Sunday, April 27, 2008

if u know what i'm trying to say

I am a stranger in this strange place.
And I felt so lonely.
I would never travel alone anymore.

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Life is so 'sian'. I'm sure people around me always hear me saying 'So sian...'. Ppl like quan hui especially... LOLx....
Paiseh ah.....

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If life is so perfect...
I'd be worried
That if everything is just a facade
That it won't actually last long
And will be over soon.
Will I be able to accept the fact then?
Can I handle it?

Life is a challenge.
But it is also a chance.

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On the bed...

Sanshun: Zhenxian, do you love me?

Zhenxian: Huh?? Do you even need to ask this question??

Sanshun: Then say 'I love you' to me!

Zhenxian: What?! I can't bring myself to say those things!

Sanshun: Come on! You should express your love and let people around you know that you care for them!

Zhenxian: I always do that in my heart.

Sanshun: Then they won't know that you actually care for them!

Zhenxian: What's the difference when you keep your love in your heart and to express it out? They're the same!

Sanshun: No! They are not! People wouldn't mind being showered with more love if you want to give them!

Zhenxian: Oh my! You're so childish!

Sanshun: We people are all childish! Come on, say it to me!

Zhenxian: Can't be bothered with you!

Sanshun: Look like I will have to make you say it right now! If you won't do it, you will never say it!

And so Sanshun uses her brute force and strangles Zhenxian round his neck and force Zhenxian to say

Zhenxian: Ahh!!! Let go of me!!!!!

Sanshun: Come on! Just three words! Say it to me!

Zhenxian is struggling...

Zhenxian: I.........love.........you........

Sanshun: Louder! Come on!

Zhenxian: I.............Love............You!

Sanshun: I can't hear you! Louder!!!

Zhenxian (with all his might): I..................LOVE...............YOU!!!!!!!!

Sanshun, satisfied for now, let go of Zhenxian

Zhenxian (panting): Oh my! Can't believe you are so strong... (pant...)

Sanshun: I'll let you off for now. Next time, I want to hear it from you from the bottom of your heart, alright?

Zhenxian (pretending not to hear): Come on dear, let's do what we're supposed to do... ... ...

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Saturday, April 26, 2008

trip to IMH

Regret for not taking MRT home from IMH just now... I was caught in a massive traffic jam in the bus...

So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.

The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.

Friday, April 25, 2008

service-learning =]

Some updates... though blogging is really what I shouldn't do now~

Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[

For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~

There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!

Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.

Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]

There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...

Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...


Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

cry...

Sometimes I really would like to cry my heart out.
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).

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