Back from Taiwan!

Back from Taiwan, safe and sound!

Taiwan is damn fun! No regret at all for going to Taiwan!
It's impossible for me to blog about how fun Taiwan really is. It will be really damn long that I'm gonna spend uncountable hours on it, which I wouldn't want to waste my time on given the numerous assignments I have on hand now. =\
oh well...

Of course, the most important reason that makes me feel Taiwan is so fun is because of the other 29 friends from HCI, TJC and NYJC travelling this trip together! Without these wonderful friends, I definitely wouldn't enjoy the trip no matter how great Taiwan is, whether is it the food, places of interest, shopping time, bla bla bla...

And yea, I miss Taiwan!
But since I'm back to Singapore, that means business time =(
Time will be mostly spent on getting the piles of homework done.
What a pathetic life of a student...

Miss the friends travelled to Taiwan together most though. After all, it's these friends who have accompanied, played and lived together during the 15 days. Without them, loneliness is what's left. Then it would be no fun at all. Friends are great! And friends last for a lifetime!

Undeniably, it is indeed quite sad when we had to bid goodbyes to one another in the airport. I felt a sense of nostalgia when I recalled the fun we had enjoyed so much in Taiwan together. But the fact in life is that separation is inevitable.

From 方老师 of HCI：“天下无不散之筵席。原种下的种子有一天发芽。完成该完成的，收拾该收拾的。明年好好冲刺！”
Though I was quite shocked to receive this sms from 方老师, I felt touched, especially becaue he's not teaching me yet he sends his regards to me. This message has another effect on me: get my homework done asap or I'll meet my doom next year, which is less than half a month.
lol.

Before checking-in in Taiwan airport, 蓝小姐, the person-in-charge of this Taiwan trip：“离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！”
I thought I will feel very sad and can't bear to leave Taiwan and friends, but because of 蓝小姐's words before leaving, I managed to accept the coming separation readily in the airport and on the plane.

Indeed, as what 蓝小姐 mentioned in the airport, we'll all be facing many similar separations in the future. This fact of life really saddens me. And yes, I'll be facing more separations in the future. I've to be emotionally prepared.
sigh...

I'll always remember: 离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！


p.s.: I bought《斗牛.要不要》原声带 from 玫瑰唱片 in Taiwan! yay! =]

leaving for taiwan soon

Will be leaving for Taipei, Taiwan soon in about 14 hours. The thought of carrying my luggage makes me feel sian.... lol

Saddened by the sudden demise of the 5 dragonboat rowers.
:\
R.I.P



Alright, gonna have my dinner now...

Till then...

recent happenings

Kinetics test on Mon. As usual, scored low marks cuz I forgot the units of rate, which is mol dm-3 time-1. If not for the units, I wouldn't do such badly. CCA exco meeting after that to discuss about CCA Bazaar next year. Damn it. Gonna put up the exact same performance again as in Open House. And I swear I so don't wanna act anymore! No more acting for the rest of my life! Hope the in-charge will change actors. Better do so...

Anyway, I haven't settled the 5 souvenirs I have to buy for Taiwan students. Must settle it by tomorrow as there's no more time left already. Teacher said that we should give something related to S'pore. Seriously have no idea on what to buy.. Merlion keychains?? that's like so LC... but I can't think of what to buy.... maybe keychains will be my last resort, though I really don't want to buy keychains if I'm able to think of something better and nicer to give. But giving something is definitely better than giving nothing yea......

Have not finished packing my stuff.. Sigh.. I can foresee that I'm going to panic soon. Even so, I'm just too lazy to pack... aarrggghhhh! Serves me right for going to panic.... o_O"

Watched Dou Niu ep 2 already! Nice show! Watched it at tudou.com and it load much faster than youtube.

Assignments left: 2 compos, 5 Lit essays, little questions left for Bio and Math and 80% left for Chemistry revision paper, and 5 articles for GP. =\

Lets101 - Dating Site for Singles

ponder...

何谓“幽默”？它并不等于“好笑”。这是常被人所误解的。小时候，我也以为一个人很幽默就表示他说的话很好笑。以前的我，尤其在小学时期， 总爱说逗趣的活和做滑稽的动作来逗人家笑。所以，当老师问起我觉得自己是个怎样的人时，我都会说我是个蛮幽默的人。但，我错了。

其实，幽默的原来含义是以最深刻、最严肃的态度理解人生中最严肃的课题（像死亡）。在学《茶馆》时，老师就跟我们说过了幽默不是好笑，它是富有反讽意味的。那是我第一次认识到幽默并非好笑。最近，我翻阅了由教育部出版的《印象》，里面的文章是去年参加了北京和台湾文化之旅的语文特选课程学生写的。其中有几篇写了他们在台湾所学到的幽默的真正含义，所以在此想与大家分享。

幽默的目的不是要让人笑。我想幽默是要我们深思、反省，并让我们对于某件事有个更深一层的了解。笑是幽默的终点，其背后必定有幽默的存在，并有能够让你挖掘的内涵。

那位授课老师就举了这个例子：我们明知自己终必一死，却还能坚决地活着。生不带来，死不带去，活着本身即是文学中最大的反讽！但人类就是这般“幽默”，明知道到头来将归零却依然选择坚持着自己的理想和抱负，继续活下去，努力地、拼命地实现它们。

事实虽是如此，但本人认为既然没人能够逃过死亡，那倒不如在有生之中尽量去做让自己快乐的事，这样至少不会虚度一生。古今中外，又有谁是没有理想的呢？杜甫、范仲淹、苏轼都想为国效劳好让国家和人民能够得到安宁。这类的例子不胜枚举，其他的只好省略了。现代的就有深受新加坡人敬佩的李光耀资政。他成功地改变很多人认为新加坡不能生存的看法，把新加坡从第三世界蜕变成现在一个人人都享有高素质生活的国家。他们的共同点是他们都有自己伟大的理想。

死是必然的。但在死之前，即在活着的时候，我们可以选择自己想要如何度过这短暂的一生，而这选择可左右自己的命运。能够选择或许是自然界所赐给我们的一份礼物吧。生命是何尝的珍贵啊！若要真正了解生命有过么珍贵，或许是当一个人接近死亡片刻、或是死里逃生的瞬间吧。

mundane life

Lessons finally ended today, i mean yesterday (blogging after midnight currently~)!
Was late for 2 lessons, one for Chem and the other, Math. Missed some parts, gonna revise them soon, i hope...
Besides new knowlege gained, new assignments have also been given out! claps ... !! =.=" Seriously helped me to plan how I'm going to spend my so-called holidays... thanks so much cuz I don't have to trouble myself over how to spend this long awaited holiday...

Susi passed me her diary for me to write... It's those book which you wrote on when you were in primary schools yea... Hahax... Made me recall how my primary school friends then were so obsessed in writing such diaries... And now I get a chance to write such diary in JC.... lolx...
Need to wake uo early to hand up my 2 Chinese Lit essays which I've just finished, as well as to return the diary to Susi. Great, I've left 5 more Chi Lit essays! >.<

Briefing for Taiwan trip conducted 'yesterday' afternoon. Last for 2 hours... Was feeling sleepy towards the end of the briefing... nag nag nag...
Anyway, another group of LEP students will be flying to Beijing in like less than 6 hours. Bon voyage!
The taiwan trip will commence on 30th Nov till 14th Dec. Those travelling to Beijing will be back on 30th Nov. So we won't meet for one month. hahax.. and there'll be a few hours when both groups are flying in the air concurrently! that is, students flying back to S'pore from Beijing and the other group flying to Taipei from S'pore. Cool manz... haha...
Looking forward to the really nice food in Shi Lin Ye Shi (士林夜市)!!
But the annoying thing when enjoying is that I have to do 2 reports on the places we're going to visit. aarrgghh...!

Damn loads of assignments to be done. with 2 weeks gone for travelling to taiwan, i'll have lesser time for homework and revision. gonna start doing and get rid of the piles and piles of homework asap!

=( homework... (= friends!

If there's lots of homework to be done during schooling days, then I'll think that it is normal.
But if there's lots of homework to be done during school vacation, then I'll think that it's crazy! Insane! Torturous! whatever you wanna call it!

My homework for this "holiday":

1. GP- read 5 articles related to GP, write 5 facts / claims related to GP, find meanings of 5 new words
2. Bio- 1 set of Bio paper
3. Math - 1 set of Math paper
4. CLL - 7 Lit essays, 1 full Lit revision paper, 3 compos (1 of which at least 1000 words), and quite a number of questions on classical prose
5. Chem - yet to be uploaded on litespeed. gonna be many anyway.....

And all homework to be handed in by first week when school starts next year, some of which even have to be handed in on the very first day of school... >.<
The 7 Chi Lit essays are to be handed in on 16th Nov but I don't think I'll meet the deadline.. =\

CCA on Wednesday. Mr Ng, cca teacher, gave me and hui jun, the secretaries, a 2GB thumbdrive each. The thumbdrives are for us to store all CCA related stuffs, such as minutes, and they are to be passed down to the next generation of secretaries, so that they replace the normal practice of passing down files and papers. Isn't it hi-tech? I feel that even passing down stuffs from one generation to the next has become so advanced now. That's so cooL!

Exco outing just now. Went to eat at Marina Square, then went to KBox! Sang with Seokwei, Jasmine Foo and Hui Jun! The rest couldn't make it... Enjoyed!!!

What's unexpected for me was that I met my primary school mate, Andy, who works in the KBox! It's been more than 5 years since we met and talked. At first I didn't recognize him. On my way to the toilet, he kept looking at me and suddenly asked me if I live at Blk 113. I was almost totally shocked as to how did he know that and who exactly he is. Then he revealed that he remember me, a primary school mate to him. A while later, I recalled that we were never in the same class before but we played basketball together before during recess and after school, which I think was the only interaction we had and thus explained why I didn't quite recognized him at first (it's not an excuse!). It feels so great that there are people, though long time never meet, still recognize you. I am totally glad that Andy remembered me. Well, 5 years passed and he is now taller than me. cuz I remembered that I was taller than him during primary school times... lolx.... >.<

I think I am really crazy over Stardust! Because I like the movie so much, I went to college's library and borrowed Stardust book to read! The author is by Neil Gaiman. And I also borrowed another book written by him - Neverwhere. haha...

Too many outings organized and I'm getting broke. Spent over $20 bucks today. Yet to pay $6.50 for the coming BBQ on Monday and also for CCA fund... T_T"

Okay, I'm damn hungry now~

busy

PW OP exam over on Thurs. Screwed up Q&A session. oh well~ Think only Lily managed to perform well in the Q&A. the rest of us were stumbled by the questions. The assessors didn't ask the questions based on the slides that we presented, instead they asked what the other presenters had presented. i think the questions that were posed to us were the most difficult compared to the other 2 groups. ok, it's all destined to be this way, so be it. i'll stop whining... lolx.... I'm so happy that PW is completely outta my life! Had an enjoyable time with my group members! [=

After our OP exam, we went AMK Hub to celebrate! Went PepperLunch to eat. Because of my damn ulcer that day , i couldn't eat those good stuff, so only ordered a small teriyaki steak sandwich. next we went to watch Stardust! Awesome movie! touched by it. and Zhi Wei cried uncontrollably cos she missed her home (in Sabah) very much. ps. dun worry, u'll meet them very soon. (:

What am I busy with during this holiday?

1. LEP PW =.= another PW....
2. CCA - production
3. Lessons / assignments / revision

Have finished reading 雪山飞狐 on my way home on the bus!

胡斐到底会不会劈下去呢？

Well, i think i'm more on the conventional stance.

胡斐不会劈下去。他自有办法化解这场似乎不是你死就是我亡的斗争。最后，胡斐和苗若兰有情人终成眷属。而苗，胡，范，田四家之间的百年仇怨也就从此结束了。:] haha... quite cliched eh... but this is what i hope it will be.

Watched a play, Living People, at The Necessary Stage in Marine Parade this afternoon. Humorous, i would say.

This play is about whether we should allow patients who have left only 3 months to live to consume drugs to ease their pain. What's the relationship between legal/illegal and right/wrong? It's illegal but it may not be wrong, how should it be handled? Why are some drugs ie. cigarettes and alcohols legalised but not others such as marijuana (when all of them can lead to addiction)? We all know that smokers and alcoholics will not be hanged, even though they are addicted. Is it about ethics and morals, or economy? These are some of the ironies discussed in the play. Quite worth the money to watch (only $10 since we are students. original is about $22). However, i think the ending is rather abrupt. Many of the audiences don't even realised that the play had ended.

Gonna be extremely busy with the my CCA production. I'm in-charge of ticketing and marketing, a job that many people won't take notice of. But it's one of the roles in a production which is the busiest and has the heaviest responsibilities, especially something related to $$$.

Have to make sure that the money collected tally, or I'll meet my doom. Also have to market the production to the public ie. newspaper, emails to schools, radios, contact the alumni etc. It seems easy but there's lots of works to do. o_o

Yet to type the minutes for the latest exco meeting with teacher. gonna type it tomorrow...

Many outings are organised. Class and CCA (one as a whole CCA; another with exco), and SC. But I'm broke. Only a pathetic $2 left in my wallet. v_v"

Went out with yanhong & yukai yesterday to Vivo. They wanted to find holiday part-time jobs, and I went to relax myself.. haha... Watched The Game Plan. I think it's not as good as Stardust. Nonetheless, The Game Plan is quite a funny show, and has portrayed the fatherly love almost perfectly, if not flawlessly. Well, it's not the genre that I like, so perhaps that's the reason I feel that this movie is not quite for me.

There's no real holiday for me until after my GCE A level exam is over. So I'll enjoy as much as I can whenever possible. My CCA teacher told us this too. ENJOY.
JC life is hectic. J1 life has almost come to an end for me. Still have another year to endure! Come on! Test my perseverance! LOLX........

Sometimes looking at other schoolmates who is quite free during the holidays do make me feel jealous since they have the luxury of time to spend on revison, which I myself am deprived of. LEP PW, CCA production - these 2 additional tasks. Life's unfair. It's never fair. Nothing is fair anyway.
Ooops, I see myself whining again. Well, it has sort of become one of my habits already ever since I am in JC. =x

ULCER!

I've got an ulcer! qutie big. and it's making me feel painful! causes me to have no appetite to eat cuz it hurts so! and i'm starving at this moment! I hate the ulcer! And feeling uncomfortable when I talk. But I'm not gonna let it affect my OP tmr! Gonna endure and persevere the 5 min of presentation, as well as the Q&A session, and everything will be fine! Today's the 3rd consecutive days my ulcer has been torturing me. I hope that this damn ulcer will disappear, NOW! aaarrggghhh....

Rehearsed for OP today. 6 times. exhausted.
All the best to NY025! [=

pain... ... ... damn the ulcer!

happenings

It's start of A level today. H1 mother tongue. I didn't have to take this subject, but went to college early to settle PW group project file and working file. Went early also to participate in ............. (secrets. lolx.)
Anyway, thought that I'm gonna take H1 Chinese next year, somewhere in May/June, if possible. If not, given my terrible grades as reflected on my result slip, I doubt I'd be able to score any A grade in A level. Hopefully will ace Chinese if I take next year.

Went to Chinatown to attend free Math tuition by a teacher whom Lily knows. Unlearn and relearn. I practised that in the 2 hours of lesson this afternoon. Refresh my memory. Benefit lots from it. J1 topics are very important as emphasised by the teacher, who wants us to call him Sunny. =p

Sad thing that was announced today - Mrs Saleem, GP teacher, is leaving for School of Arts. Felt quite sad when I knew that I won't be taught by her next year. She's really a good and understanding teacher, who's the only teacher who allows us to eat as she understands that we need to eat somethings in order to have the energy to pay attention, or we'll be unable to focus for long. Because of her, I regain my confidence in writing good essay and do well in summary and AQ. Being systematic in her teaching, I'm able to understand the skills and logics needed in tackling GP. By the way, 0705, my class, topped the cohort in GP results! congrats us! Nonetheless, all the best for her future endeavours! Life's like that. Separation is sometimes inevitable. she said she cannot stay in NY, cuz it's a contract thingy... Life~

Webcammed and chatted with my "my dad's younger sister's son" just now.
Erm..what's my dad's sister's son is to me ar? cousin?? i dunnox... someone care to tell me? =x
He's somewhere in the continent of Europe now. Heard that he went there cuz of failed love relationship. >.< oh well...
Hope that he can bring me there one day. But need lots of $$$. The flight ticket price costs a bomb. Hope that I'm sponsored! hahax..

PW Oral presentation this Thurs. Haven't written my script yet, but know what I wanted to say. Just that a script can help me reduce the number of times of stuttering and the need to rephrase and structure my sentence in my brains before I speak it out... NY025, jia you!

Ooops. I'm hungry. Haven't had my dinner yet, at like 10+pm... o_O"

result slip

Tomorrow is the day. Gonna receive promo result slip...

Firstly, I've to start with grumbling!

Guess what'll I do tmr in college?

1. Wake up at 5.21am to get ready for school. (it's the time i've experimented that the bus will arrive when I reach the bus stop)
2. Flag-raising at 7.40am.
3. WAIT TILL 11am for PRINCIPAL'S TALK
4. Take our promo exma slip and will be released at 12pm.

In a nutshell, tmr's purpose of me going to college will be for the principal only - to listen to his talk. An hour later, I can go home.

I'd choose to not go for the assembly if I can afford to. That, I'll be marked as 'late'. BUT, I've late for 2 times this semester. I can't be late anymore, or I'll be punished to commit myself for 4 additional hours of CIP. {=.="}

Wonder how I'll feel when receiving our result slip. Next year's 0705 may not be the same anymore. :\ Reality is cruel. After being together for only 8 months, we've already built a really strong class bonding within us. I daresay that this bond is the strongest I've had ever felt in terms of being as a class - much stronger than my primary and secondary classes. Yet, separation is imminent. We'll have to face it real soon~

nostalgia

Friends Forever



And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We would get so excited and we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

[1] - As we go on We remember
All the times we Had together
And as our lives change Come Whatever
We will still be Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels
[Repeat 1]

La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
[Repeat 1 (3x)]


nostalgia~

canon in D [:

Added 'Canon in D'!
Play it!! lolx...

My sleep debt accumulated throughout this week, due to the need for me to wake up early and had to stay up till evening in college for the Open House's rehearsals. DAMN sleepy! -.-"
Yet to finish compensate the debt. Gonna compensate it tonight. Sleep as long as I want!

Woke up early today as I have to go Zhi Wei's houes for PW. Hate to wake up early (woke up at 8.40am) as I was still very sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy.
But no choice. her house is at SengKang. To be more precise, it's as Ranggung.
So, I will have to:
1)Take a bus to lakeside MRT
2)Take MRT from Lakeside to Outram Park
3)Transfer train. Take MRT from Outram Park to Sengkang.
3)Transfer to take LRT from Sengkang, and to Ranggung.
4)Walk a 5-min distance and finally reach her house.
Just the journey in MRT took around an hour. We planned to meet at 11am. how can I not wake up early then?

But it's all worthwhile. We finally managed to reduce 663 extra words. And our word count is 2937 words, if i'm not wrong. But we may add more stuffs so that the 63 words are not wasted.
Our WR, in a way, is DONE!

Our OP powerpoint slides are interesting! cuz of the nature of our topic: Changes in visual effects utilized in Films. So we can add movies posters and design some effects into our PPT. =]

LEP Project Work is up next. o_O''
This year's theme is 雪山飞狐. OMG. Have to self-study and evaluate it, so that we can introduce it to the other LEP and perhaps next year's sec 4 students.
sigh!

''why should we have hopes when most of them, if not all, are dashed at the end
of the day?''

=( horrendous promo results

Was quite worried and anxious when i was about to recieve my promo results in the hall.
SIGH. Promo results are disappointing.
Didn't improve from my Mid-year at all. and my grades only worsen.

I failed Chem. ='(
Really disappointed, though I expect myself that i won't do well.
But it still made me sad. =(
Very demoralising.
Have I become dumb, or the paper is difficult?
And I think it's the former. cos people around me score high for Chem and most of them thought that Chem is the easiest subject.
But not to me. I disliked Chem since Sec 3... >.<>
t_t

CLL. On the dot, i pass. =.="
Those who know me will know that Chinese is one of the subjects that I can score in.
But it's no longer the case anymore.
I failed my Chinese Compo. A pathetic 16.5/35.
How strict the teachers are in marking~~~ =.="""
TERRIBLE!
Disappointment.
2nd time failing this year. [sob]

Pass my Math, GP and Bio. but, to me, they're not good passes.

Bio 20-mark Free Response Question is CRAZY!
Really!
I scored a real pathetic 2/20!!!! Break my record!
There are others getting 0 mark, and even NEGATIVE (eg. -1/20) marks!
Reason: never spell out NAD in full for every part question.
NAD: Nicotineamide Adenine Dinucleotide
So the teachers do not understand what is 'NAD', and thw whole answer is not accepted. That's how I get my 2 marks.
Teachers also deduct marks due to our paragraphing, that's how some people got marks deducted and some got negative marks.
Seriously, Bio department is, to me, damn rigid. sigh...

Math. Need one more, or just half a mark, to jump a grade. cos the teachers will round up when they key in the marks. Wasted.
But i'm really happy that I can still pass Math though, cos it's the subject I have little confidence in after the paper.

GP is my best subject. =.= >.<
Paper 1: The teacher commented that my essay is highly readable. But somehow, he/she didn't quite reflect this when giving my marks.
Paper 2: I scored zero for vocab. -.- But thanks to my summary for getting 10 marks over 8 marks (there're 2 bonus marks). Got 5/8 for AQ. And I got 29.5/50 and I'm satisfied with it. :]
But i still need to strive to get better results. there are my friends who score 36/50 [Woah!]...

After the release of the promo papers, it's time to prepare for Open House.
What a 'nice' arrangement when preparation for Open House is right after release of exam scripts.
Those who may retain naturally will not have the mood for Open House.
And me, too, do not quite have the mood after getting those terrible results.
But I have to act. yeah. So I endured and tried to control my sleepiness till 3.25pm when it's CCS's turn to perform at the atrium.
Thanks CCS and my class 0705 for their presence, cheering and support when CCS performs. And also my tutors Mr Goh and Ms Tan. =]
We perform in just a preparation of 3 days, including brainstorming for ideas on what to perform, and rehearsal. It's definitely not easy.
Received positive feedbacks and i'm quite contented, though I know there are rooms for improvements in my acting skills. but it will still be the best situation if i'm not involved in acting in any way. lolx....

Interestingly, I was more energetic after our performance and don't feel that sleepy anymore.
So i went to my class there. We're in-charge of game stall. And so I played. hahax...

Open House ended around 5.30pm, i think. and reached home around 7.10pm.
Kept thinking of my terrible promo results, and whether i'm capable of getting good resuls in 'A' level in my bus journey...
=\

It's been a long day.
And now, I'm sleepy. o_o```

after promos

Life after promos is so so so much relaxing! =]
Imagine studying for the past 6 months +++ (from March to Sept), studied every single day... And finally, you can keep ALL the notes & NO NEED to touch them for quite a while!
Of course, the results do keep me worried.
But since there's no point worrying, i shall not worry then.
Will be getting back all the results on the coming Fri in the Hall.
Just hope that everything's FINE. (:

Intensive PW lessons from now on. If i'm not wrong, there'll be around 5 hours of PW lessons every day, till OP...??..... Sigh... i can imagine how bored it will be. But perhaps when crap a little with my group members, i may feel better and not as bored as i expect it to be.

Need to prepare for Open House on the comin Fri. Need to put up a 10 - 15 min play and we have to start everything from scratch.
Find a script, prepare souvenirs, prepare the booth, find and train the actors, coordinate with the various producton teams (lighting / props / costumes / make-up) bla bla bla...
All these to be done before the comin Fri.
Oh... how rush it is...
Gonna be busy with CCA stuff and no time for Bible Study by Lily. (FYI: not that i'm changing my religion or what; I'm a free thinker! hahax.. It's for personal interest sake and find out how everything we are experiencing now is explained by the God.)

Went to Chinatown family karaoke with sokteng, yanhong and yukai yesterday. and went to Vivo after that, to eat and browse the shops... Tiring... but definitely better than mugging...

Today went to yukai's condo. yukai and yanhong went to swim. after that, went to yanli's house. engtong, yanli, yanhong & yukai played majong in the warm living room, while me searching for suitable script for the coming college Open Hous in the air-con room. haha xD...
Must find something by hook or by crook. And luckily, i found something that is 'okay', and I generate ideas based on the original plot and modify, so that it will be better suit our theme of 《高中生活的乐趣》. though my first question was ''Is there even '乐趣' in JC?'' LOL...
The result of the majong was that engtong was the big winner and the other 3 had to treat him dinner. and i have nothing to do with it. lolx... and we went IMM for our dinner...

Seriously, we need to go out and relax and have fun, especially after the stressful exam periods.
To compensate for our hard work and the efforts put into getting good results.
We're not nerds =.=
Unless the person have no life.... haha...

Unfortunately, time passed really fast indeed.................
In a blink of an eye, it's time to prepare for 'A' level Oral Presentation.
And after that, have to attend normal lessons till the the start of end-of-year holiday (same as when the primary school kids start their holidays)
No longer the same as in sec sch when holiday starts in Nov. =/
Reason given by my math tutor, ''There's no logic when JC students can be freed when the sec students are having their GCE 'O' level.''


o_O''

towards the end of promo

2 more papers left (Chem and Bio MCQ) to the end of promo.
last paper will be on this coming thurs!
But i seem to have declared end of promos to myself... x_x"
NO. will still practise MCQs! =]

Bio P2 today. Disappointed with myself. Didn't memorise well for some facts. SIgh~
Since it's over. no point brooding over it anymore righ....

Felt a sense of uncertainty about how well i did for the promo.
that's an omen? hope not.
whatever will be, will be.
as long as i'd put in my best......
and do hope miracles happen o_O''

Anyway, exam is not everything in life, got this idea from a short movie I watched this afternoon
"15 year old's blues" led by Tegoshi Yuya who acted as Kouhei. (hope the names are spelt correctly.)
Kouhei faced difficulties in learning and he gave up on studying,
until he met his new, 11th, sensei, who influenced him and Kouhei finally had the motivation to study, to do his sensei and his family proud.
Finally, still, he did not make it into his desired school with his grade.
But he passed his exam.
Sensei told him to believe in himself. It is what that influence Kouhei to work hard, and finally manage to get a pass.
Though unable to get into desired school, sensei told Kouhei to continue to live on...
And Kouhei did.

That's just a very brief summary on the plot of the short movie... about 1 hour...
Watch it at crunchyroll if you're interested. =)


Hmmm.... should i take H3 chinese offered by NUS?
indeed, a rare opportunity, and only 50 vacancies available.
No idea.


Will by flying to Taiwan in Dec for 15 days for a study-cum-immersion programme! hahax...

That's all for this entry.
*vanish*

promos in 10 days' time

Promos in less than 10 days! JIA YOU!!! =]

To all graduating secondary students (in particular) and you,

Nanyang Junior College Open House

Date: 12th October 2007, Friday

Time: 2pm - 5pm

Venue: Nanyang Junior College {duh =.= lolx}

All are invited! =D
Attractive prizes to be won when you join our games and competitions. :)

For any enquries, please feel free to contace me via phone/sms/tagboard/anyone who knows me and ask them to ask me! hahax...
You may want to visit the college website (<---- P.S. click on website). (: (Just helping to do some promotion. xp)


Life's been indeed stressful yet fun every day. Realise that I laugh more often recently. HAHAHA.... =D
Audrey's chinese name is "Orderly"! LOLX... laugh till like having asthma...

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Shdn't stay long here... vanish...

complexity of life

'Emo'. Many people do emo at times, and i can easily say out few names from my class who emo. and i myself is one of them but i think it is not known to many, if not none. cos i dun show it... I daresay all poets emo very often, evident from the poems and song-cis I study during Literature lessons, when they used metaphors, personification bla bla bla...which we will need to evaluate during tests and exams. v_v" People emo because they feel for something very much, spiritually and emotionally. Sometimes the feeling is so deep and they are so engaged that they even shut themselves off from the external environment and live in a world as if they are the only ones living, too involved in their thoughts to bother about any other things. It may seem foolish. Nonetheless, personally, I feel that it does help us reflect about that 'something', and ask ourselves 'why do I care so much for?', even though many times there will not be any definite answers arrived to one in the end when you are finally back to living in the real world.

There's a void in my heart that need to be filled up so that my life is complete. The feeling is annoying, seriously. And I did spend some time to reflect, many times. And everytime I came to the conclusion that I should act and strive to achieve it lest I regret for my whole life. And I did. I did start to put my thoughts into actions, dropping hints and hope that they could be understood, as well as for me to verify if my conjecure is true, so that I can be confident in making my last, final, most important move to realise my dream. But life is never a smooth-sailing one. There were times that made me feel that my conjecture is true, though, which I felt really delighted. However, there were also times that I felt disappointed due to the fact that the responses I received had not been the way it should be if my conjecture is true. There are contradictions. And I felt that I am stuck, whether should I continue to find out the truth or to give up. There had never been a definite conclusion that I can come to, never.

That makes me think about the complexities of life and us, humans, highly evolved species since millions years ago. Can't life be much simpler? I doubt so. And I think that life can have no upper limit in getting more complex that ever. And this brings my mind to dwell in my childhood when it was so relaxing and carefree, nothing stressful and all that I was supposed to do was to play with my toys, run about the house or the playground, sleep for as long as I wanted to, and this routine repeated itself the following days. Life then was just so beautiful. It was much so simpler then. Everything that you said then was exactly what you want to express. But that was just a facade to real life. Sometimes whatever we say now is never always what that comes out from out hearts. There is the element of pretence in it. And I shan't elaborate as we all know the real image of life. And what makes life so stressful and difficult? I think is humans, the highly evolved species who have unlimited wants, who always want to compete with one another to be the first in everything, who have the pride too great to swallow... ... ...

How ironic! In the end, it is ourselves to be blamed that cause us to land in such a pathetic state of living. And I guess it is the price we have to pay and the sacrifice we have to make for being so highly intelligent relative to other species.

Perhaps the way humans act and behave do not allow us to see through and undestand fully how one is feeling. One may be feeling empty and depressed but he/she shows that he/she has nothing to worry and is feeling happy. Or one may loathe another person but he/she still treats the person nice on the surface, but deep down he/she has the strong feeling of hatred, yet he/she continues to act hypocritically. Of course there are more kinds of such pretentious acts. That's the sad thing of most humans, if not all: not wanting to show the inner true feelings so that everything could be simpler. A consequence of the rat race we are all in?

After my most recent reflection, I thought that me decision should be to give up, and my conjecture has had been a most laughable joke, and that it's time, finally, for me to get myself out of the dream, and to start a brand new life without the need to guess and worry about the thing that has bothered me for quite a long time, and perhaps to start to find a new goal in life. And that the new goal can be anything, can even be something that may ruin my life, as long as it can make me forget about the heartbreaking past, or to bring about regrets when my new kind of life is made known, or simply just to show that I'm still living fine.

Yet, after all the decision-making and the envisagement of the future, I may still unable to give it up. The feeling may rekindle.

But who knows?

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sept holiday

Just a quick, short entry...

It's September holiday! can wake up late! yay!

But not today when I woke up at 6.20am. I'd set my alarm clock at 6.45am but my Mum thought I'd forget to set alarm clock and was afraid that I'd be late, so she woke me up while I was still dreaming about somthing, which I had forgotten waht was it about, but was regarding something which I yearned to find out more and now I dunno what it was. =.= Anyway, I had Chem lesson for 2 hours! And teacher, Mr Ong Jiun Hoe, was late for 40 minutes! v_v'''

Less than 20 days left to promos. I want to do revision! But before that, I want to complete ALL my CLL assignments. Add oil ... ...

Finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows 2 days ago! Many people felt that the ending is lame, but personally, I think it's not bad la. Last chapter - Nineteen Years Later - is filled with Love, something that Voldemort knows not. Anyway, I maligned Severus Snape for betraying the Order of the Phoenix, which, the truth, is that he had been loyal to the Order all the time. Albus, I'm referring to Harry's and Ginny's younger son, is cute when he is so scared of being sorted to the Slythern's House. Haha.. His full name I think, is Albus Severus Potter. Having the 2 former Headmasters of Hogwarts, Albus Dumbledore and Severus Snape, as his name is indeed cool! Well, these are just some of the reflections and opinions I have after reading the book.

Also finished watching 换换爱 already! Ending is good too! The last episode is really saddening. Anyway, think Yang Cheng Ling and Mike He ought to be real-life couple. Feel that they are very compatible, and they have fun bickering with each other. Have placed order to ask Susi to buy the DVD at only $20. hahax... A good and worth-watching show! =]

Naruto Shippuden: Sakura and Chiyo finally beat Sasori! Sakura is really strong, unlike the past! She's changes so much! =]

Alright, shall stop here. byeee..... =p

another Fri~

It's Friday! finally can take a short break...

Survived the many tests this week. Oh well, GP compre is --- sigh --- got to learn to paraphrase correctly and quickly - a lesson i learn from the test. Chem SPA is alright, but missed a short point but well, that's alright =] Math test (Functions and Differentiation), well, dunno how i'll fare. Better not have any hopes, whatever will be will be. Supposed to have Chi Lit test but as the teacher needs to teach 茶馆 fast as there isn't much time left, it is postponed to anytime before Wed next week and we'll decide ourselves when to do with time given 1 hour.

Got back GP reasoning test which tests us on common sense / logic thinking and i scored 46.5/50! At least it helps to pull up my marks for GP. Looonnnggg time never get above 90% for a test or exam already! By the way, I think my GP teacher Mrs Saleem is really one of the best and most understanding teacher I've ever met. She truly understand the difficult lives we're facing as JC students as the schedule is real hectic and at times make you unable to have time to even breathe properly. Everyone is mugging hard for tests and the coming promos. As the Subject Head for GP, I can see that she trys to reduce the number of tests for GP. So far, we have only 2 compo tests, 1 compre test and the reasoning test. And I think the workload for GP is just right. Unlike other subject such as Bio, giving many tutorial questions but only gives us a relatively short time only and expecting us to complete them. We have tutorials for other subjects too and they seem not to bother about our workload at all... Mrs Saleem is really empathetic =] Once we did not do our summary, she asked who didn't do and out of her surprise, many of us raised our hands. She always thought that we are good students and she told us that our class is the best class out of the 3 classes that she teach. She said, ''Okay, it's alright. We are all humans. But don't let this happen too often.'' She is the only teacher who understand that we are humans and that we are never really always perfect in accomplising all tasks I've ever met in my more than 10 years of education, unlike others who will just scold and nag ... Felt so fortunate to be in her class =]

Will DEFINITELY complete my 2 Chinese Compo this weekend! (to ensure I'll do by writing definitely .. lolx) You know what? I've owed them for almost 1 month since the assignment was given on, what, 30/7/2007! oh well ...

Did horribly terrible for my CA. It's just horrendous! Even I myself have no face to look at the terrible results of the test papers! =( Must buck up for the Promos! a must! hope my wish come true! Desperately need people to coach me! hmmm..... =/

It's Teachers' Day celebration next Fri. The Student Council organised it and we will be having a so-called picnic with our CTs on the field while watching performance. All our food are almost all purple - ribena, blueberry cake etc - as both our CTs like purple. haha......

Went to NTU for an interactive conversation by Mr Ng How Wee (nyjc teacher, UFM 100.3 DJ and also is an author) and Royston Tan (the director of the movie 881). Royston shared with us who are the LEP students and the NTU students about the purposes of certain ways to showcase the movie. For example, Qi Yu Wu always wear singlets as the singlets once belonged to his Dad, whom he had not always been close till his Dad passed away, it is to show that Qi Yu Wu still wants to have some way of connection with his Dad, and also this will show that Qi Yu Wu is a simple guy. Although he has never spoken in the entire move, it is not because he is deaf or mute which many people had thought so, there are other reasons. It can be known that he is neither deaf nor mute when he drives. One funny thing is when one person aske, ''Why is the chicken white?'' It is in fact because there is only white chicken available then! and that the chicken has now retired already! LOLz.... It's an interesting conversation. And I felt compelled to watch 881 after knowing his different ways to bring out his story. hahaha....

Watched 换换爱 ep 12 and Naruto Shippuden ep 26. Looking forward to next episode! No time to watch my Harry Potter and I've only read till page 286, The Life and Lies of Albus Dumbledore. Slow eh... cos I only read 3 chapters every week in the night. Seriously no time....

Anyway, I'm proud to say that I am from Jurong Secondary School! hahax... PM Lee praised JSS for its outstanding performance in its teaching methods - Teach Less Learn More (TLLM). Great job, JSS (Ms Tham the principal, and the teachers and juniors)! [Miss secondary school time ... (:]

Okay, I shall stop here. It's a looonnnggg entry.
Byeeee.... xp

intensive tests

Stressed up.
Tests and spa for ALL the subjects I'm studying. GP test, Math lecture test and Chem SPA on this Tues. Bio test on Wed and Chi Lit test on Fri. Crazy~ Indeed, Wk 8 and 9 of Term 3 in JC 1 are one of the most stressful periods as time-management and memorization play their very important roles. humph.... It's less than 38 days to Promos. Stress is building up... Promos results will determine whether you can be promoted to J2 or not as the weightage is 60%. It is the determining factor of your promotional status.

JC life poses challenges every day almost without fail. In order to survive, one will need to have a be strong both mentally and physically. Mentally strong cos you have to bear with the very hectic and stressful life, or you'll break down eventually. Physicallystrong cos you'll need to have the energy to sit for at least 3 hours for an exam paper, and perhaps have to stay till quite late in college and may have to attend many consecutive hours of lessons every day. It can be tiring.

Bad news for me for my Promos time-table. First day of promo: Final submssion of Eom. GP P1 and GP P2 exams, followed by CLL P2 exam which ends only at 5pm! Next day is Math. The day after next is Chem P2/3. Where the h*** do i find time to practise Math? And CLL P2 is a Lit component, it'll difinitely be tiring after the paper as my hands have to write continuously and brain has to keep on thinking what to write, or one will not be able to finish. Then how am I supposed to survive for Math the next day? aaarrrgggghhhh..... esp when i live that far. Sigh, that's life and that's fate. Need to pracitice my math every day... Hope I can still be able to clear the promos. Hope my wish come true :)
Anyway, Chi Lit teachers will be teaching 茶馆 next week. haiz... what i hope not to happen is gonna happen next week. meaning more to memorise for promo... =/

Watched 换换爱 ep 11. nice and sweet. hahax. =] And also Naruto Shippuden ep 25. Sakura is cool! Looking forward to the next episode.

Alright, no time to waste though i think that i'll still find time to slack a bit. lol
byee ... .... .....

S.H.E. 's 再别康桥 MV (= A nice song! =p

National Day eve '07

Was damn zonked out this morning when i woke up from my bed and off the alarm of my phone. DAMN TIRED. I could tell my body really need more sleep. i'm that tired was due to the past 2 days' night study in college. Reached home at 12.10am on Mon and 10.50pm on Tues. Hence insufficient sleep. And I couldn't walk steadily, i walked like a drunkard, walking diagonally left and right. =_="

Need to stand longer than usual in sedia position as there's National Day celeration's procedures to follow where the commander and the flag-bearers had to do many things before the 1st part of the national day celebrations ended. The 2nd part was a concert in the hall. The superstars finalists Nat and Javin (shd be like that spell) sang 末日之恋 together and then Nat sang 爱爱爱 solo. cool! After the concert ended, went to LT 3 for the farewell of the J2 LEP. After that, my cca CCS brought the Indonesian students to Bugis to introduce them the culture of Singapore. Well, since we are chinese CULTURAL society.

Because of my packed schedule, I couldn't meet my bio tutor to go though my Bio mock SPA. Haiz, need to go back to college on Sat 9am then. =/

After bidding goodbyes to the Indonesian students, I went to Bugis street wanting to buy a bag. Then thought of going to the Nike warehouse sale in Kovan, so decided to go to the warehouse sale before deciding whether or not to buy the bag. Unfortunately, none suits my preferance. In the end, I bought a top before I went home. I can't go there which is really far away and go home empty-handed right? lolz.. so i told myself that i must buy something or it's a waste of time and efforts.

No materials to evaluate for EoM! really pathetic! by hook or by crook, i must produce an EoM before Sunday as Mon is the deadline. Anyway, it's only Version 1. Still, gonna put in my best.

Lots of tests and SPAs in the next 2 weeks before the end of Term 3. sigh¬ That's jc life. Dunno how we'll pull through the tough period but somehow we'll be able to pull through them. Just have to do it and they will be over soon. =/

天上人间

一般滋味在心头

let's recall what's happened

It's 50 days left to Promos! so the time span from mid-year to promos is only 3 months. won't blog too often anymore (hopefully). cos i'm not smart enough to achieve what i desire and what is expected of us from college. work smart is what i have to do. fast and consistent, that's what the teachers in secondary school told us while preparing for 'O' level. now, after one year, i've to do what i did last year, in preparation for promos which accounts for 60% of overall grades. it does make a HUGE difference. i daresay that what's been taught now and the amount of content to be tested are already more that that required for 'O' level. and the demands are much greater.

GP will test on an argumentative essay, and compre whereby all questions require paraphrasing, or 0 mark is awarded. =\ paraphrase ... ... ...
Math: Functions, graphing techniques, AP/GP, MI, Summation, Inequalities, Differentiation, Maclaurin's series and Vectors
Biology: cell structure, enzymes, nuclear division (mitosis, meiosis), DNA replication, transcription, translation, variation, respiration and photosynthesis
Chem: Stoichiometry, atomic structure, chemical bonding, gaseous state, energetics, kinetics, chemical equilibria, electrochemistry and alkanes
CLL: At least 5 唐诗, 5 宋词, 2 新诗 and 2 小说 for literature component. a very high possibility that teacher will teach one more 新诗 （再别康桥）or 小说（最宝贵的） or both after teaching the second 新诗 （海魂), hope don't teach 茶馆 yet though it is included in the content page that e teacher sent thru litespeed...... And 寓言三则, 陋室铭, 五柳先生传, 岳阳楼记 and an essay for language component. (btw, i'm starting to like 岳阳楼记! though i may have a hard time memorising cos it's quite long. =/)
Wish me luck!

Took a taxi to college on Fri with huey jia, susi and liying. 4 of us live in the west side so we thought of taking a taxi on Fri together since it is the last day of the week and we would be tired having to wake up early in the morning. so we met 6.45am at Chinese Garden MRT station. Guess what, we'd been flagging for a taxi from 6.45am to 7.25am before we finally could get a taxi and travel to college. Most taxis were hired. So that's why. And it totally defeats the purpose of us deciding to take a taxi to college as we were late, when we reached at 7.50am. It cost us $19.40 some more. =.= That will be my first and last time taking a taxi to college. I can't be late anymore as I've been late for twice. or my parents will be called. haix... I was late twice is because that was Mondays and college starts at 8.45am, so I could sleep longer. The thing is the bus always reached the college only at 8.50am, that therefore made me late, twice. >.<

Didn't clear my DNA and Genomics test. that's pretty sad. CA is pulling my overall grades down! why huh? why is it that I could pass my mid-year but not my tests? gonna do my best not to let this phenomenon carry on! have to do well in all... yea...

Night study with Au Yeong and Huey Jia on Fri night in college. that's my first time doing night study in college. did night study in secondary school and it was quite productive then, so decided to try night study in college and see how it is. well, it is quite productive too as you're able to focus and without distractions. As usual, crapped and gossiped with them, and I found out more rumours, gossips and unexpected news from them. lolx...
Just perhaps the day which i decide to do night study clashed with the Film Fest, making the night a noisy one for me. Au Yeong and Huey Jia 'abandoned' me as they suddenly decided to want to go watch the Film Fest. lolz... jkjk... told them that I dun mind.. yanli msg me to go for dinner at JP but I've planned to have the night study, so yea, can't go for the dinner... Left college around 8.10pm and it took a shorter time (50 min) to reach home at night than in the afternoon (average of 70 - 75 min).

Have been enjoying PE since Term 3 as we are not training gor NAPFA but learning to play rugby and tennis. Rugby is FUN! though is makes us muddy. I wonder if rugby players are supposed to collect mud in the field. Contact rugby is indeed rough, but it's still fun! I think I nearly break my left arm while trying to slow down an opponent by grabbing his waist and tried to make him fall down to the ground. At the moment when I ran to grab the opponent's waist, one person from the same team also ran towards the opponent to make him fall down to the field, supposed to aid me in making the person fall down. He (my team mate) rushed towards the opponent and banged to my left arm, making my joints in my arm to forcefully bend in the opposite manner. and my left arm felt a sharp pain. My joint hurts and I felt numb for a few minutes before it's better. In that few minutes, I imagined if I'll become paralysed in my left arm, if my nerves are still working and what will happen to me if my left arm couldn't work forever anymore. =.=''' Rugby is, after all, a rough and violent sport. Some people say that sport acts as a medium for people to exhibit their aggresiveness in a legalised manner, and I find it quite true for some sports. For tennis, I learnt the correct way to hit the tennis ball, that is to brush the ball to the opposite court instead of hitting the ball directly, though I never able to brush the ball correctly every time. also learnt how to hold the racket. PE lessons have been fruitful in learning new sports. the PE teachers are nice too. =]

Haven't got the time to watch 换换爱 ep 9 and the latest naruto shippuden yet. Maybe watching them early in the morning tmr. and spend the afternoon to clear my CLL homework and do some revision. CLL is making me crazy once again. 2 language essays and 1 lit essay left undone. Dun think that i'll clear all the 3 essays but will try to write some words so that less will need to be done in the future. lol... And have to do Variation tutorial... haish....

Math lecture test (Functions and Differentiation) and Chem lecture test (Energetics, kinetics and equilibria) in 2 weeks' time. Bio SPA in 3 weeks' time. Chem SPA and Bio lecture test (Mitosis and meiosis) in 4 weeks' time.

jia you ba~

嗟夫！何哉？人生惟空自凭吊？何时而乐耶？噫！吾谁分忧？

晏几道 《鹧鸪天》

《鹧鸪天》 晏几道

彩袖殷勤捧玉钟，当年拚却醉颜红。舞低杨柳楼心月，歌尽桃花扇底风。

从别后，忆相逢，几回魂梦与君同，今宵剩把颍钢照，犹恐相逢是梦中。

thinking of you ... :)

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1 wk after i'm sick

it's another friday. fall sick last week, with a record high fever for me of 39.3 degree Celsius. I was really feeling awful. My head was spinning, with the high amount of heat in my body. I even imagined that my enzymes are reacting at a slower rate than usual since they are in a condition not in their optimum state. I even thought about if my brain would be too 'hot' such that I may become retarded soon. Well, you don't think properly and will start to imagine things when you have a high fever and bad headache. Wanna thank my family members who have cared and taken care of me meticulously when i was really sick and suffering so much of the pain. =)

Gotten back my mid-year result slip. Quite satisfied but definitely want to be even better =] hope my wish come true :)

Helped out in the Translation Competition held by our college, which will bbe tomorrow. The Chinese Department organized it and all taking H2 CLL are to help out either as ushers, receptionists, back-stage/logistics, emcees or hosts. My role is to press a device to show the marks scored by the participants. cool! lolx...

Have to move 6 tables from canteen to outside of LT4. That's quite a walking distance and a long flight of steps. Me and Jun Jie were the only 2 guys left to carry them as the other 2 had things to attend to. It was near 7pm and the teachers were very caring and nice to us. As it was parent-meeting session tonight, they were busy and left this job to us. They let us have the free food provided primarily for the parents and those night-studying students. and they ensured that we have enough food by serving us! not only that, the teacher gave us serviettes and treat us a can of chrysanthemum drink each! wah, touched by her. thank you, teacher! Well, working with the Chinese Department teachers for two rehearsals sessions made me think that all the chinese teachers are really nice. glad and fortunate to have the batch of nice teachers in the college. =]

About the carrying 6 tables with Jun Jie, there's a small part where it is really hilarious. As we are almost zonked out carrying those tables, which are indeed heavy, we tried different methods carrying the tables and experimented out which method required the least energy, or seemed to us that less energy is required. We tried one way, suggested by Jun Jie, that instead of carrying the tables in the conventional way (which is one carry one breadth of the table while the other person carry the other breadth), we tried carrying the lengths. So it's like we are carrying and walking sideways, with out heads turning 90 degrees to look at the front while carrying the table. I felt it was really a strange method of carrying a table as i never see anybody carried a table the way like ours. I expressed to Jun Jie the strangeness I felt but can't really describe what is the strange as, after all, it's just a new or unconventional way of carrying a table. Jun Jie felt strange too and he described it as if we are dancing Tango! HAHAHA! That was really the right description man! carrying a table, walking sideway and with our heads turning 90 degrees... it just like we are dancing tango! I laughed, and cannot stop for a while. it's really a funny description or analogy. LOL!

Finished watching latest episodes of naruto: shippuden and huan huan ai (:
Reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Gonna start reading the chapter on The Wedding soon~

Hope my weekends will be fruitful and will use it wisely! lol... xp

sick...arrggghhh....

Every Friday is both a good and bad day for me. It's good because it is the last day of the week, which means that weekend is coming. It's bad as I have to endure the long consecutive hours of lessons. 8am - 9am is Bio lecture, followed by half an hour break. Then here comes the endurance race...
9.30-10.30 Chem lecture;
10.30 - 11.30 Math tutorial;
11.30 - 12. 30 GP;
12.30 - 1.30 CLL;
1.30 - 2.30 Xtra Bio tutorial. =.=
It's 5 hours of consecutive lessons with no breaks in between this 5 hours at all. & u have to travel around the school to the venues of the lesson. I'll always feel hungry and lethargic during this 5 hours. Besides this, I have to wait till 4pm for PE lesson which lasts till 5pm before I can go home.

Fall sick. Headache, fever, cough, then felt cold... I've the feeling that I'll fall sick while waiting for PE. Think it must be due to playing touch and grab rugby in the rain on Wed. It's not my choice to play in the rain. I'd choose not to play rugby in the rain if i can. It's the teacher who did not let us off even though when it startedd to drizzle which later became heavier, before he decided to let us off. But seriously, playing rugby in the rain is indeed qute cool. The whole body is wet. lolx... Though it made me fall sick, it's an expeience to play rugby in the rain. We played grab rugby, meaning we have to grab the opponents' back and chest, before they gave up a chance to have the possession of the rugby. so my point is: you will hav to do lots of body contact when you play rugby. hahax...
Perhaps stress plays a part in making me fall ill too. GP test on tues and Bio lecture test on wed next week. Hopefully I'll score decently well grades =)
Hope I get well soon. Have to!

Wed learn rugby, whereby we will proceed on to learn contact rugby soon which is more 'violent'. Fri afternoon PE learn tennis. So it's not true that you need not attend afternoon PE if you passed NAPFA. -.-"

Saw my ranking of my CLL. Out of 88 candidates who took H2 CLL mid-yr exam, I ranked the 16th position. it may not seem very well but i was quite satisfied =] It's not like rank no.1, followed by 2, 3, 4, ...
As some people score the same percentage, the ranking becomes no.1,1 followed by 3, 3, 3, 3, then 7, 7, 9, 10, 10, 10, 13, .... bla bla bla... So i'm not too bad compared to the cohort la.. haha... The top 2 who scored A grade are from China from another class. Hmmm.. I'll have to buck up (:

Will be getting mid-yr result slip soon. luckily have no obligation to trouble my parents to go over to college to meet the CT since I never failed any subject. phew~ Wonder what my remarks will be.... lol..

From now on, i'll try to do at least half of my tutorials myself and copy the rest, unlike last time when I copied all. haha... Less than 65 days to first paper of Promo, and TYS will be my close friends for this period of time =] Hope my wish come true :)

boring saturday

Studied for 3 hours and online for another 3 hours. It's another boring day in my life.

Reality is such. I know it long ago. How I wish to be able to live in my ideal world, a world without any worries at all. Something's just missing in my life, or my life won't be so monotonic almost every day. It's pretty sad to live lifeless-ly. Even I do pity myself at times. what's wrong with me? Grrrr... so confused and angry with myself. it's my life and yet i don't know how to live it to the fullest. dumb isn't it? i don't exactly know what i want in life. sad eh... for now, at least i know that to do well in studies is a goal for me. but other than this, what else? what else? i detest growing up, getting older and having to face the complexity and ugliness of reality. How I admire Peter Pan!!!!!!!! the boy who will never grow up! i want to go back to my childhood. there's no stress for me to handle. there's so much fun. it's so much simplistic then. unlike the situation i'm in now, this very moment. watching kids playing and running about evokes a sense of nostalgia. how i miss those times. it seems so far away from me. the future is so unexpectable. everything is a facade. and i'm left with no choice but to carry on living in this cold-blooded, complicated and cynical world. till the day i die.
[& i realise that i use 3 Cs to describe this world]



Peter Pan cartoon



Peter Pan movie actor Jeremy Sumpter

Don't wanna grow up ...

B for Bio!

I got a B grade for Bio, not C anymore. haha... That's because the percentage for the structured paper is reduced such that it is equivalent to that of 'A' level and thus raise my overall results. And I'm quite proud to say that I am one of the 5 % in the cohort who get a B grade. 4% get A grade. No idea for C, D, E and S. But 22% got a U grade. \=

Tests for this term:
1) GP essay test on Wk 5
2) Bio test (DNA & Genomics) on Wk 6??
3) Chem test (Energetics, Rxn Kinetics ,and Equilibria) on Wk 8 (15 Aug)
4) Bio SPA (Skill B and C) and Chem SPA (Skill C and D) on Wk 8-9

It's weekend and I am going to mug as much as I can! And also do notes for Math, Bio, Chem, and CLL (in the order of priority)! If possible, gonna do a bank of vocabulary words and good expressions in an exercise book to improve my GP. Well, hopefully I will do them and not only just say which is of a large probability. LoLz~ =.="

Gonna watch Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix next Tuesday! hee :D
Next Tuesday will be an early day for me as it will be 'A' level MT Listening Comprehension which I do not have to take since I'm not taking H1 Chinese. yeah... hahax...

Alright, shall stop here. till then, tata! [>.<]

mid-year results

After getting GP and Bio today, I know all my grades for all subjects already. No A or B. That's pretty sad, especially for subjects such as GP and Bio when 1 more mark are required to achieve that B; and 1.5% more marks (3 marks) for CLL to get B. So my GP, CLL, Bio and Math got C; Chem got a D. Happy and relaxed that I did not fail any subject and have improved from tests; on the other hand, not quite satisfied with myself as I know I could do even better. I realized that it is not Mid-year that is pulling my overall marks down, it is instead CA marks which is 25% of the overall marks at the end of the year. I did badly for CA (assignments and tests). Mid-year is only 15%. How I wish the percentages of mid-year and CA can swop. -.-"

This week is so-called PW week where the first 3 hours for each day are specially allocated for us to draft our Written Report. WR is 40% of our PW marks, thus WR is really important and that's why the school allocated so much time for us. Since our class is drafting WR together in a air-con cosy classroom (lol), it also promotes class spirit and bonding. We laughed at one another, and enjoyed the freedom we have since no tutor is supervising us. Especially when we got to know an incident which is extremely unlikely to happen.

It's 74 days left to first paper of Promotional Exam, that is GP. Have to start preparing for it now. SPAs and tests are coming up. EoM will need to be done soon. After Promos, have to start working on OP and finally I&R. All these will have to be completed before my J1 curriculum is officially over. Hope my wish will come true. Jia You! :)

"I never imagine you are such person. Please do not talk behind other people's backs. Do not creat unnecessary misunderstandings. It is selfish and childish. Sooner or later, you will find that there will be less people talking to you if your acts carry on, and it is really sad indeed when you have no real friends. What you did make people think that you are hypocrytical which is seriously irritating."

1ooTH p0st ... colorgenics

My 100th post. Haha. Don't have to celebrate, yea...

Firstly, I wanna show a video which is damn cute! Credit: audrey.
A lil gal who said, "WhAteVeR!"
Watch it!!! Must! haha...

Cute right? (=

Got back my Math paper. and got a C grade of 55.5%. for me, i think it's not bad given the fact that i self-studied the first 3 months stuffs (AP/GP, Summation, Binomial Theorem and Mathermatical Induction, and the lectutes for these topics were almost useless as they literally rushed through...), and manage to get some of these questions right. careless for 1 question. but the rest were questions which i really did not know how to do, so i was quite satisfied with myself, but i do know that i have to clear those questions which i dunno and bridge the gap asap. [:

After that, it's 4 hours from 9am to 1pm for us to do Written Report outline. and our group has almost finished the outline, except for the bibliography which we'd forgotten to take down the titiles of books and the websites and we'll be going to National Library tomorrow to look for those books again, as well as to do more research. jia you!

Found a link from tzelin's blog. By just clicking 8 colours, it tells alot about you, and it's very true for me. The analysis for me is:

You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. (lolx.. who doesn't want peace? :p) You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person. (yeap.)

Of late, everything seems to be going so slowly - far slower than you anticipated - and this is causing you much anxiety and frustration. It would appear that there is little you can do about the series of events that now seem to be taking place. In spite of the fact that you feel like 'giving up' - don't. Take a deep breath and start over again and you will find that eventually the expression 'All's well that ends well' will have an extra special meaning for you. (yea... perhaps it's abt my academia which I've quite high expectations for myself... or others ... ... ...)

You give the impression that you are a self-sufficient individual (do I?? hahx), pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure. But this is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional person (haha.. i agree.. xp), one that may make hasty decisions (sometimes I do) and perhaps repent at leisure (yup, I do..) . It is time now perhaps to break the bond of detachment and become the real 'you' - the you that you would like to be.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful (definitely!)and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full (Yeah!). You therefore resent any restriction or limitations (yes.) that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

huan huan ai =D

Just finished watching 换换爱 episode 5. nice nice =D worth the time to watch it! thanks yanli for recommending this drama :) now waiting for the next episode to be uploaded in YouTube. and also naruto shippuden. =]

Got back my Chemistry paper. get a D grade =\ 52.5% if i didn't calculate wrongly. haiz, just 2.5% more to a C grade. wasted :/ But i'm really happy and quite contented that i can even pass given the fact that i had no idea what the questions are asking for when i did the paper. Some questions allow error-carried-forward marks and if not for those marks, i would have failed. phew~
Anyway, when i entered the LT for Chem lesson, the lecturer showed us on the screen how we performed for the Chem paper. and the fact that shocked me was that the majority of us got U grade. =.=" that's about 200+ people. And the top scorer scored 95%! (Oh my goodness!) and the teacher thus concluded that the paper was not really dfficult... v_v\\\

ok...nothing more to comment liao...

tata! [:

sch stuff.. boring

blogging... and it's really late... oh, it's already a brand new day.. =.="

Tiring period of mugging and taking exams are gone, but the worse has yet to come and will be coming very soon indeed. the ReSuLtS of the mid-year exams! don't wish to dwell my mind and worry too much about my results. whatever will be, will be. i know that i have put in my best for all the papers. i know i did. i'll try to face the reality/cruelty of the world, whatever results i fare for myself. i'll try. didn't i used to be an optimist? let it not change, alright?

the days ahead will be busy. sigh. well, that's jc life, isn't it? special time tables for the next 2 weeks are set for us whereby morning will be lectures while afternoon will be PW. i anticipate that it will be really boring. hope that my anticipation will not come true, as least not to the extent of boring us to death. as a CCS member, i have to watch 3 drama plays. T_T need to fork out money myself for watching these drama productions, though most probably there'll be discounts, at least $8 it will be for watching each drama production from my past experiences which i think is still quite alot for me. but i've to pay those money eventually. =\ Looking forward to Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix movie! and the release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows book! yea, i'm a Harry Potter fans.. haha...

there'll be cca meetings which will be discussing about changing the name of our cca name instead of 'chinese cultural society', and meetings where the exco are to plan for what are the things to do for future cca days.. well, i don't see a need to change the name of our cca. who knows that CCS may reach out to more areas such as chinese debate and others in the future? CCS is now restricted only to drama production but who knows, the future ccs members may decide to work on other areas regarding chinese culture, since it is Chinese Cultural Society? Drama production being ccs's major while others (such as debate) being minors is a pretty good idea eh? well, those are all my personal opinions. one person's stand has an extremely low probability to change the decision of the rest. the result is that the person will have to eventually conform to the ideas of the majority. i think i'll just keep mum while the rest are discussing, or maybe say something like 'ok', 'yea', 'can' in order to get it over and done with. >.<

HAHA! so happy! i just found out that I don't have to go back to school on Tues (3.7.07) cos there is still mid-year exams going on.. CSC, Art and MT Listening Compre. so my weekend is 4 days long! ahahahhaahhahahhahaaha! more time to do my notes, finish my tutorials and read some books! all work and no play makes me a dull boy. =p lolx... that, of course, also means more time for me to relax, and get myself ready for more challenges ahead in school, in life.

hmmm.... a pretty long post. shall stop here..

tata! :p

*vanished*

mid-year over! yay!

i've been waiting for this moment and it finally arrived! i'm here to declare that my mid-year exam is over! really feeling very relaxed now cos i dun have to mug in the night anymore. =]

anyway, the day which is most difficult to endure is today. 3h of CLL P1 + 3h of CLL P2 = 6 h of CLL full paper! even 'A' level would separate the two papers into different days. wonder why would the teachers want us to suffer. mugging from 5.40am in the bus. then took P1 from 8 am till 11am. and continue mugging for P2 till 2.20pm after lunch. then took P2 exam from 2.41pm till 5.41pm. and had a short meeting with CCS teacher after that and reached home at 7pm... what a long and tiring day i've gone through today.

well, mid-year exam over just means that i do not have to mug intensely for each subject. i've to start doing my tutorials which are due on the second week of term 3, and ya, just next week, and ya, just 3 more days. =.= Maths (Functions and Differentiation, quite alot!) and biology (DNA & Genomics)...


i've been missing you everyday, seriously, especially when i am in my bed going to sleep. how i hope that you know that i'm always missing you every moment. how i hope that you are constantly missing me too. how i hope that both of our hearts are always together wherever we are. how i hope that i can hold your hands and hug you. but i am never sure if what i think that you are thinking of is exactly what is really in your thoughts... i still miss you all the same.

SLC + aftermath [mid-yr + PW]

Went back to JSS to help out in SLC. It's also a form of reunion for the 23d SC, as well as for the previous SCs.
Proud of the coming 25th SC who have made it thus far. The great sense of satisfaction and fulfilment as a Secondary One Coordinator is simply so overwhelming that they cannot be described in words. I'm sure that's one of the reasons why many of the sec3s want to be Sec One Coordinators. From a batch of newly inducted junior councillors to now, a batch of capable, confident and inspiring leaders. I can see the differences in them. They have grown to become better leaders. They have thought of many innovative ideas which they want to implement for the benefits of the school. All the best for the 25th Student Council in your office term!

Went back home at around 10.15am on the 3rd day of SLC. And I slept till around 6.30pm?! I was zonked out. And if I don't sleep for that long hours, my eyes will feel extremely painful and start to tear which was what happened in the last year's SLC.

After I woke up, I started to worry for my PW and mid-year exams. I hate the feeling.=/
25/6: Math 2pm - 5pm
26/6: Chemistry 2pm - 5pm
28/6: Biology 8am - 9.30am
29/6: Chinese Language & Literature P1 8am -11am
and Chinese Language & Literature P2 2.30pm - 5.30 pm

wish me lotza good luck!

LEP camp

Came back from 4D3N LEP camp at NTU. Slept for a total of about 13 hours for the 3 nights cos we're chatting and gossiping and laming with one another in people's rooms till 3.30am. I didn't pay much attention to the lectures. haha.. I was closing my eyes and waiting for the lectures to end. The only time when I was fully awake was when the speakers said "thank you" which meant that the lecture had ended. lolx....

During the talent time, I acted a pregnant lady. =.=" At first, I didn't know that what I was going to act was the main lead in the skit. And when I found out later, it was too late.. lol... But luckily still get a "you sheng jiang" though did not manage to get the top 3 prizes. But what's important is not the outcome but the process. The 2 hours spent in rehearsing in the lounge was indeed memorable cos students from 4 different JCs (HCI, JJC, TJC & NYJC) worked together towards a common goal. All of us worked hard together. Missed the time Group 8 spent together.. =] The 8th Wonder! 世界第八大奇观！

When camp was over, I reached home at about 3.30pm. After packing everything, I quickly lie down and sleep as I was really sleepy. And I slept till 10pm! -.-" Why didn't my family members wake me up?? -.-" lolx.

Went to Esplanade library to do research on visual effects used in films yesterday. But unfortunately, little useful things were found. National Library is a better place. But at least some relevant stuffs were found which greatly help in our PW.

After the PW, then go out with yanhong, yanli and sokteng to source and buy yukai's birthday presents. As we dunno what to buy for him, in the end, we just buy whatever it seems nice with the 'sui bian la' attitude. LOL... And it was 11.15pm when i reached home....

Left 2 CLL assignments to be done:
1) Ming yun de ji xian and
2) 1000-word Chinese essay =.=

Needa finish these 2 before I can concentrate on my 4 content subjects for the coming Mid-year exams. 1st paper is Maths and I still dunno simple topics like AP/GP and Summation. sigh.. At least I've finally understood how to do mathematical induction. My consequences for never study H2 math during the 1st 3 months.... Gonna put in my best to understand them asap...
Biology paper is one day after CLL papers. Both papers require large amounts of brain cells and not much time left to study. shitty... =\

god bless me~

survival of the smartest

Since the beginning of life, 'Survivial of the fittest' applies to all living organisms.

However, for students nowadays, at least this is how I feel, it is 'survival of the smartest'.

I know that I may be kicked out of this tough competition very soon if I'm still not smart enough.
Hmmm...let's see how it goes~~~

random

Lazy to blog nowadays... quite alot of things happen in the past week....

Went to St. James Power Station! hahax.. All of us wear clubbing attire.. So COOL lah! =p Our principal invited 2 ppl from People Association to answer any of our queries we have. so lame.. Of course, no one is really listening and we are quite noisy when the guests were answering the queries, till the principal had to personally go and ask us to keep quiet. lolx.. but it was not any better...After the talk, it's dancing time! I never dance but the most of the ppl dance for 1h +++. The music was extremely loud. Dry ice was released and it made the place misty. Nevertheless, it was indeed COOL! Anyway, girls who are 18 or above can go clubbing while for guys, it is only when we are 23 or above. =.= The reason given from the guest is: Normally, guys at 18 are not as mature as girls. =.="" After the last song, it then become silent. and our ears couldn't hear properly for a while. whatever we hear became not as loud as it used to be. even though we tried to talk loudly, we could only hear small volume.. but it went back to normal soon. It was an enjoyable experience for us. =]

Had one whole week of lectures during the 1st week of the holiday. And it just means more assignment for me to do for Chinese Language and Literature. =\ I owed many CLL assignment and must finish them within this holiday or the school will take action against us... sigh.. But my printer runs out of ink already. Without notes, how am I going to do. Anyway, I have planned to do all the assignments during the LEP camp which will be from 5th -8th June. Lights out at 10.30 pm and I will be burning midnight oils for the 3 nights. I HAVE TO AND MUST finish all the homework!

i've accepted it already. it seem that
nothing will ever happen between us.

but i really hope that miracle will happen
one day before my heart dies.