Wednesday, October 31, 2007

ULCER!

I've got an ulcer! qutie big. and it's making me feel painful! causes me to have no appetite to eat cuz it hurts so! and i'm starving at this moment! I hate the ulcer! And feeling uncomfortable when I talk. But I'm not gonna let it affect my OP tmr! Gonna endure and persevere the 5 min of presentation, as well as the Q&A session, and everything will be fine! Today's the 3rd consecutive days my ulcer has been torturing me. I hope that this damn ulcer will disappear, NOW! aaarrggghhh....

Rehearsed for OP today. 6 times. exhausted.
All the best to NY025! [=

pain... ... ... damn the ulcer!

Monday, October 29, 2007

happenings

It's start of A level today. H1 mother tongue. I didn't have to take this subject, but went to college early to settle PW group project file and working file. Went early also to participate in ............. (secrets. lolx.)
Anyway, thought that I'm gonna take H1 Chinese next year, somewhere in May/June, if possible. If not, given my terrible grades as reflected on my result slip, I doubt I'd be able to score any A grade in A level. Hopefully will ace Chinese if I take next year.

Went to Chinatown to attend free Math tuition by a teacher whom Lily knows. Unlearn and relearn. I practised that in the 2 hours of lesson this afternoon. Refresh my memory. Benefit lots from it. J1 topics are very important as emphasised by the teacher, who wants us to call him Sunny. =p

Sad thing that was announced today - Mrs Saleem, GP teacher, is leaving for School of Arts. Felt quite sad when I knew that I won't be taught by her next year. She's really a good and understanding teacher, who's the only teacher who allows us to eat as she understands that we need to eat somethings in order to have the energy to pay attention, or we'll be unable to focus for long. Because of her, I regain my confidence in writing good essay and do well in summary and AQ. Being systematic in her teaching, I'm able to understand the skills and logics needed in tackling GP. By the way, 0705, my class, topped the cohort in GP results! congrats us! Nonetheless, all the best for her future endeavours! Life's like that. Separation is sometimes inevitable. she said she cannot stay in NY, cuz it's a contract thingy... Life~

Webcammed and chatted with my "my dad's younger sister's son" just now.
Erm..what's my dad's sister's son is to me ar? cousin?? i dunnox... someone care to tell me? =x
He's somewhere in the continent of Europe now. Heard that he went there cuz of failed love relationship. >.< oh well...
Hope that he can bring me there one day. But need lots of $$$. The flight ticket price costs a bomb. Hope that I'm sponsored! hahax..

PW Oral presentation this Thurs. Haven't written my script yet, but know what I wanted to say. Just that a script can help me reduce the number of times of stuttering and the need to rephrase and structure my sentence in my brains before I speak it out... NY025, jia you!

Ooops. I'm hungry. Haven't had my dinner yet, at like 10+pm... o_O"

Monday, October 22, 2007

result slip

Tomorrow is the day. Gonna receive promo result slip...
Firstly, I've to start with grumbling!
Guess what'll I do tmr in college?
  1. Wake up at 5.21am to get ready for school. (it's the time i've experimented that the bus will arrive when I reach the bus stop)
  2. Flag-raising at 7.40am.
  3. WAIT TILL 11am for PRINCIPAL'S TALK
  4. Take our promo exma slip and will be released at 12pm.

In a nutshell, tmr's purpose of me going to college will be for the principal only - to listen to his talk. An hour later, I can go home.

I'd choose to not go for the assembly if I can afford to. That, I'll be marked as 'late'. BUT, I've late for 2 times this semester. I can't be late anymore, or I'll be punished to commit myself for 4 additional hours of CIP. {=.="}

Wonder how I'll feel when receiving our result slip. Next year's 0705 may not be the same anymore. :\ Reality is cruel. After being together for only 8 months, we've already built a really strong class bonding within us. I daresay that this bond is the strongest I've had ever felt in terms of being as a class - much stronger than my primary and secondary classes. Yet, separation is imminent. We'll have to face it real soon~

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

nostalgia

Friends Forever



And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on We remember
All the times we Had together
And as our lives change Come Whatever
We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
[Repeat 1 (3x)]


nostalgia~

Saturday, October 13, 2007

canon in D [:

Added 'Canon in D'!
Play it!! lolx...

My sleep debt accumulated throughout this week, due to the need for me to wake up early and had to stay up till evening in college for the Open House's rehearsals. DAMN sleepy! -.-"
Yet to finish compensate the debt. Gonna compensate it tonight. Sleep as long as I want!

Woke up early today as I have to go Zhi Wei's houes for PW. Hate to wake up early (woke up at 8.40am) as I was still very sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy.
But no choice. her house is at SengKang. To be more precise, it's as Ranggung.
So, I will have to:
1)Take a bus to lakeside MRT
2)Take MRT from Lakeside to Outram Park
3)Transfer train. Take MRT from Outram Park to Sengkang.
3)Transfer to take LRT from Sengkang, and to Ranggung.
4)Walk a 5-min distance and finally reach her house.
Just the journey in MRT took around an hour. We planned to meet at 11am. how can I not wake up early then?

But it's all worthwhile. We finally managed to reduce 663 extra words. And our word count is 2937 words, if i'm not wrong. But we may add more stuffs so that the 63 words are not wasted.
Our WR, in a way, is DONE!

Our OP powerpoint slides are interesting! cuz of the nature of our topic: Changes in visual effects utilized in Films. So we can add movies posters and design some effects into our PPT. =]

LEP Project Work is up next. o_O''
This year's theme is 雪山飞狐. OMG. Have to self-study and evaluate it, so that we can introduce it to the other LEP and perhaps next year's sec 4 students.
sigh!


''why should we have hopes when most of them, if not all, are dashed at the end
of the day?''

Friday, October 12, 2007

=( horrendous promo results

Was quite worried and anxious when i was about to recieve my promo results in the hall.
SIGH. Promo results are disappointing.
Didn't improve from my Mid-year at all. and my grades only worsen.

I failed Chem. ='(
Really disappointed, though I expect myself that i won't do well.
But it still made me sad. =(
Very demoralising.
Have I become dumb, or the paper is difficult?
And I think it's the former. cos people around me score high for Chem and most of them thought that Chem is the easiest subject.
But not to me. I disliked Chem since Sec 3... >.<>
t_t

CLL. On the dot, i pass. =.="
Those who know me will know that Chinese is one of the subjects that I can score in.
But it's no longer the case anymore.
I failed my Chinese Compo. A pathetic 16.5/35.

How strict the teachers are in marking~~~ =.="""
TERRIBLE!
Disappointment.
2nd time failing this year. [sob]

Pass my Math, GP and Bio. but, to me, they're not good passes.

Bio 20-mark Free Response Question is CRAZY!
Really!
I scored a real pathetic 2/20!!!! Break my record!
There are others getting 0 mark, and even NEGATIVE (eg. -1/20) marks!
Reason: never spell out NAD in full for every part question.
NAD: Nicotineamide Adenine Dinucleotide
So the teachers do not understand what is 'NAD', and thw whole answer is not accepted. That's how I get my 2 marks.
Teachers also deduct marks due to our paragraphing, that's how some people got marks deducted and some got negative marks.
Seriously, Bio department is, to me, damn rigid. sigh...

Math. Need one more, or just half a mark, to jump a grade. cos the teachers will round up when they key in the marks. Wasted.
But i'm really happy that I can still pass Math though, cos it's the subject I have little confidence in after the paper.

GP is my best subject. =.= >.<
Paper 1: The teacher commented that my essay is highly readable. But somehow, he/she didn't quite reflect this when giving my marks.
Paper 2: I scored zero for vocab. -.- But thanks to my summary for getting 10 marks over 8 marks (there're 2 bonus marks). Got 5/8 for AQ. And I got 29.5/50 and I'm satisfied with it. :]
But i still need to strive to get better results. there are my friends who score 36/50 [Woah!]...

After the release of the promo papers, it's time to prepare for Open House.
What a 'nice' arrangement when preparation for Open House is right after release of exam scripts.
Those who may retain naturally will not have the mood for Open House.
And me, too, do not quite have the mood after getting those terrible results.
But I have to act. yeah. So I endured and tried to control my sleepiness till 3.25pm when it's CCS's turn to perform at the atrium.
Thanks CCS and my class 0705 for their presence, cheering and support when CCS performs. And also my tutors Mr Goh and Ms Tan. =]
We perform in just a preparation of 3 days, including brainstorming for ideas on what to perform, and rehearsal. It's definitely not easy.
Received positive feedbacks and i'm quite contented, though I know there are rooms for improvements in my acting skills. but it will still be the best situation if i'm not involved in acting in any way. lolx....

Interestingly, I was more energetic after our performance and don't feel that sleepy anymore.
So i went to my class there. We're in-charge of game stall. And so I played. hahax...

Open House ended around 5.30pm, i think. and reached home around 7.10pm.
Kept thinking of my terrible promo results, and whether i'm capable of getting good resuls in 'A' level in my bus journey...
=\

It's been a long day.
And now, I'm sleepy. o_o```

Saturday, October 06, 2007

after promos

Life after promos is so so so much relaxing! =]
Imagine studying for the past 6 months +++ (from March to Sept), studied every single day... And finally, you can keep ALL the notes & NO NEED to touch them for quite a while!
Of course, the results do keep me worried.
But since there's no point worrying, i shall not worry then.
Will be getting back all the results on the coming Fri in the Hall.
Just hope that everything's FINE. (:

Intensive PW lessons from now on. If i'm not wrong, there'll be around 5 hours of PW lessons every day, till OP...??..... Sigh... i can imagine how bored it will be. But perhaps when crap a little with my group members, i may feel better and not as bored as i expect it to be.

Need to prepare for Open House on the comin Fri. Need to put up a 10 - 15 min play and we have to start everything from scratch.
Find a script, prepare souvenirs, prepare the booth, find and train the actors, coordinate with the various producton teams (lighting / props / costumes / make-up) bla bla bla...
All these to be done before the comin Fri.
Oh... how rush it is...
Gonna be busy with CCA stuff and no time for Bible Study by Lily. (FYI: not that i'm changing my religion or what; I'm a free thinker! hahax.. It's for personal interest sake and find out how everything we are experiencing now is explained by the God.)

Went to Chinatown family karaoke with sokteng, yanhong and yukai yesterday. and went to Vivo after that, to eat and browse the shops... Tiring... but definitely better than mugging...

Today went to yukai's condo. yukai and yanhong went to swim. after that, went to yanli's house. engtong, yanli, yanhong & yukai played majong in the warm living room, while me searching for suitable script for the coming college Open Hous in the air-con room. haha xD...
Must find something by hook or by crook. And luckily, i found something that is 'okay', and I generate ideas based on the original plot and modify, so that it will be better suit our theme of 《高中生活的乐趣》. though my first question was ''Is there even '乐趣' in JC?'' LOL...
The result of the majong was that engtong was the big winner and the other 3 had to treat him dinner. and i have nothing to do with it. lolx... and we went IMM for our dinner...

Seriously, we need to go out and relax and have fun, especially after the stressful exam periods.
To compensate for our hard work and the efforts put into getting good results.
We're not nerds =.=
Unless the person have no life.... haha...

Unfortunately, time passed really fast indeed.................
In a blink of an eye, it's time to prepare for 'A' level Oral Presentation.
And after that, have to attend normal lessons till the the start of end-of-year holiday (same as when the primary school kids start their holidays)
No longer the same as in sec sch when holiday starts in Nov. =/
Reason given by my math tutor, ''There's no logic when JC students can be freed when the sec students are having their GCE 'O' level.''


o_O''

Monday, October 01, 2007

towards the end of promo

2 more papers left (Chem and Bio MCQ) to the end of promo.
last paper will be on this coming thurs!
But i seem to have declared end of promos to myself... x_x"
NO. will still practise MCQs! =]

Bio P2 today. Disappointed with myself. Didn't memorise well for some facts. SIgh~
Since it's over. no point brooding over it anymore righ....

Felt a sense of uncertainty about how well i did for the promo.
that's an omen? hope not.
whatever will be, will be.
as long as i'd put in my best......
and do hope miracles happen o_O''

Anyway, exam is not everything in life, got this idea from a short movie I watched this afternoon
"15 year old's blues" led by Tegoshi Yuya who acted as Kouhei. (hope the names are spelt correctly.)
Kouhei faced difficulties in learning and he gave up on studying,
until he met his new, 11th, sensei, who influenced him and Kouhei finally had the motivation to study, to do his sensei and his family proud.
Finally, still, he did not make it into his desired school with his grade.
But he passed his exam.
Sensei told him to believe in himself. It is what that influence Kouhei to work hard, and finally manage to get a pass.
Though unable to get into desired school, sensei told Kouhei to continue to live on...
And Kouhei did.

That's just a very brief summary on the plot of the short movie... about 1 hour...
Watch it at crunchyroll if you're interested. =)


Hmmm.... should i take H3 chinese offered by NUS?
indeed, a rare opportunity, and only 50 vacancies available.
No idea.


Will by flying to Taiwan in Dec for 15 days for a study-cum-immersion programme! hahax...

That's all for this entry.
*vanish*