Promos in less than 10 days! JIA YOU!!! =]
To all graduating secondary students (in particular) and you,
Nanyang Junior College Open House
Date: 12th October 2007, Friday
Time: 2pm - 5pm
Venue: Nanyang Junior College {duh =.= lolx}
All are invited! =D
Attractive prizes to be won when you join our games and competitions. :)
For any enquries, please feel free to contace me via phone/sms/tagboard/anyone who knows me and ask them to ask me! hahax...
You may want to visit the college website (<---- P.S. click on website). (: (Just helping to do some promotion. xp)
Life's been indeed stressful yet fun every day. Realise that I laugh more often recently. HAHAHA.... =D
Audrey's chinese name is "Orderly"! LOLX... laugh till like having asthma...
Anyway, you can help save the Earth by using a more environmentally-friendly search engine: Blackle (<---- click on it!) !!!
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Shdn't stay long here... vanish...
Friday, September 14, 2007
Saturday, September 08, 2007
complexity of life
'Emo'. Many people do emo at times, and i can easily say out few names from my class who emo. and i myself is one of them but i think it is not known to many, if not none. cos i dun show it... I daresay all poets emo very often, evident from the poems and song-cis I study during Literature lessons, when they used metaphors, personification bla bla bla...which we will need to evaluate during tests and exams. v_v" People emo because they feel for something very much, spiritually and emotionally. Sometimes the feeling is so deep and they are so engaged that they even shut themselves off from the external environment and live in a world as if they are the only ones living, too involved in their thoughts to bother about any other things. It may seem foolish. Nonetheless, personally, I feel that it does help us reflect about that 'something', and ask ourselves 'why do I care so much for?', even though many times there will not be any definite answers arrived to one in the end when you are finally back to living in the real world.
There's a void in my heart that need to be filled up so that my life is complete. The feeling is annoying, seriously. And I did spend some time to reflect, many times. And everytime I came to the conclusion that I should act and strive to achieve it lest I regret for my whole life. And I did. I did start to put my thoughts into actions, dropping hints and hope that they could be understood, as well as for me to verify if my conjecure is true, so that I can be confident in making my last, final, most important move to realise my dream. But life is never a smooth-sailing one. There were times that made me feel that my conjecture is true, though, which I felt really delighted. However, there were also times that I felt disappointed due to the fact that the responses I received had not been the way it should be if my conjecture is true. There are contradictions. And I felt that I am stuck, whether should I continue to find out the truth or to give up. There had never been a definite conclusion that I can come to, never.
That makes me think about the complexities of life and us, humans, highly evolved species since millions years ago. Can't life be much simpler? I doubt so. And I think that life can have no upper limit in getting more complex that ever. And this brings my mind to dwell in my childhood when it was so relaxing and carefree, nothing stressful and all that I was supposed to do was to play with my toys, run about the house or the playground, sleep for as long as I wanted to, and this routine repeated itself the following days. Life then was just so beautiful. It was much so simpler then. Everything that you said then was exactly what you want to express. But that was just a facade to real life. Sometimes whatever we say now is never always what that comes out from out hearts. There is the element of pretence in it. And I shan't elaborate as we all know the real image of life. And what makes life so stressful and difficult? I think is humans, the highly evolved species who have unlimited wants, who always want to compete with one another to be the first in everything, who have the pride too great to swallow... ... ...
How ironic! In the end, it is ourselves to be blamed that cause us to land in such a pathetic state of living. And I guess it is the price we have to pay and the sacrifice we have to make for being so highly intelligent relative to other species.
Perhaps the way humans act and behave do not allow us to see through and undestand fully how one is feeling. One may be feeling empty and depressed but he/she shows that he/she has nothing to worry and is feeling happy. Or one may loathe another person but he/she still treats the person nice on the surface, but deep down he/she has the strong feeling of hatred, yet he/she continues to act hypocritically. Of course there are more kinds of such pretentious acts. That's the sad thing of most humans, if not all: not wanting to show the inner true feelings so that everything could be simpler. A consequence of the rat race we are all in?
After my most recent reflection, I thought that me decision should be to give up, and my conjecture has had been a most laughable joke, and that it's time, finally, for me to get myself out of the dream, and to start a brand new life without the need to guess and worry about the thing that has bothered me for quite a long time, and perhaps to start to find a new goal in life. And that the new goal can be anything, can even be something that may ruin my life, as long as it can make me forget about the heartbreaking past, or to bring about regrets when my new kind of life is made known, or simply just to show that I'm still living fine.
Yet, after all the decision-making and the envisagement of the future, I may still unable to give it up. The feeling may rekindle.
But who knows?
.
.
.
There's a void in my heart that need to be filled up so that my life is complete. The feeling is annoying, seriously. And I did spend some time to reflect, many times. And everytime I came to the conclusion that I should act and strive to achieve it lest I regret for my whole life. And I did. I did start to put my thoughts into actions, dropping hints and hope that they could be understood, as well as for me to verify if my conjecure is true, so that I can be confident in making my last, final, most important move to realise my dream. But life is never a smooth-sailing one. There were times that made me feel that my conjecture is true, though, which I felt really delighted. However, there were also times that I felt disappointed due to the fact that the responses I received had not been the way it should be if my conjecture is true. There are contradictions. And I felt that I am stuck, whether should I continue to find out the truth or to give up. There had never been a definite conclusion that I can come to, never.
That makes me think about the complexities of life and us, humans, highly evolved species since millions years ago. Can't life be much simpler? I doubt so. And I think that life can have no upper limit in getting more complex that ever. And this brings my mind to dwell in my childhood when it was so relaxing and carefree, nothing stressful and all that I was supposed to do was to play with my toys, run about the house or the playground, sleep for as long as I wanted to, and this routine repeated itself the following days. Life then was just so beautiful. It was much so simpler then. Everything that you said then was exactly what you want to express. But that was just a facade to real life. Sometimes whatever we say now is never always what that comes out from out hearts. There is the element of pretence in it. And I shan't elaborate as we all know the real image of life. And what makes life so stressful and difficult? I think is humans, the highly evolved species who have unlimited wants, who always want to compete with one another to be the first in everything, who have the pride too great to swallow... ... ...
How ironic! In the end, it is ourselves to be blamed that cause us to land in such a pathetic state of living. And I guess it is the price we have to pay and the sacrifice we have to make for being so highly intelligent relative to other species.
Perhaps the way humans act and behave do not allow us to see through and undestand fully how one is feeling. One may be feeling empty and depressed but he/she shows that he/she has nothing to worry and is feeling happy. Or one may loathe another person but he/she still treats the person nice on the surface, but deep down he/she has the strong feeling of hatred, yet he/she continues to act hypocritically. Of course there are more kinds of such pretentious acts. That's the sad thing of most humans, if not all: not wanting to show the inner true feelings so that everything could be simpler. A consequence of the rat race we are all in?
After my most recent reflection, I thought that me decision should be to give up, and my conjecture has had been a most laughable joke, and that it's time, finally, for me to get myself out of the dream, and to start a brand new life without the need to guess and worry about the thing that has bothered me for quite a long time, and perhaps to start to find a new goal in life. And that the new goal can be anything, can even be something that may ruin my life, as long as it can make me forget about the heartbreaking past, or to bring about regrets when my new kind of life is made known, or simply just to show that I'm still living fine.
Yet, after all the decision-making and the envisagement of the future, I may still unable to give it up. The feeling may rekindle.
But who knows?
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.
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Monday, September 03, 2007
sept holiday
Just a quick, short entry...
It's September holiday! can wake up late! yay!
But not today when I woke up at 6.20am. I'd set my alarm clock at 6.45am but my Mum thought I'd forget to set alarm clock and was afraid that I'd be late, so she woke me up while I was still dreaming about somthing, which I had forgotten waht was it about, but was regarding something which I yearned to find out more and now I dunno what it was. =.= Anyway, I had Chem lesson for 2 hours! And teacher, Mr Ong Jiun Hoe, was late for 40 minutes! v_v'''
Less than 20 days left to promos. I want to do revision! But before that, I want to complete ALL my CLL assignments. Add oil ... ...
Finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 2 days ago! Many people felt that the ending is lame, but personally, I think it's not bad la. Last chapter - Nineteen Years Later - is filled with Love, something that Voldemort knows not. Anyway, I maligned Severus Snape for betraying the Order of the Phoenix, which, the truth, is that he had been loyal to the Order all the time. Albus, I'm referring to Harry's and Ginny's younger son, is cute when he is so scared of being sorted to the Slythern's House. Haha.. His full name I think, is Albus Severus Potter. Having the 2 former Headmasters of Hogwarts, Albus Dumbledore and Severus Snape, as his name is indeed cool! Well, these are just some of the reflections and opinions I have after reading the book.
Also finished watching 换换爱 already! Ending is good too! The last episode is really saddening. Anyway, think Yang Cheng Ling and Mike He ought to be real-life couple. Feel that they are very compatible, and they have fun bickering with each other. Have placed order to ask Susi to buy the DVD at only $20. hahax... A good and worth-watching show! =]
Naruto Shippuden: Sakura and Chiyo finally beat Sasori! Sakura is really strong, unlike the past! She's changes so much! =]
Alright, shall stop here. byeee..... =p
It's September holiday! can wake up late! yay!
But not today when I woke up at 6.20am. I'd set my alarm clock at 6.45am but my Mum thought I'd forget to set alarm clock and was afraid that I'd be late, so she woke me up while I was still dreaming about somthing, which I had forgotten waht was it about, but was regarding something which I yearned to find out more and now I dunno what it was. =.= Anyway, I had Chem lesson for 2 hours! And teacher, Mr Ong Jiun Hoe, was late for 40 minutes! v_v'''
Less than 20 days left to promos. I want to do revision! But before that, I want to complete ALL my CLL assignments. Add oil ... ...
Finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 2 days ago! Many people felt that the ending is lame, but personally, I think it's not bad la. Last chapter - Nineteen Years Later - is filled with Love, something that Voldemort knows not. Anyway, I maligned Severus Snape for betraying the Order of the Phoenix, which, the truth, is that he had been loyal to the Order all the time. Albus, I'm referring to Harry's and Ginny's younger son, is cute when he is so scared of being sorted to the Slythern's House. Haha.. His full name I think, is Albus Severus Potter. Having the 2 former Headmasters of Hogwarts, Albus Dumbledore and Severus Snape, as his name is indeed cool! Well, these are just some of the reflections and opinions I have after reading the book.
Also finished watching 换换爱 already! Ending is good too! The last episode is really saddening. Anyway, think Yang Cheng Ling and Mike He ought to be real-life couple. Feel that they are very compatible, and they have fun bickering with each other. Have placed order to ask Susi to buy the DVD at only $20. hahax... A good and worth-watching show! =]
Naruto Shippuden: Sakura and Chiyo finally beat Sasori! Sakura is really strong, unlike the past! She's changes so much! =]
Alright, shall stop here. byeee..... =p
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