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For dunno what reason, I'm blogging now...on a very plain and simple blogskin.
Things shouldn't be made too complex.

Let's see, what am I going to blog about??

Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.

Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...

Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.

For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...

Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.

GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...


Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...

And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!



Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
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