~~
Studied for Chemistry Organic test, started only at 2pm and the rest of the day was devoted to only Chem, only for the sake for the test this morning. I could've gotten more marks, like 5 more marks, if my brain was a little bit more clear and me not getting that nervous and impatient. Passing it is my aim=]

My precious Saturdays are gone, at least for 2 more Saturdays =(
NAPFA 6 stations test tmr! I TRULY HOPE that I can PASS my 2.4km rum! My standing broad jump! My sit-and-reach! Hohoho....I'm really not athletic. That means I need more training...But there's no more time left. I don't want to do retest 2 Saturdays later or do it again in July. And most importantly, I'm not letting mysef to train for 2 extra months for BMT!

CLL P2 test 3hour FULL paper next Saturday! Sianx~
As if this is not enough, CLL P1 3 hour FULL paper the Saturday after next!
ARGH! I hate writing in Chinese now than ever! I sympathise with my hands and fingers! And, well, pen ink -.-"

Bio Mock SPA Skill A next monday...Math Statistics Lecture test next tuesday... Bio Diversity & Evolution test next Thursday... GP essay writing next Fri...
=X

Anyway, I pre-empt that the following 2 weeks is a test for my endurance, yet again. 6-day week for 2 consecutive weeks. I shall tell myself this: "It's Mon. Be happy, for Friday is coming =)"

Alright, I have to and must come to my senses now. Felt kinda relieved for knowing it. Of course felt happy for the parties =] Whatever sadness or disappointment or depression, I shall not risk myself beng embittered and trapped by dwelling too much in these emotions, which I am capable of since I am kind of sentimental person (lolx...), and I shall dip myself in the river of Lethe.

GP lessons are the most interesting ones. In contrast, I dreaded for reporting for PE lessons. Therefore, I must pass my NAPFA tmr yea!

GP tutor showed us a movie titles\d ' The Truman Show'. Damn awesome and cool movie. It exaggerated the consequences of the mass media being so rampant that the private life of Truman, since young, has been broadcasted to the public, and this is kept in the dark from Truman because all the people he met in his life are 'actors' and all the events he had participated in are all 'arranged' by the people in-charge of Truman Show.

This movie provokes us to find out for ourselves does the truth really matter. Why do we want to know the truth, if everything now is, or seems, perfectly alright for us? What if the truth is ugly? Why not choose to continue to live how we are living now? Does the truth REALLY matter?

I got a hard time choosing my stand. Apparently, after careful and thoughtful considerations for both sides of the arguments, I have not chosen a concrete stand which I strongly stand by.

I can't wait to step down from CCA which is on next Wed! It's time for the real thing.

*embrace life =)*

if u know what i'm trying to say

I am a stranger in this strange place.
And I felt so lonely.
I would never travel alone anymore.

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Life is so 'sian'. I'm sure people around me always hear me saying 'So sian...'. Ppl like quan hui especially... LOLx....
Paiseh ah.....

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If life is so perfect...
I'd be worried
That if everything is just a facade
That it won't actually last long
And will be over soon.
Will I be able to accept the fact then?
Can I handle it?

Life is a challenge.
But it is also a chance.

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On the bed...

Sanshun: Zhenxian, do you love me?

Zhenxian: Huh?? Do you even need to ask this question??

Sanshun: Then say 'I love you' to me!

Zhenxian: What?! I can't bring myself to say those things!

Sanshun: Come on! You should express your love and let people around you know that you care for them!

Zhenxian: I always do that in my heart.

Sanshun: Then they won't know that you actually care for them!

Zhenxian: What's the difference when you keep your love in your heart and to express it out? They're the same!

Sanshun: No! They are not! People wouldn't mind being showered with more love if you want to give them!

Zhenxian: Oh my! You're so childish!

Sanshun: We people are all childish! Come on, say it to me!

Zhenxian: Can't be bothered with you!

Sanshun: Look like I will have to make you say it right now! If you won't do it, you will never say it!

And so Sanshun uses her brute force and strangles Zhenxian round his neck and force Zhenxian to say

Zhenxian: Ahh!!! Let go of me!!!!!

Sanshun: Come on! Just three words! Say it to me!

Zhenxian is struggling...

Zhenxian: I.........love.........you........

Sanshun: Louder! Come on!

Zhenxian: I.............Love............You!

Sanshun: I can't hear you! Louder!!!

Zhenxian (with all his might): I..................LOVE...............YOU!!!!!!!!

Sanshun, satisfied for now, let go of Zhenxian

Zhenxian (panting): Oh my! Can't believe you are so strong... (pant...)

Sanshun: I'll let you off for now. Next time, I want to hear it from you from the bottom of your heart, alright?

Zhenxian (pretending not to hear): Come on dear, let's do what we're supposed to do... ... ...

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trip to IMH

Regret for not taking MRT home from IMH just now... I was caught in a massive traffic jam in the bus...

So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.

The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.

service-learning =]

Some updates... though blogging is really what I shouldn't do now~

Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[

For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~

There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!

Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.

Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]

There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...

Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...


Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D

cry...

Sometimes I really would like to cry my heart out.
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).

相识满天下，知心有几人

0705 outing

So after 1h 15min of Bio P1 today, 0705 went to Yuki Yaki at Marina Square for our breakfast and lunch! Since most of us didn't take our breakfast, and Yuki Yaki opens only at 12 noon, thus considered as both breakfast and lunch for us. We spent almost 4 full hours there and I was really full after 2 hours of eating. And I was the first person to 'surrender' to more food as my stomach was really already bloated. I just can't understand how the rest especially the girls, can eat so much -.-" One lucky thing is that we get 2 cups of FREE ice-cream each as today is so-called a 'special day' which I have no idea what exactly it is. Each of us paid only $12.90 which I thought is quite cheap. The food there was also not too bad, up to expectations =]

Slept for 1h+ in the evening and had dinner with my dad outside after that. And here I am online and also to print bio and chem notes. Sports carnival tomorrow =.=" Need to wake up early yet again. Am involved in orienteering, shall do our best...

As a naruto-addict, I shall post some Naruto pictures =P


Naruto Shippuden characters.I find this picture cool, especially Sasuke and Sai at the back.


Forth Hokage! with Kakashi on the right of the front row.


Haruno Sakura. Looks demure here but she's really powerful... see below... lolx...


Naruto was punched ~


Uchiha Sasuke


Sai, a good guy who is once devoid of emotions.


The trio who were trying hard to find out how Kakashi really looks like under his mask. damn funny episode!

Lookng forward to the next episode ...

my a lvl tme-table... sigh...

A level time-table is out on SEAB website. Suay...my time-table isn't good for me to have more time to study before the next paper.
This is how my time-table goes:

• 30th & 31st Oct: CLL P1 & P2
• 3rd - 7th Nov: GP P1 & 2, Math P1, Bio P2, Chem P3, Math P2 on each day. I hate this week!
• 11th and 14th Nov: Chem P2 and P1 respectively
• 17th and 20th Nov: Bio P3 and P1 respectively

Only 217 more days to my first A level paper. >.<
Need to come up with a formula / strategy / study plan so that I can manage the packed a level schedule soon... Am pondering about it... =\

Just checked my Chem P1 results on litespeed. 29/40. Not bad la hor.... haha... Really am shocked when I found out my result, since my Chem has always been sucky. Hope to get better results next time round. Good Chem notes do make a great difference. lolx... Hope this is able to compensate the poor results which I am going to score for P2... oh well...-.-

1 more paper left to the end of Block Test. Bio P1 coming Friday. Going to school only from 8am to 9.15am to take the paper. Quite dumb.. lolx... But A level will be like this anyway..

There are several reasons for me to like exam period. hahax... Though it indeed will be a stressful period, but I can go home early after taking the paper, since my normal lessons end at around 5pm on average every day. Also, I can sleep longer on days when my papers are in the afternoon session since there's no need to report for morning assembly. And of course, I don't have to go to school when there are no papers for me for that day! Can sleep for as long as I want to. Can slack, I mean take a break, from the routine of doing the exact same things everyday. haha... There's no school for me tomorrow, yeah! maybe I'll go Orcahrd for shopping... lol!

Anyway, I have enjoyed the days during the past 2 weeks of Block test period, to a certain extent. haha... Do I sound like a sadist? Don't worry, I'm not a masochist. lolx..
But now, towards the end of Block test, I need to finish all the tutorials which I have yet to complete! CLL P1 and Complex numbers. This tutorial load is considered light already so I guess I shouldn't grumble, and complete them!

I dreamt a dream. We were together, had a wonderful time after a certain event (which I couldn't recall). Holding hands together, heartbeats went faster, but was enjoying every moment. I thought it was a reality. Then I opened my eyes, only to see familiar objects of my room, diasppointment overwhelmed me.

If only it was ...
How I wish it is ...
But I feel we already are ...

naruto shippuden ep 48

Naruto Shippuden is truly awesome!

How I admire Naruto for his perseverance and the 'never-say-die' attitude towards rescuing his good friend, Sasuke, from Orochimaru. Even though Sasuke has said that he 'doesn't care about Naruto anymore', Naruto still regards Sasuke as his friend because Sasuke was the one who has made Naruto felt his existence most.

When Sai asked why Naruto is willing to risk his life just to save Sasuke, who no longer regard him as a friend anymore, and moreover, the enemy Naruto is going to face is Orochimaru who is far more powerful than him, Naruto said the following which made me feel touched,

"If my hands are torn off, I'll kick him to death!
If my legs are torn off, I'll bite him to death!
If my head is torn off, I'll stare him to death!
If my eyes are torn off, I'll curse him to death!" [ him = Orochimaru ]


Need to study for Block Test. Gonna finish my 1st round of Chemistry revision tomorrow. Hopefully... MUST!
After which, I must practise on my Math!
Then, I'll start on my CLL Lit component. Gonna study selectively as there'll not be enough time anyway. 1 week to study => insufficient. But no procrastination is allowed. I dun wanna fail!

rambling

FINALLY, 1st Mar 2008 is gone and my suffering is over!
Overall, I would say BYG 2008 was a success despite the many obstacles we met while preparing for this event.
Sales of tickets 4 days before the actual performance was only a pathetic 25%. Yet, by the end of the performances, the sales was beyond 90%! Isn't that incredible? Unbelievable?! Even me need some time to accept the exponential increase in the sales of the tickets in the last week. I vaguely remembered that 9 days before the actual performance, the sales was really bad - a mere 10%. 5 days later, it slightly went up to 25%. By then, the teachers were damn worried about the sales.
And I was blamed for not being worried, or rather never show to people that I was really worried. My first reaction was: WHAT? Ask me to act and pretend that I was worried about the sales? I hate hypocrites and I would NEVER do such hypocritical acts in my life! I am not obligated to do this. And I was told that by not being worried about the sales, I sort of cause the teachers to be insulted when I looked as if nothing serious had happened.
I do embrace the logic behind it but sadly, I do feel sorry for this reality in life. Sometimes we have to pretend a bit, be hypocritical for a while, all because of the outcome we desire to happen. We can't be like how kids are like, or rather how we were like when we were still small little children, when we could express whatever we felt at any moment and forget about it after a short while.

Regarding the bad sales initially, I do have to be partly responsible for it, but definitely not all, not even most. Sales of tickets require ALL of us to work hard upon, to boost the selling of tickets. It is ridiculous that a group leader is the only one to be blamed for the poor sales. I understand that it is inevitable for people to throw their comments on me regarding the sales performance but I don't give a damn, because my principle is that ALL should work hard to sell their tickets and ALL should be blamed if sales is not up to the minimal expectations.
[I'm glad that my blog gives me the channel to express what I wanna say, especially my principle on this issue, as there won't be anyone who will listen to me rambling about it.]

The problem of 'saving face' can actually turn someone into another person. One will become so worried and anxious that he becomes very agitated when talking to the person who is deemed to cause a particular incident.
I saw the ugly side of human being. It is really ugly, and scary. I detest it to the core.

I was told that I have disppointed people. I have not lived up to their expectations. Regarding the issue of expectations, I am not at all interested. Expectations are what people set for you and it has nothing to do with the person whether he/she has met the expectations. As long as I have no regrets and conscience is clear, things are fine. I don't aim to live up to any people's expectations. There is, of course, a small generalisation I've made when stating the former sentence. I will still work very hard not to disappoint my loved ones - family, ... ... ... for they are most special to me and they are not those ugly people who I will meet in the outside world.

Spent quite some time here grumbling... I intended to upload some photos but well, it's time for me to sleep. So next time ba... ...

I need $$$$$. Broke... =\
On the bright side, my constellation sign - Aquarius - states that I will be spending quite alot of $ this month, but it is all for exchanging with things that are valuable to me, something that can last for a long time. So it's worth it. =)

stressed

1st day of school after CNY.
Received many ang baos... grins... $_$
Played majong with cousins. Though won, sadly, didn't play with money, just chips. Haha, I am the most pro amongst the 4 of us. wahahahahahha!!! And I'm now more confident in majong! =P

Stress is building up.

Transition metals test tmr. Though can bring A5 self-written notes to help, passing the test is uncertain. sigh... Fate shall decides for me. I'm used to it, anyway.

Virus and prokaryotes test this thurs. Nothing much to elaborate on. Same as above. =\

Integration application and Differential equations test next thurs. Same as above. =.=

Chem SPA Skill B and C next Fri! I must score well in it!!! Must!

Bio eukaryotes test 2 weeks after. nothing much to say...

Bio SPA Skill D 2 weeks later. Must score in it too!! Must!

All tests, tutorials and CCA rehearsals are virtually 'squeezed' into this 3 weeks. Many tedious things to do as publicity and ticketing committee. s-t-r-e-s-s. That's the word. And it's building up.

I dunno if I will eventually break down. But I know that that's not a choice for me.

That's life.


Being so busy nowadays, yet I always think about happiness. How great it would be... ...
Life will be so much more meaningful (=

>.<

For dunno what reason, I'm blogging now...on a very plain and simple blogskin.
Things shouldn't be made too complex.

Let's see, what am I going to blog about??

Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.

Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...

Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.

For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...

Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.

GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...


Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...

And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!



Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
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