Monday, August 25, 2008

BLOG ON TEMPORARY HIATUS

After getting to know that failing exams in JC especially are pretty common after all, I can't help but to feel comforted that I'm not those exceptionally poor ones for flunging tests and exams throughout my JC years. Of course, that doesn't mean you can slack, it just means that you have to work hard to close the gap between your acqured knowledge and the expectations of the teachers.

If asked to do a summary of my results (both tests and exams) for whole of these 2 years, it is not really a difficult task since I can only be bothered with just a few alpahabets (the grades). LOL.
The first thing I would do, or rather I have to do, is to eliminate the first alphabet from the 26 letters. Then, for the second alphabet, it takes no sweat at all for me to tell you the frequency: once. For the third letter in the sequence of the 26 letters, it is relatively easy too since I just have to add just a few more numbers from that for 'B'. I guess it's about 6 ?? For D & E (they do not stand for Diversity and Evolution, a chapter in Biology - they are the grades, for your information), they are perhaps the mode for my assessments results. Let me emphasize, it is 'perhaps'. For US (not United States nor the word 'us', I just group these 2 grades together since they seem to be rather united and are always competing with each other to be imprinted onto my test papers), this might be a bit tedious for me because I can easily lose count of the numbers when counting.

Anyway, I guess you know what I am driving at - that is, my results have LOTS OF AREAS FOR IMPROVEMENTS.
If they were to be plotted on a graph, you will see a strictly monotonic increasing curve starting from the origin. And yes, you will be able to obtain an inverse function. (sorry, a bit of Math here) And the rate of change increases with increasing x. And be sure to leave enough space for the 1st quadrant, or rather the space for plotting y-values, too.

Okay, I shall not disregard your wish, so I am going to stop crapping.

Just watched the Beijing Olympics Closing Ceremony. I must say that the Olympics, on the whole, had been very successful, perhaps exceeding the expectations of many when they initially thought that China couldn't have been able to host a smooth and satisfactory Olympics. Beijing Olympics 2008 just wowed me, especially the Opening Ceremony. Both the Opening and Closing ceremonies were just marvellous, thanks to Zhang Yi-mou. London has admitted that they are feeling the pressure and commented that the high standard put up by China is indeed hard to emulate. I wonder if Singapore is feeling the pressure too for hosting the very first Youth Olympics Games in 2010. Will we wow the world then?

Below are some burning Bio questions I have. Some people to enlighten me please if you know the answers, either personally or through tagboard? Thanks in advance.
  1. Since prokaryotes have no mitochondria, how do they obtain energy? Or do they have other mechanisms which we did not learn?
  2. I know that Nucleic Acid Hybridisation is carried out after Gel Electrophoresis. But what's the purpose of Nucleic Acid Hybridisation? I just couldn't recall, suddenly.
  3. Why is it that [cAMP] is inversely proportional to [glucose]? WHY?
  4. What is the role and function of CAP, as discussed with regarding to lac operon?
  5. Is embryonic stem cells equivalent to blastocyst? Does the ovum need to be fertilised before it develops into a blastocyst? I think, for the latter, it is 'no'. But why and how that an ovum could actually develop into a blastocyst?

I guess I just need some good Bio notes.

4 more days to GP Prelim.
And guess what, Chemistry department had actually set the Chem prelim paper pitched against RJ standard. Luckily, the college has decided to reduce the difficulties to VJ/TJ/NJ standard. In any case, it would be more difficult than Mid-year. Good luck to me.
And I seriously need to improve my Math by alot.
I shall abandon my blog from this moment onwards.

Disappointed with myself with my interpersonal skills. I'm just not good at it. Maybe I could truly communicate effectively only when in touch with the soul and spirit. How intangible. I guess very few people, or even none, could ever understand.

像一股清风一样来了,又悄无声息地荡去;而那至深的情丝,竟在招手之间,幻成了“西天的云彩”。那三个“轻轻的”,不忍惊动,不愿惊动。看似安静,实则沉重。
表现出的飘逸洒脱,实际上是难忍的万千离愁。来的喜悦,走的忧伤,如那一缕清风,淡淡的盘桓在似有若无中。

心潮起伏,思绪难平“波光里的艳影,在我的心头荡漾”,恍若回到了从前。
今梦虽破,而那彩虹般斑斓的碎片依旧那么绚丽多姿。梦沉淀在康河里,心也沉淀在康河里。

眼前那一谭青绿的泉水,幻成了“天上虹”,而在这“榆荫下的一谭”中,那星辉的斑斓,不正是被揉碎的彩虹般的梦么?
还能如过去一样“撑一支长篙”漫溯于康河之上,“满载一船星辉,在星辉斑斓里放歌”吗?

将这些都寄托给萧声,深沉舒缓的笙箫“如怨如慕,如泣如诉”。
我梦且未碎,心仍如昨,但站在这梦的胚芽潜滋暗长的康河,怎能不感慨良多“便纵有千种风情,更与何人说”。

就让那份美好,永远积淀在康河,永远尘封在记忆的画册。不要去惊扰,更无需去打破。

内心的苦涩、怅惘和某种难以言说的苦衷与悲哀。
“悄悄的走”如同“悄悄的来”,纵有千般不舍,更多的却是万般无奈。
寂然凝虑,满含着无限的眷恋与期待,心里不舍但故作潇洒,“挥一挥衣袖,不带走一片云彩”,留下那情真意切的依依深情。

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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

fear

I was relieved when I was promoted to JC2 upon receiving Promotional Exam result slip.
I did horrendously for JC2 Block Test but was fortunate that I was not demoted to JC1.
I unexpectedly improved from Block Test results in the Mid-Year Exam, partly due to the greater area for improvement since my reults for BT were damn bad.

It was certainly not easy for me to meet the expectations of the college for exams.
A tough journey for me, it is.

Just as I thought that I shall endure till the end of A level, the principal announced during morning assembly that "the college reserves the right to make you do a U-turn if you underperform for prelims".

My jaws dropped.

I've made it thus far.
Yet there's no guarantee that I can take my A level at the end of the year.

fear~
x_x

Saturday, August 16, 2008

school

Time trials, time trials and time trials.
School life basically revolves around time trials after mid-year exam.
Really have to thanks such arrangement, or I won't know how the tireness and pain of my hand would feel like.
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Just endured a gruelling 6 hours of tests just now.
Cool. It's been quite some time since I went through 6 hours of tests in a day.
Sort of gotten used to it. =]
Firstly, there was a 3-hour Math Mock Paper 1 from 8am - 11am.
Followed by 3-hour of CLL P2 revision test from 1pm - 4pm.
It just feels so great after knowing that I've yet again endured through the mentally-draining tests.
Physically, there shouldn't by a big problem when doing a test. It's the mental strength that is the main factor whether or not you can carry on doing the paper.
IQ is not the only factor, EQ plays a rather major role too.
For me, given that IQ is not that high, needless to talk about EQ. =/
t_t
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Chem tutor has announced that Chemistry Prelim Exam will be difficult.
In fact, it'll be twice as hard.
*speechless*
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GP in-class compre next Mon.
CLL Paper 1 Part 2 test. 5.15pm - 6.45pm. =)
CLL Paper 1 Part 1 test. 5.15pm - 6.30pm. =)
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Looking forward to the end of next week.
Then it will be the official end of Term 3!
Week 10 will be study break.
Supposedly, there will be 2 weeks left before the commencement of Prelim.
BUT, GP Prelim on Thursday. *pray* GP is damn important!
Then, the next day, Fri, there is 3-hour Math Mock Paper 2 right after Teachers' Day. =)
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Some rumours here and there recently.
Sigh...
They're rather annoying.
Since I termed it as 'rumour', so stop being rumour-mongers and spreading untrue stuffs.
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I AM SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE RELEASE OF S.H.E. ALBUM!
=p

Monday, August 11, 2008

unclassifiable

Prelims is just round the corner.
Sad to day, I'm not fully prepared yet. Everything's so unlike O level.
I shall embrace the challenges that A level pose upon me.

Anyway, I suddenly realise one thing recently. I sort of know what I truly want to do - that is to dance. Yes, dance.
If not for the opportunities to dance in sec sch to perform, whether during student council camps, sec 1 orientation or teachers' day, I wouldn't know how greatly dance really interests me.
Not that I can't dance well anyway, I even think that I have the potential to become a, well, good dancer. If I had known such interest of mine earlier, like in P6, I would have joined Dance as my CCA. On the other hand, I was glad that I didn't join after knowing that all the members of Modern Dance are girls only, even though no gender restriction is imposed for the CCA. Oh well, I'm a little fickle-minded. =\

So after I realised that I like to dance, I wanted to join Dance in JC. Unfortunately, I didn't. Firstly, I couldn't find the teacher-in-charge because I didn't know what is the name of the teacher, nor how he/she looks like. Secondly, there was this innate fear of being mocked at if my movements were not as proficient as others who might have more experiences in Dance. Thirdly, the deadline to join a CCA was nearing then, and so I just went to join CCAs that I could find those teacher-in-charge, lest I ended with no CCA, and hence had nothing to write for SGC.

Why interest for dance? I pondered myself over this question. Hmmmm....perhaps I enjoy the moments on the stage where I dance. Perhaps I enjoy dancing with others and together, to bring a wonderful performance to the audience. Perhaps I like to be involved and be part of a dance specially choreographed. And perhaps, since I'm not a good conversationalist, which is why I'm so gonna screw up my interviews, I could only express myself through body movements. (I used could as I don't want to be so certain that I acknowlege it as a fact. =\)

I always admire those dancers, especially those who got the chance to dance with a star/singers, who can do what they like to do. They don't just get to earn, they are also doing what they are happy about.

If only there is a industry that involves dance ... ... ... (Ok, I think I am dreaming ...)
Reality kills dreams.
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Attended LEP Farewell last Friday after National Day celebration. Received lots of encouragement by the Principal, VP and teachers. My heartfelt gratitude to them!
A quote by Subject Coordinator Mr Pang,


学会的东西很忙
学会的东西很多

(里头蕴藏着双层意义)

We were served a very delicious Nasi Lemak meal after the farewell party. It was actually one of the main reasons that I attended - FOOD, which helped to settle my lunch. =D