你难以超越你的见识去判断他人．而你的见识又是何等浅薄！能与我们同甘不能共苦的人．会失去打开天堂门钥匙其中一把．学好做人的道理．
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流浪在街头．望着过往的行人和霓虹灯庸懒的街道．不时传来的喧哗声让我感觉到自己原来可能是如此孤独． 徘徊在酒吧门口．在坠落的边缘挣扎．城市的天空被染上彷徨的色彩．每个人都尽情的挥洒自己的欲望． 耳机里传来熟悉的邓丽君歌声．唯美的声音把我带如彷徨无助迷失的世界里． 歌声的回忆像一把尖刀刺伤我的往事． 感觉生命在流失． 回头看看自己的脚印发现它们已经沉入寒水． 灯光的倒影渐渐模糊． 忽然发现以前的时光不会再有！
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行走在栋栋建筑间．大楼的阴影让我感觉沉重．感觉自己是这钢铁森林中的小鸟． 盲目地蹿着． 想离开． 想留下． 离开了这里．我能到哪儿去？留下来．我能活多久？ 感觉快要窒息了． 也许该和那群大雁一起飞往远方！ 用阳光来融化我内心的疲惫． 用海水洗去我身上的灰尘．
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Saturday, November 25, 2006
just feel sad
yay! just finished watching hunter x hunter! very happy with myself :) extremely nice.. Gon! & Killua! WOO~!!! but I have to watch the rest in Manga cos there's no more anime :/
yesterday went to school's open house with yanli. compared to previous years, there seemed to have lesser visitors to the open house. wonder why.. anyway, both of use, and together with yukai, went to JP to meet yanhong as we were going to vivo city! dunno why it's called 'vivo' but it sure attracts many ppl to go there.. later, sokteng came and joined us after she attended her dental appointment. so the five of us walked for hours round the vivo city. den, we went to tiong bahru plaza to continue our 'walk'. my back and legs and shoulders were feeling tired as i walked.. perhaps i am not used to walking for such long hours. lolx. after we settled our dinner at a nearby hawker centre, we went to the great world city to, again, continue our 'walk'! *.*" at last, we settled down at mac and began talking away..... finally at about 9.40pm, we went home. and i reached home aroung 10.15pm. quite zonked by then. but I watched the Survivor before I went to dream about nothing at about 12.05am.... Woke up at 10.30am and I slacked at home whole day watching hunter x hunter... and i live till now~~
i felt sad when u say those things and feel that way. i think i know how u feel. i think u missed those days. i think u haven't forgotten those memories. perhaps u thought u have to behave that way so that i would think that u've forgotten the past. i just felt that way from the way u speak, and also from my instincts. maybe u've been trying to tell me those things. though i hope they are just my imagination. i know i couldn't take it. but if i have to accept the reality one day when all is made clear, i think i will have to try very hard to accept it. i know i'm selfish. i'll still remain optimistic until the day comes if it has to be that way. then, i would not know how my life would be like. but u dun have to care.
yesterday went to school's open house with yanli. compared to previous years, there seemed to have lesser visitors to the open house. wonder why.. anyway, both of use, and together with yukai, went to JP to meet yanhong as we were going to vivo city! dunno why it's called 'vivo' but it sure attracts many ppl to go there.. later, sokteng came and joined us after she attended her dental appointment. so the five of us walked for hours round the vivo city. den, we went to tiong bahru plaza to continue our 'walk'. my back and legs and shoulders were feeling tired as i walked.. perhaps i am not used to walking for such long hours. lolx. after we settled our dinner at a nearby hawker centre, we went to the great world city to, again, continue our 'walk'! *.*" at last, we settled down at mac and began talking away..... finally at about 9.40pm, we went home. and i reached home aroung 10.15pm. quite zonked by then. but I watched the Survivor before I went to dream about nothing at about 12.05am.... Woke up at 10.30am and I slacked at home whole day watching hunter x hunter... and i live till now~~
i felt sad when u say those things and feel that way. i think i know how u feel. i think u missed those days. i think u haven't forgotten those memories. perhaps u thought u have to behave that way so that i would think that u've forgotten the past. i just felt that way from the way u speak, and also from my instincts. maybe u've been trying to tell me those things. though i hope they are just my imagination. i know i couldn't take it. but if i have to accept the reality one day when all is made clear, i think i will have to try very hard to accept it. i know i'm selfish. i'll still remain optimistic until the day comes if it has to be that way. then, i would not know how my life would be like. but u dun have to care.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
muscle cramp
This morning, yanhong, yukai, sokteng, yanli and me went to yukai's condominium to swim! Initially, they wanted to go to gym but that is only for the residents. So we decided to swim instead... Had a great time laughing at one another on this and that.. lolx..
After that, we went to a nearby hawker centre to have our lunch. Then, we went to yanli's house and played majong and monopoly!! I had some experience in majong cos yanli, yanli's younger sis and her mum taught me when I went her house last time. I had 'beginner's luck' and I won $10+++ when I gamble with $$$ last time with chingwei, eleen and alvin. Ha! I really had to thank yanli's younger sis for helping me to win $$.. But I am not allowed to gamble anymore cos my parents forbid me to. This time played with, of course, sokteng, yanhong and yukai. yanhong, yukai and sokteng are all beginners, so yanli had to explain to them, while I sat there waiting for them to understand. We played a total of 10 rounds. The results are as follow:
Name (No. of rounds of winning)
sok teng (3)
yukai (3)
mingxian (4)
yanhong (0)
LOLZ.....
Then we played monopoly. Very fun!! ^_^ Very worried at the beginning cos I felt like I'm going to face bankruptcy soon. But as many ppl stepped into my territories, which I strongly welcomed them to, I had more $$$! Haha.. One trick I learnt from yanhong: If you stepped into "Go to jail", and had to miss 3 turns, then just miss the 3 turns. You'd just have to wait for ppl to 'visit' your territories 'obediently' and you get $ easily! Haa... At about 7pm, yanhong and me went home first to watch project superstar...
Feeling tired and frustrated now~
After that, we went to a nearby hawker centre to have our lunch. Then, we went to yanli's house and played majong and monopoly!! I had some experience in majong cos yanli, yanli's younger sis and her mum taught me when I went her house last time. I had 'beginner's luck' and I won $10+++ when I gamble with $$$ last time with chingwei, eleen and alvin. Ha! I really had to thank yanli's younger sis for helping me to win $$.. But I am not allowed to gamble anymore cos my parents forbid me to. This time played with, of course, sokteng, yanhong and yukai. yanhong, yukai and sokteng are all beginners, so yanli had to explain to them, while I sat there waiting for them to understand. We played a total of 10 rounds. The results are as follow:
Name (No. of rounds of winning)
sok teng (3)
yukai (3)
mingxian (4)
yanhong (0)
LOLZ.....
Then we played monopoly. Very fun!! ^_^ Very worried at the beginning cos I felt like I'm going to face bankruptcy soon. But as many ppl stepped into my territories, which I strongly welcomed them to, I had more $$$! Haha.. One trick I learnt from yanhong: If you stepped into "Go to jail", and had to miss 3 turns, then just miss the 3 turns. You'd just have to wait for ppl to 'visit' your territories 'obediently' and you get $ easily! Haa... At about 7pm, yanhong and me went home first to watch project superstar...
Feeling tired and frustrated now~
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
a day full of events
Today is a day packed with events!
This moring, I woke up at around 7.30a.m. to get ready to school for the PAE briefing. Till now, I still have not decided which JC to go to!!! So angry with myself cos I just cannot make up my mind on this three-month course. Like that then JAE how? lolx. I have no idea. But I would definitely make sure I complete my registration by tomorrow, no matter how! Yeap!
The briefing ended at around 9.30. Then went JP with yanhong & yanli to shop. After that, 3 of us took MRT going to Clementi KBox, again! haha. At the MRT, we met our sec 1 coordinator, Chermin, and another senior from 21st SC, Khairul. Long time never see them le. Think the next time we'll meet again is SLC '07 ba. The 3 of us waited outside the KBox for sokteng and yukai who came shortly. Then, we started to sing sing sing sing sing sing....... HAH.. Our KBox period was supposed to end at 2 p.m. But we left at only 2.30 p.m. It's just a norm for us. lolx.
After Kbox-ing, I went home to change to 23rd batch tee and went to school for 23rd SC farewell party! Can see lots of efforts were put into this farewell party by the sec 2s and 24th SC. Hereby, I would like to say 'thank you!'. =) The games are fun, though we perspired. -.-" lolx. Thanks for the thoughtful gifts too!! Hmm, I missed the dance performed by the sec 2s! sigh. The people sitting around me said that the dance was cute, which made me really want to watch. But too bad, I was late. =x.
At the end of farewell, Ms Tang spoke to us. Once again, I was touched by her speech regarding her appreciation towards 23rd SC. I think whatever 23rd SC did would not have been possible without Ms Tang, who was indeed an inspiring teacher. She is one of the teachers whom I respect most. :) Before we left, the School Spirit and Moral Leader, yanhong, led us our batch cheer and Student Council cheer. Looks like that was the last time he, being the School Spirit and Moral Leader, to lead cheers le ba~
Straight after the farewell, I had to rush home cos my family was going to the temple in Teban to pray. Though I am a free-thinker, I would just go with my family. It's been a long time since we went to the temple. I like going to the temple last time cos there were many fish that were long. But just now when we went there, no more fish le. :s So I started to light up the joss sticks and start to pray the 'gods'. The dust or whatever that were produced as the joss sticks burnt got into my eyes, and my right eye was actually tearing while praying the 'gods'. As both of my hands were not clean as I was holding the joss sticks, I could not wipe my tears away. So my mum helped me wipe my tears away from my face! hahaz.
After burning the papers (dunno what's that called) to the 'whoever' (also dunno the purpose), we went to the other side of the temple, where you can collect water by kneeling down in front of the 'god'. I have always liked this and I would collect the water in a cup and drink it up. Then, my mum and sis would collect flower petals for us to put together with water to shower. Though I dun see the purpose of taking a shower with petals, but I just follow my parents' instructions. After all, it gives a different feel la.. HAHA.. Then, we shake the cylinder with 100 sticks in it, such that until one of the sticks had escaped from the cylinder and dropped on the floor. After that, we would take a pink slip according to the number which is written on the stick. The pink slip tells you your current situation and future, whether they are good or bad.
I daresay my family is a very humorous and funny family! All of us have our own unique way of creating laughters! HAHA. I was the first to shake the cylinder, cos I 'kiasu'! lolx. Guess what, I had a BAD for my first time. Though I am a free-thinker, and I dun care about such 'prophecy' at all, I refuse to admit 'defeat' by my luck. I decided to try a sceond time. So I shake the cylinder again, and a stick fell off. And I got
BAD again! =.=" Again,refusing to admit 'defeat', I shake again. This time, finally, I dd not get BAD, nor did I get GOOD. I got MEDIUM. Haish... After 3 tries, I did not attempt to shake the cylinder anymore. At least I've escaped from BAD.
For my sis, she was 'lucky' lo. Her first try was already GOOD. For my mum, her first try was, like me, BAD. HAHA. Then, like me, she wanted to try again!! I laughed until dunno wad man!! The scene was so funny. She also dun wan to have a BAD lot. Her second try was a 'success', she got a GOOD. For my dad, after shaking many many many many times before 1 stick fell out, he got a BAD. So he decided to buy a a candle which is in the pineapple-shaped glass. Later, he shake again but unfortunately, he got the same thing. lolx. After that, he thought that burning away that pink slips would help.. Hmm, superstitious.
My mum then also decided to burn away her BAD pink slip. Then, the hilarious scene happened. After she put the slip on fire, she intended to place the burning paper at another place. Guess what, the paper has almost burnt finish and the fire caught her fingers. (When I saw this, I couldn't control but to laugh!) Then, no choice, she had to release her fingers and both me and her, as well as the person in-charge of the temple, watched the burning paper falling to the ground, becoming ashes. (I was laughing like mad, and had to run to another place to continue laughing!) Imagine the person in-charge looking at us burning his property in front of him and moreover, ashes falling that dirty the floor, what kind of expression could he have given? I didn't see his expression because I didn't want to. My mum must be feeling embarrassed but she just acted nothing happened. HAHA..
After that, we took bus 30 home. The bus was super duper cold! My mum long wanted to release her bladder and moreover, we had to sit in the cold bus for 15 mins before reaching our home. She told me that the coldness made her even more want to release her bladder and more difficult to hold it! It was extremely hilarious man! HAHAHAHA.. After alighting, I couldn't see properly with my spectacles as my spectacles became blurred due to condensation of water vapour on my colder lens. (alright, i know no mood for science...) I enjoyed walking with my fogged spectacles though.
Finally, my day ends...
Before I end my entry, yup, bibi is right! The white cat said 'meow'.. Haha.. lame.. but congrats la.. lolx...
This moring, I woke up at around 7.30a.m. to get ready to school for the PAE briefing. Till now, I still have not decided which JC to go to!!! So angry with myself cos I just cannot make up my mind on this three-month course. Like that then JAE how? lolx. I have no idea. But I would definitely make sure I complete my registration by tomorrow, no matter how! Yeap!
The briefing ended at around 9.30. Then went JP with yanhong & yanli to shop. After that, 3 of us took MRT going to Clementi KBox, again! haha. At the MRT, we met our sec 1 coordinator, Chermin, and another senior from 21st SC, Khairul. Long time never see them le. Think the next time we'll meet again is SLC '07 ba. The 3 of us waited outside the KBox for sokteng and yukai who came shortly. Then, we started to sing sing sing sing sing sing....... HAH.. Our KBox period was supposed to end at 2 p.m. But we left at only 2.30 p.m. It's just a norm for us. lolx.
After Kbox-ing, I went home to change to 23rd batch tee and went to school for 23rd SC farewell party! Can see lots of efforts were put into this farewell party by the sec 2s and 24th SC. Hereby, I would like to say 'thank you!'. =) The games are fun, though we perspired. -.-" lolx. Thanks for the thoughtful gifts too!! Hmm, I missed the dance performed by the sec 2s! sigh. The people sitting around me said that the dance was cute, which made me really want to watch. But too bad, I was late. =x.
At the end of farewell, Ms Tang spoke to us. Once again, I was touched by her speech regarding her appreciation towards 23rd SC. I think whatever 23rd SC did would not have been possible without Ms Tang, who was indeed an inspiring teacher. She is one of the teachers whom I respect most. :) Before we left, the School Spirit and Moral Leader, yanhong, led us our batch cheer and Student Council cheer. Looks like that was the last time he, being the School Spirit and Moral Leader, to lead cheers le ba~
Straight after the farewell, I had to rush home cos my family was going to the temple in Teban to pray. Though I am a free-thinker, I would just go with my family. It's been a long time since we went to the temple. I like going to the temple last time cos there were many fish that were long. But just now when we went there, no more fish le. :s So I started to light up the joss sticks and start to pray the 'gods'. The dust or whatever that were produced as the joss sticks burnt got into my eyes, and my right eye was actually tearing while praying the 'gods'. As both of my hands were not clean as I was holding the joss sticks, I could not wipe my tears away. So my mum helped me wipe my tears away from my face! hahaz.
After burning the papers (dunno what's that called) to the 'whoever' (also dunno the purpose), we went to the other side of the temple, where you can collect water by kneeling down in front of the 'god'. I have always liked this and I would collect the water in a cup and drink it up. Then, my mum and sis would collect flower petals for us to put together with water to shower. Though I dun see the purpose of taking a shower with petals, but I just follow my parents' instructions. After all, it gives a different feel la.. HAHA.. Then, we shake the cylinder with 100 sticks in it, such that until one of the sticks had escaped from the cylinder and dropped on the floor. After that, we would take a pink slip according to the number which is written on the stick. The pink slip tells you your current situation and future, whether they are good or bad.
I daresay my family is a very humorous and funny family! All of us have our own unique way of creating laughters! HAHA. I was the first to shake the cylinder, cos I 'kiasu'! lolx. Guess what, I had a BAD for my first time. Though I am a free-thinker, and I dun care about such 'prophecy' at all, I refuse to admit 'defeat' by my luck. I decided to try a sceond time. So I shake the cylinder again, and a stick fell off. And I got
BAD again! =.=" Again,refusing to admit 'defeat', I shake again. This time, finally, I dd not get BAD, nor did I get GOOD. I got MEDIUM. Haish... After 3 tries, I did not attempt to shake the cylinder anymore. At least I've escaped from BAD.
For my sis, she was 'lucky' lo. Her first try was already GOOD. For my mum, her first try was, like me, BAD. HAHA. Then, like me, she wanted to try again!! I laughed until dunno wad man!! The scene was so funny. She also dun wan to have a BAD lot. Her second try was a 'success', she got a GOOD. For my dad, after shaking many many many many times before 1 stick fell out, he got a BAD. So he decided to buy a a candle which is in the pineapple-shaped glass. Later, he shake again but unfortunately, he got the same thing. lolx. After that, he thought that burning away that pink slips would help.. Hmm, superstitious.
My mum then also decided to burn away her BAD pink slip. Then, the hilarious scene happened. After she put the slip on fire, she intended to place the burning paper at another place. Guess what, the paper has almost burnt finish and the fire caught her fingers. (When I saw this, I couldn't control but to laugh!) Then, no choice, she had to release her fingers and both me and her, as well as the person in-charge of the temple, watched the burning paper falling to the ground, becoming ashes. (I was laughing like mad, and had to run to another place to continue laughing!) Imagine the person in-charge looking at us burning his property in front of him and moreover, ashes falling that dirty the floor, what kind of expression could he have given? I didn't see his expression because I didn't want to. My mum must be feeling embarrassed but she just acted nothing happened. HAHA..
After that, we took bus 30 home. The bus was super duper cold! My mum long wanted to release her bladder and moreover, we had to sit in the cold bus for 15 mins before reaching our home. She told me that the coldness made her even more want to release her bladder and more difficult to hold it! It was extremely hilarious man! HAHAHAHA.. After alighting, I couldn't see properly with my spectacles as my spectacles became blurred due to condensation of water vapour on my colder lens. (alright, i know no mood for science...) I enjoyed walking with my fogged spectacles though.
Finally, my day ends...
Before I end my entry, yup, bibi is right! The white cat said 'meow'.. Haha.. lame.. but congrats la.. lolx...
Monday, November 20, 2006
bored...
Bored~~~ Nowadays have been waiting for news if any company has vacancy for me.... Or I'll go and look for jobs in newspaper... Tomorrow will be PAE and farewell. Wed - Fri will be class chalet but I haven't decided if I would go.. =S
One lame quiz to share:
One white cat fell into water and a black cat saved the white cat from drowning. The white cat said something to the black cat. Guess what the white cat had said?
One lame quiz to share:
One white cat fell into water and a black cat saved the white cat from drowning. The white cat said something to the black cat. Guess what the white cat had said?
"It's not who we are that holds us back, it's who we think we're not."
- Michael Nolan
Sunday, November 19, 2006
shopping
Tired~ Just came back from Jurong Point where my mum, sis and me went shopping! =p Had been walking for many hours and my legs are now having their rest. lolx.
Currently, I'm reading a book "Notes from an even Smaller Island" by Neil Humphreys. This book is about how Neil perceived Singapore when he flew here from England. It is a funny book which suggested some blatant prejudices against some unique characteristics as well as the idiosyncracies of Singaporeans such as 'kiasuism' and that Singaporeans are generally shorter than Englishmen which cause him some inconveniences, and all the things he found 'strange' about 'aunties' and 'uncles'. He wrote this book first as a outsider, then as an insider, thus he actually managed to portray some funny facts about Singaporeans. I feel that he is actually talking to me directly about his experiences in Singapore and I feel that I am 'involved' in this book. Haha. It's a good book to read during my holidays!
Alright, nothing much le...shall stop here then. Byeeeee. (:
Currently, I'm reading a book "Notes from an even Smaller Island" by Neil Humphreys. This book is about how Neil perceived Singapore when he flew here from England. It is a funny book which suggested some blatant prejudices against some unique characteristics as well as the idiosyncracies of Singaporeans such as 'kiasuism' and that Singaporeans are generally shorter than Englishmen which cause him some inconveniences, and all the things he found 'strange' about 'aunties' and 'uncles'. He wrote this book first as a outsider, then as an insider, thus he actually managed to portray some funny facts about Singaporeans. I feel that he is actually talking to me directly about his experiences in Singapore and I feel that I am 'involved' in this book. Haha. It's a good book to read during my holidays!
Alright, nothing much le...shall stop here then. Byeeeee. (:
Friday, November 17, 2006
O LEVEL IS OVER!
MY O LEVEL WAS OVER YESTERDAY! CHEERS!!! But blog today cos yesterday's exam last till 5.10p.m. and I was mentally exhausted (I was yawning and yawning when I was doing my Chem Paper 1), so slept till 8.30 p.m. and missed half of Project Superstar show! -.-"
This morning went to KBox at Clementi with yukai! Long time, almost a year, never go KBox already.. And we sang sang sang sang....... haha.. After that, we went to a bookshop which is above the KBox. You know what we did there? For the approximately 2 hours we spent there, we browsed most of the things that were on sale there, such as kid's books, 'Who wants to be a millionaire' quizzes, Chinese Chess sets, recorders, pens and pencils, files and bla bla bla. In the end we bought NOTHING and left. o_O About 5 plus, I took bus 154 home and yukai joined yanhong and zhichiaw, who had finished their O level then, to Orchard Road.
Next Tuesday will be PAE. You know what? I REALLY REALLY REALLY have NO IDEA whether I should go to JC's 3-month course or not. I want to work to earn $$$ so that I can spend and to get an experience of working! On the other hand, I don't wish to miss lessons also. People say JC is many times more hectic than secondary school life. Missing 3 months of lessons means that I might have a HARD time catching up later.
Moreover, people say that General Paper is not easy. If I'm going to JC, then I would have to prepare for GP NOW since I definitely have much room to improve on the language. AAGGRRHH! Aiyo, looks like eventually I'm going to see where my friends would be going before I can decide... In a DILEMMA~~ *sigh.
Life is such.
By the way, yukai said he'll help me find a job! YEAH! I'm so happy to have a job cos this is the first time I will be going to earn $$$ with my own hands! Surely gonna be very proud of myself when I receive my first pay! hee... I just want to find a job as soon as possible! Haha...
This morning went to KBox at Clementi with yukai! Long time, almost a year, never go KBox already.. And we sang sang sang sang....... haha.. After that, we went to a bookshop which is above the KBox. You know what we did there? For the approximately 2 hours we spent there, we browsed most of the things that were on sale there, such as kid's books, 'Who wants to be a millionaire' quizzes, Chinese Chess sets, recorders, pens and pencils, files and bla bla bla. In the end we bought NOTHING and left. o_O About 5 plus, I took bus 154 home and yukai joined yanhong and zhichiaw, who had finished their O level then, to Orchard Road.
Next Tuesday will be PAE. You know what? I REALLY REALLY REALLY have NO IDEA whether I should go to JC's 3-month course or not. I want to work to earn $$$ so that I can spend and to get an experience of working! On the other hand, I don't wish to miss lessons also. People say JC is many times more hectic than secondary school life. Missing 3 months of lessons means that I might have a HARD time catching up later.
Moreover, people say that General Paper is not easy. If I'm going to JC, then I would have to prepare for GP NOW since I definitely have much room to improve on the language. AAGGRRHH! Aiyo, looks like eventually I'm going to see where my friends would be going before I can decide... In a DILEMMA~~ *sigh.
Life is such.
By the way, yukai said he'll help me find a job! YEAH! I'm so happy to have a job cos this is the first time I will be going to earn $$$ with my own hands! Surely gonna be very proud of myself when I receive my first pay! hee... I just want to find a job as soon as possible! Haha...
Friday, November 10, 2006
after 1 week of O level...
Just came back from school after spending 2 H 30 MIN taking E.Math Paper 2.... I have got 1 h 5 min left to check on the paper!! Hahaz.. 4 marks dunno how to do... Hope no careless mistakes for other questions...
6 more days and I am free from secondary school's textbooks!! Woohoo~~
Dunno how I'll fare for O level~~ (worried...:/)
But I'll remain optimistic (=
Still have A.Math, Physics and Chemistry papers... Jia you to all!
6 more days and I am free from secondary school's textbooks!! Woohoo~~
Dunno how I'll fare for O level~~ (worried...:/)
But I'll remain optimistic (=
Still have A.Math, Physics and Chemistry papers... Jia you to all!
"Welcome every morning with a smile.
Look on the new day as another special gift from your Creator, another golden opportunity to complete what you were unable to finish yesterday.
Be a self-starter.
Let your first hour set the theme of success and positive action that is certain to echo through your entire day.
Today will never happen again.
Don't waste it with a false start or no start at all.
You were not born to fail."
- Og Mandino
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