SO I took Chem P3 and Bio P2 today. Shan't do any postulations on my results since the level of disappointment will be proportional to the level of expectations.
I suddenly realised a trend in the duration of my exam time-table. 3 hours of Math P1 on Mon, total of 4 hours of Chem p3 & Bio P2, and a total of 5 hours of CLL P1 and Math P2 coming Friday. After this week, I would have taken 12 hours of exam, equivelant to half a day. And that's not it, there's still next week.
Oh man, I think I am suffering from some sort of "exam-anxiety" syndrome. Even though I made myself to lie on my bed at 11pm, I am somehow unable to travel to my dreamland for hours, and by the time I finally slept, I think the clock is showing 1am or perhaps 2am. Consequently, I only had 3 - 4 hours of sleep instead of 6. [V_V]
Had been watching SHE videos on Crunchyroll. So funny! Oh well, need to take a break after intensive studying and shall continue tomorrow to memorise Chinese and also to practise Math.
Functions, Maclaurin's Series, Area and Volume by Integration and perhaps some Vectors might come out for P2. And I seriously need some logical thinking or I can't do P&C and Probability!
Oh ya, I love my mum!
LOLz....
I'm quite random, at times.
Enough of blogging, I shall go and watch more SHE videos =]
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Saturday, June 21, 2008
mid-year exam
MID-YEAR EXAM!
SHIT! I am so scared now.
3-hour MATH P1 on Monday.
Hope that it is really a 3-hour paper for me, and not 1-hour or any less (that is, there are many questions which I dunno how to go about solving them). *Touchwood!
Chem P3 & Bio P2 on Wednesday.
CHEMISTRY - my greatest source of phobia.
If only my tutor could believe in me that I can eventually make it for A level for this subject, then perhaps I can relax myslf a bit and not getting myself too stressed up. If only no one is bugging me to drop any subjects no matter what my mid-year results would be... and have faith in me...
Perhaps some people out there thought that I am obstinate and perhaps, shameless. But I have no time, nor do I want, to care about their perception for me. I'll just have to carry on with my life as usual, along with faith.
Chem tutor has said before that the mid-year exam serves to 'kill' us. Oh man... Nothing being said now will aid in better my grades. I just have to perform my best abilities during exam. I want to pass, and, if possible, get better grades.
BIOLOGY - the subject which I have always been passionate about, and was my most confident subject in sec sch and O level. I want to reverse my JC Bio exam results trend. Oh man... =\
CLL P1 and MATH P2 on Friday.
For this June holiday, I TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY did not even read my CHINESE LANG & LIT stuff at all! Well, I wanted to devote my time to other subjects actually.
MATH P2 - Hopefully can score for Statistics, provided that the questions are not asked in such a way that I don't know what it wants.
Alright, I know I should be studying instead!
SHIT! I am so scared now.
3-hour MATH P1 on Monday.
Hope that it is really a 3-hour paper for me, and not 1-hour or any less (that is, there are many questions which I dunno how to go about solving them). *Touchwood!
Chem P3 & Bio P2 on Wednesday.
CHEMISTRY - my greatest source of phobia.
If only my tutor could believe in me that I can eventually make it for A level for this subject, then perhaps I can relax myslf a bit and not getting myself too stressed up. If only no one is bugging me to drop any subjects no matter what my mid-year results would be... and have faith in me...
Perhaps some people out there thought that I am obstinate and perhaps, shameless. But I have no time, nor do I want, to care about their perception for me. I'll just have to carry on with my life as usual, along with faith.
Chem tutor has said before that the mid-year exam serves to 'kill' us. Oh man... Nothing being said now will aid in better my grades. I just have to perform my best abilities during exam. I want to pass, and, if possible, get better grades.
BIOLOGY - the subject which I have always been passionate about, and was my most confident subject in sec sch and O level. I want to reverse my JC Bio exam results trend. Oh man... =\
CLL P1 and MATH P2 on Friday.
For this June holiday, I TOTALLY and ABSOLUTELY did not even read my CHINESE LANG & LIT stuff at all! Well, I wanted to devote my time to other subjects actually.
MATH P2 - Hopefully can score for Statistics, provided that the questions are not asked in such a way that I don't know what it wants.
Alright, I know I should be studying instead!
Saturday, June 14, 2008
25th SLC
Just came back from the SLC organised by the 25th SC - their last event working together, as is with any other batch of SC from JSS. Expectedly, sense of nostalgia was stirred up while watching the campers being punished together and yet not forgetting to encourage one another to 'endure!'.
Many seniors from 16th, 18th, 19th, 20th, 22nd, 23rd and 24th SC came back to help out in this camp, though some of them only wish to participate in one special event organised during SLC. But for me, the objective is not for the special event, but rather for the sense of togetherness being in the big family of Student Council, as well as to be a part in the mission of grooming leaders. One can easily notice that in every batch, there are always a few who are very 'on' one who will definitely come back without fail to help out, perhaps this is due to the level of commitment.
Just 4 hours ago, yet another batch of leaders have successfully endured through the test. Congrats to the upcoming 26th SC. At the same time, it just means that I am getting older, just like other seniors who whine about their age difference compared to the campers. Time flies.
Enjoyed myself during my stay in the SLC. Had lots of laughters! Lolz...
Alright, the purpose of blogging right now despite not having my sleep for 29 hours is so that my hair will dry because I just showered. Since my hair is almost dry, and I am almost zonked out, I shall stop and head for bed... ...
Many seniors from 16th, 18th, 19th, 20th, 22nd, 23rd and 24th SC came back to help out in this camp, though some of them only wish to participate in one special event organised during SLC. But for me, the objective is not for the special event, but rather for the sense of togetherness being in the big family of Student Council, as well as to be a part in the mission of grooming leaders. One can easily notice that in every batch, there are always a few who are very 'on' one who will definitely come back without fail to help out, perhaps this is due to the level of commitment.
Just 4 hours ago, yet another batch of leaders have successfully endured through the test. Congrats to the upcoming 26th SC. At the same time, it just means that I am getting older, just like other seniors who whine about their age difference compared to the campers. Time flies.
Enjoyed myself during my stay in the SLC. Had lots of laughters! Lolz...
Allan Er Jun Yao
Alright, the purpose of blogging right now despite not having my sleep for 29 hours is so that my hair will dry because I just showered. Since my hair is almost dry, and I am almost zonked out, I shall stop and head for bed... ...
Thursday, June 12, 2008
some deep-seated thoughts
Just wanna pen down some of the many deep-seated thoughts that are in my mind these past few days / months / years... (i think i lost count of the period of time already -.-)
When somebody has lost something that is deemed invaluable, it is only 'normal', 'natural' and 'correct' that he/she desires very much for it to be returned back to him/her. Being the descendants of Neanderthals, if you believe in evolution theory that is, it is only natural and logical that you couldn't forget that invaluable 'thing' so easily simply because Homo sapiens do have feelings. When people advised you to 'Forget about it. There's more to life to look forward to', besides being grateful that you have such supportive friends around you, in reality it is actually not easy, or I should just say very difficult, to just 'forget about it'. I think this stems from the fact that humans are not cold-blooded animals, all of us have the ability to feel emotions. Hence unless you belong to the group of total cruel, naive, benumbed or apathetic etc, you wouldn't agree or believe that you could forget something that easily and simply.
The point I'm driving at is that something that have had been able to become one of the most memorable events in your life are hard to completely forget, especially if they are the very first time you got to experience and learn to appreciate the beauty of it. I believe that the first-times are events that will be etched in one's mind the most deeply, perhaps because it is the first time that a particular part of the brain got triggered by the emotions stirred. Since these first-time experiences are so unforgettable, just like indelible marks which have been impressed in one's memory, it is inevitable that one will relate similar experiences he/she meets again with the first-time experience. Very often, one wouldn't want to accept these new similar experiences unless the emotions stimulated are so much 'better' / 'superior' than the first-time experience, so much so that makes them feel that they are fortunate to miss their first-time. Only then would one want to risk to forget their first-time and allow the new experience to gradually occupy their lives fully. Still, some fragments of the first-time memory remain etched in their minds.
Before I met you, I never ever imagine myself how good it would be if I were to be in some relationship. Though I saw lovey-dovey couples before, I never take the trouble to seriously contemplate what exactly is so nice about it. How could somebody suddenly like to be with another person so much when both of them were still strangers beforehand. The process is too complicated for me to illustrate then.
Suddenly, you approached me and talked to me after a lesson when the class was walking down to canteen for recess. I was shocked, since we rarely or never actually talked before. I vaguely remembered that you said I was 'cute', or 'handsome' (lolx.... (",)) and seemed interested in me. At that point of time, I dunno how to react, and so I exhibit my usual humorous way in responding back to you, and you laughed, and I continued my way to canteen with my friend.
Back in class, you approached to my seat and talked to me again. For fear of you liking me, I treated you coldly, since I had always been skeptical about being involved in any relationship then when I still had no idea what that feeling is exactly. You realised that I was beginning to treat you coldly whenever you talked to me, and to resolve the situation and to salvage the friendship, you then told me that you had never thought what I thought you had in mind. At that moment, I was relieved that history wouldn't be happening again like when I was in P4. I just said, "Okay okay" to you, trying to tell you that I knew you didn't have that thought, though I knew very well I was deceiving, and you looked relieved that you didn't cause an end to a friendship and walked back to your seat.
Since that day, we started to talk to each other more often, and it was so frequent that you became the one I talked most with. Somehow, I began to see the first glimpse of light guiding me to the knowledge of being in a relationship. The process itself is indeed complex, which can be attributed to my initial unconceivableness of this subject matter. Problems arose when the fact that each of us has a network of friends, as is with anybody else, and similar feelings may be stirred upon in different individuals concurrently, and these made the matter even more complex. I found myself somehow lost between human-to-human relationship, and found myself floating in the middle of an ocean knowing no knowledge of the right direction I should be heading to. Confused and lack of courage, I stay put in my life. But the rest had been able to find their way out of this complex issue. I admit that jealousy overwhelmed me then but I managed to suppress it from erupting, like I have always been. Still water runs deep. I think I am one, a thinker who is analytical and think deeply about an issue.
Now, things are not exactly the same. Having tried dipping myself in the river of the Lethe, I think the river has failed its power on me, or perhaps I didn't dip myself fully in the river, the first-time trigger is still there somewhere. I have no idea how this is going to end up. I just hope that each of us follows our heart, and not commit to whatever actions hastily which may lead to regrets later in life or find out that perhaps one has acted against the will of destiny. If these were to ever happen, I guess one will feel an extremely unbearable angst.
Having been evolved to an organism with a complex mind, a person may change, in terms of character, mindset or perception, perhaps due to exposure to new events and thus, new experiences. Such thing may happen - that is a person changes, but I doubt the extent is very great. Some things just are unable to be forgotten that effortlessly and decidedly.
I know I have written many. But you know what, this is just a tip of an iceberg. There are many more issues I have thought about. I think that I think alot. lolx...
Maybe I'm more of a writer than being vocal in expressing and conveying my thoughts.
Nonetheless, if anyone of you wanna get to know about me, you may still talk to me. Rest assured that I will try my best in translating my thoughts into the correct words so that you can know what's exactly in my thinking mind. But there's no guarantee that I will be able to succeed though. Sometimes, you may find that I am at a loss of words when you hear me stutter - having difficulty at expressing. Then, for fear of wasting your time waiting for me to say something out, or that your attention span for me is lost, I will just quickly say whatever that comes to my mind in trying to say the exact thoughts I have, which is often not exactly what I wanna say. In such cases, do prompt me with whatever you think that I am trying to say, then I may be able to find the correct words from you, and together with my own words, and tell you the exact things in my mind. Well, if you want, perhaps you can provide a pen and a paper for me to write down instead. hahax...
Of course, I won't just tell any Tom, Dick or Harry about my thoughts. The person would be someone who I could trust, which is the most fundamental, and/or with any other criteria which are left to me to decide and judge, before I would want to share with you my thoughts. So when you see me unwilling to tell you anything personal which you may ask, then there's no point harping on the questions you want to ask.
Seriously, I need to learn the ability to talk out my thoughts. Right now, I am at a big disadvantage in many situations which require talking, and in the future, I am going to screw up my interviews.
Oh well~
When somebody has lost something that is deemed invaluable, it is only 'normal', 'natural' and 'correct' that he/she desires very much for it to be returned back to him/her. Being the descendants of Neanderthals, if you believe in evolution theory that is, it is only natural and logical that you couldn't forget that invaluable 'thing' so easily simply because Homo sapiens do have feelings. When people advised you to 'Forget about it. There's more to life to look forward to', besides being grateful that you have such supportive friends around you, in reality it is actually not easy, or I should just say very difficult, to just 'forget about it'. I think this stems from the fact that humans are not cold-blooded animals, all of us have the ability to feel emotions. Hence unless you belong to the group of total cruel, naive, benumbed or apathetic etc, you wouldn't agree or believe that you could forget something that easily and simply.
The point I'm driving at is that something that have had been able to become one of the most memorable events in your life are hard to completely forget, especially if they are the very first time you got to experience and learn to appreciate the beauty of it. I believe that the first-times are events that will be etched in one's mind the most deeply, perhaps because it is the first time that a particular part of the brain got triggered by the emotions stirred. Since these first-time experiences are so unforgettable, just like indelible marks which have been impressed in one's memory, it is inevitable that one will relate similar experiences he/she meets again with the first-time experience. Very often, one wouldn't want to accept these new similar experiences unless the emotions stimulated are so much 'better' / 'superior' than the first-time experience, so much so that makes them feel that they are fortunate to miss their first-time. Only then would one want to risk to forget their first-time and allow the new experience to gradually occupy their lives fully. Still, some fragments of the first-time memory remain etched in their minds.
Before I met you, I never ever imagine myself how good it would be if I were to be in some relationship. Though I saw lovey-dovey couples before, I never take the trouble to seriously contemplate what exactly is so nice about it. How could somebody suddenly like to be with another person so much when both of them were still strangers beforehand. The process is too complicated for me to illustrate then.
Suddenly, you approached me and talked to me after a lesson when the class was walking down to canteen for recess. I was shocked, since we rarely or never actually talked before. I vaguely remembered that you said I was 'cute', or 'handsome' (lolx.... (",)) and seemed interested in me. At that point of time, I dunno how to react, and so I exhibit my usual humorous way in responding back to you, and you laughed, and I continued my way to canteen with my friend.
Back in class, you approached to my seat and talked to me again. For fear of you liking me, I treated you coldly, since I had always been skeptical about being involved in any relationship then when I still had no idea what that feeling is exactly. You realised that I was beginning to treat you coldly whenever you talked to me, and to resolve the situation and to salvage the friendship, you then told me that you had never thought what I thought you had in mind. At that moment, I was relieved that history wouldn't be happening again like when I was in P4. I just said, "Okay okay" to you, trying to tell you that I knew you didn't have that thought, though I knew very well I was deceiving, and you looked relieved that you didn't cause an end to a friendship and walked back to your seat.
Since that day, we started to talk to each other more often, and it was so frequent that you became the one I talked most with. Somehow, I began to see the first glimpse of light guiding me to the knowledge of being in a relationship. The process itself is indeed complex, which can be attributed to my initial unconceivableness of this subject matter. Problems arose when the fact that each of us has a network of friends, as is with anybody else, and similar feelings may be stirred upon in different individuals concurrently, and these made the matter even more complex. I found myself somehow lost between human-to-human relationship, and found myself floating in the middle of an ocean knowing no knowledge of the right direction I should be heading to. Confused and lack of courage, I stay put in my life. But the rest had been able to find their way out of this complex issue. I admit that jealousy overwhelmed me then but I managed to suppress it from erupting, like I have always been. Still water runs deep. I think I am one, a thinker who is analytical and think deeply about an issue.
Now, things are not exactly the same. Having tried dipping myself in the river of the Lethe, I think the river has failed its power on me, or perhaps I didn't dip myself fully in the river, the first-time trigger is still there somewhere. I have no idea how this is going to end up. I just hope that each of us follows our heart, and not commit to whatever actions hastily which may lead to regrets later in life or find out that perhaps one has acted against the will of destiny. If these were to ever happen, I guess one will feel an extremely unbearable angst.
Having been evolved to an organism with a complex mind, a person may change, in terms of character, mindset or perception, perhaps due to exposure to new events and thus, new experiences. Such thing may happen - that is a person changes, but I doubt the extent is very great. Some things just are unable to be forgotten that effortlessly and decidedly.
I know I have written many. But you know what, this is just a tip of an iceberg. There are many more issues I have thought about. I think that I think alot. lolx...
Maybe I'm more of a writer than being vocal in expressing and conveying my thoughts.
Nonetheless, if anyone of you wanna get to know about me, you may still talk to me. Rest assured that I will try my best in translating my thoughts into the correct words so that you can know what's exactly in my thinking mind. But there's no guarantee that I will be able to succeed though. Sometimes, you may find that I am at a loss of words when you hear me stutter - having difficulty at expressing. Then, for fear of wasting your time waiting for me to say something out, or that your attention span for me is lost, I will just quickly say whatever that comes to my mind in trying to say the exact thoughts I have, which is often not exactly what I wanna say. In such cases, do prompt me with whatever you think that I am trying to say, then I may be able to find the correct words from you, and together with my own words, and tell you the exact things in my mind. Well, if you want, perhaps you can provide a pen and a paper for me to write down instead. hahax...
Of course, I won't just tell any Tom, Dick or Harry about my thoughts. The person would be someone who I could trust, which is the most fundamental, and/or with any other criteria which are left to me to decide and judge, before I would want to share with you my thoughts. So when you see me unwilling to tell you anything personal which you may ask, then there's no point harping on the questions you want to ask.
Seriously, I need to learn the ability to talk out my thoughts. Right now, I am at a big disadvantage in many situations which require talking, and in the future, I am going to screw up my interviews.
Oh well~
Saturday, May 31, 2008
june hols
Watched "Windstruck" yesterday night on Channel U from 11.30pm to 2 am! I woke up only at 1.25pm today~~ oh well...
Sure feel guilty for sleeping so long and wasted my time to study. But this is the first time this year that I watched a movie till so late and slept for so long! So i shan't feel so bad about myself.
Windstruck is somewhat similar to "My Sassy Girl". But Winstruck is a SAD ROMANTIC story. Oh my, I nearly cried while watching it cuz it's really sad!
The girl is a policewoman who is determined to get rid of the criminals while the guy is a Physics teacher. One day, the guy was chasing a robber but he was misunderstood by the policewoman as the robber instead. So this is how they met.
The guy later went to volunteer as a police patrol and was teamed up with the same policewoman he met earlier. On their course of patrolling, they witnessed a case of illegal trading of drug and the policewoman wanted to catch them by following a guy involved. But the timid Physics teacher wouldn't want to follow, so he attempted to run away but the policewoman handcuffed him together with her, and both of them followed the guy.
After successfully catching the criminals, the policewoman found out that she had lost the key to unlock the handcuff, thus they spent a night sleeping together while being handcuffed with each other. Thereafter, their love for each other grows and they become involved in a relationship.
After some episodes of life, in a dark alley, the policewoman accidentally shot her boyfriend in the heart in an attempt to shoot another criminal she aimed for. The boyfriend actually wanted to help his girlfriend to catch the highly dangerous criminal, which his girlfriend never knew of. His boyfriend eventually died. The girl wanted so much to die with her boyfriend that she committed suicide but was eventually rescued.
The girl belived firmly that after 7 x 7 = 49 days, the spirit of his boyfriend would come and look for her, as it was depicted in a legend that in 49 days after a person died, the ghost spirit of the deceased will come and look for his loved ones before the spirit leave the mortal world forever.
And on the 49th day, the spirit of her boyfriend indeed come to look for her. The girl was really delighted to be able to finally get to see her boyfriend again. Tears rolled down the cheeks of both parties. After a short conversation, the house becomes brighter suddenly, signalling the boyfriend to leave.
The girl wanted so much to leave with him. But the guy said to her that she still haa a long way to go in life and let him leave with her love she had for him instead.
[Oh man, the scene was so touching.... I wouldn't want to carry on with my life if I can ever follow the person to wherever we will be going, anywhere but remaining in the mortal world, forever.]
Left with no choice, they bade goodbyes with each other.
The story ended with the policewoman met with another guy at a train station. She vividly heard the voice of his dead boyfriend, in the wind, telling her that he will come back to her somehow and belived that she can sense his existence. The guy she met at the train station was clearly the one whom she felt the existence of his boyfriend. The girl, with tears rolling in her eyes, smiled at the guy, knowing deeply in her heart that his boyfriend was near her; while for the guy, he looked puzzled but somehow felt that the girl is special in a certain way...
Perhaps her dead boyfriend left her with hopes somehowwhile she continues living her life.
And the story ended~~
Not bad a movie. Anyway, the point is it is really touching. haha...
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Anyway, 1st week of holiday is coming to an end very soon. Just when I am pondering why I have only managed to finish revising only Chemistry, I found out that I have to study for Bio and Chem SPAs until Wed. So I am actually only free to study what I want only from yesterday. No wonder I thought that I am so not productive. -.-
But that also means that I need to study intensively so as to be able finish my revision for all subjects and am prepared for mid-year exams!
Good luck~~~~
I shall force myself, no matter how, to memorise all the Inorganic Chem reaction equations, to fully understand Vectors and Recurrence Relations, to selectively memorise (not going to memorise poems that have come up last year A level) Chinese Language and Lit stuffs! As for Bio, I will just have to reinforce all those I have understood and polish my answering techniques with details.
Holidays = Days to study except for the need to go to school. (by Ms Amy Phua)
But this will not be applicable to the December holidays this year! I am so looking foward to its arrival~
Sure feel guilty for sleeping so long and wasted my time to study. But this is the first time this year that I watched a movie till so late and slept for so long! So i shan't feel so bad about myself.
Windstruck is somewhat similar to "My Sassy Girl". But Winstruck is a SAD ROMANTIC story. Oh my, I nearly cried while watching it cuz it's really sad!
The girl is a policewoman who is determined to get rid of the criminals while the guy is a Physics teacher. One day, the guy was chasing a robber but he was misunderstood by the policewoman as the robber instead. So this is how they met.
The guy later went to volunteer as a police patrol and was teamed up with the same policewoman he met earlier. On their course of patrolling, they witnessed a case of illegal trading of drug and the policewoman wanted to catch them by following a guy involved. But the timid Physics teacher wouldn't want to follow, so he attempted to run away but the policewoman handcuffed him together with her, and both of them followed the guy.
After successfully catching the criminals, the policewoman found out that she had lost the key to unlock the handcuff, thus they spent a night sleeping together while being handcuffed with each other. Thereafter, their love for each other grows and they become involved in a relationship.
After some episodes of life, in a dark alley, the policewoman accidentally shot her boyfriend in the heart in an attempt to shoot another criminal she aimed for. The boyfriend actually wanted to help his girlfriend to catch the highly dangerous criminal, which his girlfriend never knew of. His boyfriend eventually died. The girl wanted so much to die with her boyfriend that she committed suicide but was eventually rescued.
The girl belived firmly that after 7 x 7 = 49 days, the spirit of his boyfriend would come and look for her, as it was depicted in a legend that in 49 days after a person died, the ghost spirit of the deceased will come and look for his loved ones before the spirit leave the mortal world forever.
And on the 49th day, the spirit of her boyfriend indeed come to look for her. The girl was really delighted to be able to finally get to see her boyfriend again. Tears rolled down the cheeks of both parties. After a short conversation, the house becomes brighter suddenly, signalling the boyfriend to leave.
The girl wanted so much to leave with him. But the guy said to her that she still haa a long way to go in life and let him leave with her love she had for him instead.
[Oh man, the scene was so touching.... I wouldn't want to carry on with my life if I can ever follow the person to wherever we will be going, anywhere but remaining in the mortal world, forever.]
Left with no choice, they bade goodbyes with each other.
The story ended with the policewoman met with another guy at a train station. She vividly heard the voice of his dead boyfriend, in the wind, telling her that he will come back to her somehow and belived that she can sense his existence. The guy she met at the train station was clearly the one whom she felt the existence of his boyfriend. The girl, with tears rolling in her eyes, smiled at the guy, knowing deeply in her heart that his boyfriend was near her; while for the guy, he looked puzzled but somehow felt that the girl is special in a certain way...
Perhaps her dead boyfriend left her with hopes somehowwhile she continues living her life.
And the story ended~~
Not bad a movie. Anyway, the point is it is really touching. haha...
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Anyway, 1st week of holiday is coming to an end very soon. Just when I am pondering why I have only managed to finish revising only Chemistry, I found out that I have to study for Bio and Chem SPAs until Wed. So I am actually only free to study what I want only from yesterday. No wonder I thought that I am so not productive. -.-
But that also means that I need to study intensively so as to be able finish my revision for all subjects and am prepared for mid-year exams!
Good luck~~~~
I shall force myself, no matter how, to memorise all the Inorganic Chem reaction equations, to fully understand Vectors and Recurrence Relations, to selectively memorise (not going to memorise poems that have come up last year A level) Chinese Language and Lit stuffs! As for Bio, I will just have to reinforce all those I have understood and polish my answering techniques with details.
Holidays = Days to study except for the need to go to school. (by Ms Amy Phua)
But this will not be applicable to the December holidays this year! I am so looking foward to its arrival~
Monday, May 19, 2008
past week
MY wisdom tooth remains intact. The dentist just gave me antibiotics and medicine which cured the pain around my neck, as well as 2 small bottles of Listerine which contain fluoride -.-"
Hope nothing worse will happen, at least until the end of this year. *cross finger*
J2s went to watch the A Div Volleyball Boys final at Toa Payoh on Thursday. NYJC beat TJC 3-0 to clinch the championship! I would say it was relatively easy for NYJC to win this time round compared to last year against AJC. It was much more exciting last year.
Unexpectedly, the J2s actually cheered loudly. lolx... I thought the SC would have a hard time to making us cheer but most of us were very enthusiastic. Perhaps some of them have never watched a Volleyball match. "N -! Y -! J - C!" Even the primary school kids followed us and cheered for our college.
This 3-day long weekend, as usual, was not enjoyable for me. Had 3-hour CLL paper 1 on Sat morning. After that, I have to crap testimonial for quan hui out... lolx... And need to MEMORISE Chem SPA Skill A for the mock SPA tomorrow. Bio Mock SPA Skill A will be on coming Thursday.. argh.... I just want to get SKILL A over and done with!
Saddened by the many natural disasters that happened recently. I restrained myself from reading too much on the news for fear that I might become desensitized. Oh well, just like a doctor who may have used to seeing life and deaths in the hospital, I may well become numb to such human disasters which I wouldn't want myself to become to be. Life for the affected people would be very difficult. Let us all show our compassion and love for them, perhaps this is the least which all of us can do.
Hope nothing worse will happen, at least until the end of this year. *cross finger*
J2s went to watch the A Div Volleyball Boys final at Toa Payoh on Thursday. NYJC beat TJC 3-0 to clinch the championship! I would say it was relatively easy for NYJC to win this time round compared to last year against AJC. It was much more exciting last year.
Unexpectedly, the J2s actually cheered loudly. lolx... I thought the SC would have a hard time to making us cheer but most of us were very enthusiastic. Perhaps some of them have never watched a Volleyball match. "N -! Y -! J - C!" Even the primary school kids followed us and cheered for our college.
This 3-day long weekend, as usual, was not enjoyable for me. Had 3-hour CLL paper 1 on Sat morning. After that, I have to crap testimonial for quan hui out... lolx... And need to MEMORISE Chem SPA Skill A for the mock SPA tomorrow. Bio Mock SPA Skill A will be on coming Thursday.. argh.... I just want to get SKILL A over and done with!
Saddened by the many natural disasters that happened recently. I restrained myself from reading too much on the news for fear that I might become desensitized. Oh well, just like a doctor who may have used to seeing life and deaths in the hospital, I may well become numb to such human disasters which I wouldn't want myself to become to be. Life for the affected people would be very difficult. Let us all show our compassion and love for them, perhaps this is the least which all of us can do.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
'Wisdom' indeed -.-
ARGH!
I can't believe that the swollen gum at the back of my lower left molar which I thought was a huge ulcer is actually a Wisdom Tooth!
Damn wisdom tooth! Why must you only erupt now? And I miss school today because I know I won't be able to concentrate anyway! And I would be going to see dentist later to see how's my condition.
Unfamiliar with Wisdom tooth, I went Wikipedia to know more about it.
And I found out:
Wisdom teeth are the third molar and usually appear between the ages of 17 and 25.
Most people have four wisdom teeth, but it is possible to have more or fewer. (Oh man, I hope I belong to the minority!)
Sometimes the wisdom tooth fails to erupt completely through the gum bed and the gum at the back of the wisdom tooth extends over the biting surface, forming a soft tissue flap or lid around the tooth called an operculum. (I think I have this problem! Argh!)
Common symptoms include a swelling and redness of the gum around the eruption site, difficulty in opening the mouth, a bad odor or taste in the mouth, and pain in the general area which may also run down the entire lower jaw or possibly the neck. (Yes! Pain!!)
Evolution may be part of the cause of getting Wisdom tooth:
Wisdom teeth are vestigial third molars. In earlier times, when tooth loss in early adulthood was common, an additional molar had the potential to fill in a gap left by the loss of another tooth. It has also been postulated that the skulls of human ancestors had larger jaws with more teeth, which were possibly used to help chew down foliage to compensate for a lack of ability to efficiently digest the cellulose that makes up a plant cell wall. As human diet changed, a smaller jaw was selected by evolution, yet the third molars, or "wisdom teeth", still commonly develop in human mouths.
Other findings suggest that a given culture's diet is a larger factor than genetics in the development of jaw size during human development (and, consequently, the space available for wisdom teeth).
Different human populations differ greatly in the percentage of the population which form wisdom teeth, ranging from 99.8% in Bantu speakers to nearly 0% in Mexican Indians The difference is related to the PAX9 gene (and perhaps other genes).
(PAX9 gene has found to be associated with a number of organ and other skeletal developments, particularly teeth. It transcribes a protein of 341 amino acids from 4 exons and 1,644bps in humans.)
Sigh...Dunno whether I'll be asked to go for operaton to have the wisdom tooth extracted out or not. If I'm advised to, of course I will. I don't want any future problems. Moreover, it takes a shorter time to heal when you are younger. But the healing process will be a very painful one! Bleeding and oozing are inevitable and will last for at least 3 days. =(
=.= I have thought and worried so much about it when I have not even go and see a dentist.
I have been starving for 2 days already! Because I can't even bite properly as it is really painful!
Including today, it will be 3 days in which I am consuming only a tiny percentage of calories recommended for a 18-year-old. For these 3 days, a bowl of very watery porridge, a bottle of soya bean milk, 1 cup of milk, 1 cup of milo and 2 slices of white bread are what I have consumed in total. And of course drank about only 5 mugs of water which provides 0 calorie.
But weirdly, my stomach didn't give me hungry pangs, or least not those loud ones. It only gives me an 'acidic' feeling of my hydrochloric acid churning air. Guess my body understands my problem well. Much as I want to eat something nice (I want to go try the Fish Zinger!), I am unable to. Hope my body won't mistake me as anorexic though. =.=
Maybe it's a good and rare chance for me to cut down my weight and to become slimer. lolx...
Measured at 55kg when I go weighed myself recently, I wonder how many kilos I will lose after this ordeal.
Perhaps the fortunate thing is that my widsom tooth erupt now rather than during important exam period, though there is GP mid-year exam next Friday and Bio and Chem SPA 2 weeks later. To digress a little, I passed my Chem Organic Test! =] And I passed my NAPFA test!!! I was so relieved!
J2s are invited to go and support the Volleyball boys in the final match this thursday. It's been a long time since I watch a match since last year (only once) and I'm looking forward to this match. But I have to see how my condition is first....=\
Wish myself good luck for the dental visit later ... ... nervous and scared....
I can't believe that the swollen gum at the back of my lower left molar which I thought was a huge ulcer is actually a Wisdom Tooth!
Damn wisdom tooth! Why must you only erupt now? And I miss school today because I know I won't be able to concentrate anyway! And I would be going to see dentist later to see how's my condition.
Unfamiliar with Wisdom tooth, I went Wikipedia to know more about it.
And I found out:
Wisdom teeth are the third molar and usually appear between the ages of 17 and 25.
Most people have four wisdom teeth, but it is possible to have more or fewer. (Oh man, I hope I belong to the minority!)
Sometimes the wisdom tooth fails to erupt completely through the gum bed and the gum at the back of the wisdom tooth extends over the biting surface, forming a soft tissue flap or lid around the tooth called an operculum. (I think I have this problem! Argh!)
Common symptoms include a swelling and redness of the gum around the eruption site, difficulty in opening the mouth, a bad odor or taste in the mouth, and pain in the general area which may also run down the entire lower jaw or possibly the neck. (Yes! Pain!!)
Evolution may be part of the cause of getting Wisdom tooth:
Wisdom teeth are vestigial third molars. In earlier times, when tooth loss in early adulthood was common, an additional molar had the potential to fill in a gap left by the loss of another tooth. It has also been postulated that the skulls of human ancestors had larger jaws with more teeth, which were possibly used to help chew down foliage to compensate for a lack of ability to efficiently digest the cellulose that makes up a plant cell wall. As human diet changed, a smaller jaw was selected by evolution, yet the third molars, or "wisdom teeth", still commonly develop in human mouths.
Other findings suggest that a given culture's diet is a larger factor than genetics in the development of jaw size during human development (and, consequently, the space available for wisdom teeth).
Different human populations differ greatly in the percentage of the population which form wisdom teeth, ranging from 99.8% in Bantu speakers to nearly 0% in Mexican Indians The difference is related to the PAX9 gene (and perhaps other genes).
(PAX9 gene has found to be associated with a number of organ and other skeletal developments, particularly teeth. It transcribes a protein of 341 amino acids from 4 exons and 1,644bps in humans.)
Sigh...Dunno whether I'll be asked to go for operaton to have the wisdom tooth extracted out or not. If I'm advised to, of course I will. I don't want any future problems. Moreover, it takes a shorter time to heal when you are younger. But the healing process will be a very painful one! Bleeding and oozing are inevitable and will last for at least 3 days. =(
=.= I have thought and worried so much about it when I have not even go and see a dentist.
I have been starving for 2 days already! Because I can't even bite properly as it is really painful!
Including today, it will be 3 days in which I am consuming only a tiny percentage of calories recommended for a 18-year-old. For these 3 days, a bowl of very watery porridge, a bottle of soya bean milk, 1 cup of milk, 1 cup of milo and 2 slices of white bread are what I have consumed in total. And of course drank about only 5 mugs of water which provides 0 calorie.
But weirdly, my stomach didn't give me hungry pangs, or least not those loud ones. It only gives me an 'acidic' feeling of my hydrochloric acid churning air. Guess my body understands my problem well. Much as I want to eat something nice (I want to go try the Fish Zinger!), I am unable to. Hope my body won't mistake me as anorexic though. =.=
Maybe it's a good and rare chance for me to cut down my weight and to become slimer. lolx...
Measured at 55kg when I go weighed myself recently, I wonder how many kilos I will lose after this ordeal.
Perhaps the fortunate thing is that my widsom tooth erupt now rather than during important exam period, though there is GP mid-year exam next Friday and Bio and Chem SPA 2 weeks later. To digress a little, I passed my Chem Organic Test! =] And I passed my NAPFA test!!! I was so relieved!
J2s are invited to go and support the Volleyball boys in the final match this thursday. It's been a long time since I watch a match since last year (only once) and I'm looking forward to this match. But I have to see how my condition is first....=\
Wish myself good luck for the dental visit later ... ... nervous and scared....
Friday, May 02, 2008
'labour' day~
SO I slept till 12pm+++ on Mayday (or Labour Day). Hahax..I admit that I slept like a log~~~
Studied for Chemistry Organic test, started only at 2pm and the rest of the day was devoted to only Chem, only for the sake for the test this morning. I could've gotten more marks, like 5 more marks, if my brain was a little bit more clear and me not getting that nervous and impatient. Passing it is my aim=]
My precious Saturdays are gone, at least for 2 more Saturdays =(
NAPFA 6 stations test tmr! I TRULY HOPE that I can PASS my 2.4km rum! My standing broad jump! My sit-and-reach! Hohoho....I'm really not athletic. That means I need more training...But there's no more time left. I don't want to do retest 2 Saturdays later or do it again in July. And most importantly, I'm not letting mysef to train for 2 extra months for BMT!
CLL P2 test 3hour FULL paper next Saturday! Sianx~
As if this is not enough, CLL P1 3 hour FULL paper the Saturday after next!
ARGH! I hate writing in Chinese now than ever! I sympathise with my hands and fingers! And, well, pen ink -.-"
Bio Mock SPA Skill A next monday...Math Statistics Lecture test next tuesday... Bio Diversity & Evolution test next Thursday... GP essay writing next Fri...
=X
Anyway, I pre-empt that the following 2 weeks is a test for my endurance, yet again. 6-day week for 2 consecutive weeks. I shall tell myself this: "It's Mon. Be happy, for Friday is coming =)"
Alright, I have to and must come to my senses now. Felt kinda relieved for knowing it. Of course felt happy for the parties =] Whatever sadness or disappointment or depression, I shall not risk myself beng embittered and trapped by dwelling too much in these emotions, which I am capable of since I am kind of sentimental person (lolx...), and I shall dip myself in the river of Lethe.
GP lessons are the most interesting ones. In contrast, I dreaded for reporting for PE lessons. Therefore, I must pass my NAPFA tmr yea!
GP tutor showed us a movie titles\d ' The Truman Show'. Damn awesome and cool movie. It exaggerated the consequences of the mass media being so rampant that the private life of Truman, since young, has been broadcasted to the public, and this is kept in the dark from Truman because all the people he met in his life are 'actors' and all the events he had participated in are all 'arranged' by the people in-charge of Truman Show.
This movie provokes us to find out for ourselves does the truth really matter. Why do we want to know the truth, if everything now is, or seems, perfectly alright for us? What if the truth is ugly? Why not choose to continue to live how we are living now? Does the truth REALLY matter?
I got a hard time choosing my stand. Apparently, after careful and thoughtful considerations for both sides of the arguments, I have not chosen a concrete stand which I strongly stand by.
I can't wait to step down from CCA which is on next Wed! It's time for the real thing.
*embrace life =)*
Studied for Chemistry Organic test, started only at 2pm and the rest of the day was devoted to only Chem, only for the sake for the test this morning. I could've gotten more marks, like 5 more marks, if my brain was a little bit more clear and me not getting that nervous and impatient. Passing it is my aim=]
My precious Saturdays are gone, at least for 2 more Saturdays =(
NAPFA 6 stations test tmr! I TRULY HOPE that I can PASS my 2.4km rum! My standing broad jump! My sit-and-reach! Hohoho....I'm really not athletic. That means I need more training...But there's no more time left. I don't want to do retest 2 Saturdays later or do it again in July. And most importantly, I'm not letting mysef to train for 2 extra months for BMT!
CLL P2 test 3hour FULL paper next Saturday! Sianx~
As if this is not enough, CLL P1 3 hour FULL paper the Saturday after next!
ARGH! I hate writing in Chinese now than ever! I sympathise with my hands and fingers! And, well, pen ink -.-"
Bio Mock SPA Skill A next monday...Math Statistics Lecture test next tuesday... Bio Diversity & Evolution test next Thursday... GP essay writing next Fri...
=X
Anyway, I pre-empt that the following 2 weeks is a test for my endurance, yet again. 6-day week for 2 consecutive weeks. I shall tell myself this: "It's Mon. Be happy, for Friday is coming =)"
Alright, I have to and must come to my senses now. Felt kinda relieved for knowing it. Of course felt happy for the parties =] Whatever sadness or disappointment or depression, I shall not risk myself beng embittered and trapped by dwelling too much in these emotions, which I am capable of since I am kind of sentimental person (lolx...), and I shall dip myself in the river of Lethe.
GP lessons are the most interesting ones. In contrast, I dreaded for reporting for PE lessons. Therefore, I must pass my NAPFA tmr yea!
GP tutor showed us a movie titles\d ' The Truman Show'. Damn awesome and cool movie. It exaggerated the consequences of the mass media being so rampant that the private life of Truman, since young, has been broadcasted to the public, and this is kept in the dark from Truman because all the people he met in his life are 'actors' and all the events he had participated in are all 'arranged' by the people in-charge of Truman Show.
This movie provokes us to find out for ourselves does the truth really matter. Why do we want to know the truth, if everything now is, or seems, perfectly alright for us? What if the truth is ugly? Why not choose to continue to live how we are living now? Does the truth REALLY matter?
I got a hard time choosing my stand. Apparently, after careful and thoughtful considerations for both sides of the arguments, I have not chosen a concrete stand which I strongly stand by.
I can't wait to step down from CCA which is on next Wed! It's time for the real thing.
*embrace life =)*
Sunday, April 27, 2008
if u know what i'm trying to say
I am a stranger in this strange place.
And I felt so lonely.
I would never travel alone anymore.
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Life is so 'sian'. I'm sure people around me always hear me saying 'So sian...'. Ppl like quan hui especially... LOLx....
Paiseh ah.....
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If life is so perfect...
I'd be worried
That if everything is just a facade
That it won't actually last long
And will be over soon.
Will I be able to accept the fact then?
Can I handle it?
Life is a challenge.
But it is also a chance.
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On the bed...
Sanshun: Zhenxian, do you love me?
Zhenxian: Huh?? Do you even need to ask this question??
Sanshun: Then say 'I love you' to me!
Zhenxian: What?! I can't bring myself to say those things!
Sanshun: Come on! You should express your love and let people around you know that you care for them!
Zhenxian: I always do that in my heart.
Sanshun: Then they won't know that you actually care for them!
Zhenxian: What's the difference when you keep your love in your heart and to express it out? They're the same!
Sanshun: No! They are not! People wouldn't mind being showered with more love if you want to give them!
Zhenxian: Oh my! You're so childish!
Sanshun: We people are all childish! Come on, say it to me!
Zhenxian: Can't be bothered with you!
Sanshun: Look like I will have to make you say it right now! If you won't do it, you will never say it!
And so Sanshun uses her brute force and strangles Zhenxian round his neck and force Zhenxian to say
Zhenxian: Ahh!!! Let go of me!!!!!
Sanshun: Come on! Just three words! Say it to me!
Zhenxian is struggling...
Zhenxian: I.........love.........you........
Sanshun: Louder! Come on!
Zhenxian: I.............Love............You!
Sanshun: I can't hear you! Louder!!!
Zhenxian (with all his might): I..................LOVE...............YOU!!!!!!!!
Sanshun, satisfied for now, let go of Zhenxian
Zhenxian (panting): Oh my! Can't believe you are so strong... (pant...)
Sanshun: I'll let you off for now. Next time, I want to hear it from you from the bottom of your heart, alright?
Zhenxian (pretending not to hear): Come on dear, let's do what we're supposed to do... ... ...
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And I felt so lonely.
I would never travel alone anymore.
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Life is so 'sian'. I'm sure people around me always hear me saying 'So sian...'. Ppl like quan hui especially... LOLx....
Paiseh ah.....
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If life is so perfect...
I'd be worried
That if everything is just a facade
That it won't actually last long
And will be over soon.
Will I be able to accept the fact then?
Can I handle it?
Life is a challenge.
But it is also a chance.
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On the bed...
Sanshun: Zhenxian, do you love me?
Zhenxian: Huh?? Do you even need to ask this question??
Sanshun: Then say 'I love you' to me!
Zhenxian: What?! I can't bring myself to say those things!
Sanshun: Come on! You should express your love and let people around you know that you care for them!
Zhenxian: I always do that in my heart.
Sanshun: Then they won't know that you actually care for them!
Zhenxian: What's the difference when you keep your love in your heart and to express it out? They're the same!
Sanshun: No! They are not! People wouldn't mind being showered with more love if you want to give them!
Zhenxian: Oh my! You're so childish!
Sanshun: We people are all childish! Come on, say it to me!
Zhenxian: Can't be bothered with you!
Sanshun: Look like I will have to make you say it right now! If you won't do it, you will never say it!
And so Sanshun uses her brute force and strangles Zhenxian round his neck and force Zhenxian to say
Zhenxian: Ahh!!! Let go of me!!!!!
Sanshun: Come on! Just three words! Say it to me!
Zhenxian is struggling...
Zhenxian: I.........love.........you........
Sanshun: Louder! Come on!
Zhenxian: I.............Love............You!
Sanshun: I can't hear you! Louder!!!
Zhenxian (with all his might): I..................LOVE...............YOU!!!!!!!!
Sanshun, satisfied for now, let go of Zhenxian
Zhenxian (panting): Oh my! Can't believe you are so strong... (pant...)
Sanshun: I'll let you off for now. Next time, I want to hear it from you from the bottom of your heart, alright?
Zhenxian (pretending not to hear): Come on dear, let's do what we're supposed to do... ... ...
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Saturday, April 26, 2008
trip to IMH
Regret for not taking MRT home from IMH just now... I was caught in a massive traffic jam in the bus...
So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.
The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.
So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.
The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.
Friday, April 25, 2008
service-learning =]
Some updates... though blogging is really what I shouldn't do now~
Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[
For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~
There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!
Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.
Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]
There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...
Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...
Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D
Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[
For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~
There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!
Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.
Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]
There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...
Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...
Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
cry...
Sometimes I really would like to cry my heart out.
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).
相识满天下，知心有几人
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).
相识满天下，知心有几人
Friday, March 28, 2008
0705 outing
So after 1h 15min of Bio P1 today, 0705 went to Yuki Yaki at Marina Square for our breakfast and lunch! Since most of us didn't take our breakfast, and Yuki Yaki opens only at 12 noon, thus considered as both breakfast and lunch for us. We spent almost 4 full hours there and I was really full after 2 hours of eating. And I was the first person to 'surrender' to more food as my stomach was really already bloated. I just can't understand how the rest especially the girls, can eat so much -.-" One lucky thing is that we get 2 cups of FREE ice-cream each as today is so-called a 'special day' which I have no idea what exactly it is. Each of us paid only $12.90 which I thought is quite cheap. The food there was also not too bad, up to expectations =]
Slept for 1h+ in the evening and had dinner with my dad outside after that. And here I am online and also to print bio and chem notes. Sports carnival tomorrow =.=" Need to wake up early yet again. Am involved in orienteering, shall do our best...
As a naruto-addict, I shall post some Naruto pictures =P
Naruto Shippuden characters.I find this picture cool, especially Sasuke and Sai at the back.
Forth Hokage! with Kakashi on the right of the front row.
Haruno Sakura. Looks demure here but she's really powerful... see below... lolx...
Naruto was punched ~
Uchiha Sasuke
Sai, a good guy who is once devoid of emotions.
The trio who were trying hard to find out how Kakashi really looks like under his mask. damn funny episode!
Lookng forward to the next episode ...
Slept for 1h+ in the evening and had dinner with my dad outside after that. And here I am online and also to print bio and chem notes. Sports carnival tomorrow =.=" Need to wake up early yet again. Am involved in orienteering, shall do our best...
As a naruto-addict, I shall post some Naruto pictures =P
Naruto Shippuden characters.I find this picture cool, especially Sasuke and Sai at the back.
Forth Hokage! with Kakashi on the right of the front row.
Haruno Sakura. Looks demure here but she's really powerful... see below... lolx...
Naruto was punched ~
Uchiha Sasuke
Sai, a good guy who is once devoid of emotions.
The trio who were trying hard to find out how Kakashi really looks like under his mask. damn funny episode!
Lookng forward to the next episode ...
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
my a lvl tme-table... sigh...
A level time-table is out on SEAB website. Suay...my time-table isn't good for me to have more time to study before the next paper.
This is how my time-table goes:
This is how my time-table goes:
- 30th & 31st Oct: CLL P1 & P2
- 3rd - 7th Nov: GP P1 & 2, Math P1, Bio P2, Chem P3, Math P2 on each day. I hate this week!
- 11th and 14th Nov: Chem P2 and P1 respectively
- 17th and 20th Nov: Bio P3 and P1 respectively
Only 217 more days to my first A level paper. >.<
Need to come up with a formula / strategy / study plan so that I can manage the packed a level schedule soon... Am pondering about it... =\
Just checked my Chem P1 results on litespeed. 29/40. Not bad la hor.... haha... Really am shocked when I found out my result, since my Chem has always been sucky. Hope to get better results next time round. Good Chem notes do make a great difference. lolx... Hope this is able to compensate the poor results which I am going to score for P2... oh well...-.-
1 more paper left to the end of Block Test. Bio P1 coming Friday. Going to school only from 8am to 9.15am to take the paper. Quite dumb.. lolx... But A level will be like this anyway..
There are several reasons for me to like exam period. hahax... Though it indeed will be a stressful period, but I can go home early after taking the paper, since my normal lessons end at around 5pm on average every day. Also, I can sleep longer on days when my papers are in the afternoon session since there's no need to report for morning assembly. And of course, I don't have to go to school when there are no papers for me for that day! Can sleep for as long as I want to. Can slack, I mean take a break, from the routine of doing the exact same things everyday. haha... There's no school for me tomorrow, yeah! maybe I'll go Orcahrd for shopping... lol!
Anyway, I have enjoyed the days during the past 2 weeks of Block test period, to a certain extent. haha... Do I sound like a sadist? Don't worry, I'm not a masochist. lolx..
But now, towards the end of Block test, I need to finish all the tutorials which I have yet to complete! CLL P1 and Complex numbers. This tutorial load is considered light already so I guess I shouldn't grumble, and complete them!
I dreamt a dream. We were together, had a wonderful time after a certain event (which I couldn't recall). Holding hands together, heartbeats went faster, but was enjoying every moment. I thought it was a reality. Then I opened my eyes, only to see familiar objects of my room, diasppointment overwhelmed me.
If only it was ...
How I wish it is ...
But I feel we already are ...
Monday, March 10, 2008
naruto shippuden ep 48
Naruto Shippuden is truly awesome!
How I admire Naruto for his perseverance and the 'never-say-die' attitude towards rescuing his good friend, Sasuke, from Orochimaru. Even though Sasuke has said that he 'doesn't care about Naruto anymore', Naruto still regards Sasuke as his friend because Sasuke was the one who has made Naruto felt his existence most.
When Sai asked why Naruto is willing to risk his life just to save Sasuke, who no longer regard him as a friend anymore, and moreover, the enemy Naruto is going to face is Orochimaru who is far more powerful than him, Naruto said the following which made me feel touched,
"If my hands are torn off, I'll kick him to death!
If my legs are torn off, I'll bite him to death!
If my head is torn off, I'll stare him to death!
If my eyes are torn off, I'll curse him to death!" [ him = Orochimaru ]
Need to study for Block Test. Gonna finish my 1st round of Chemistry revision tomorrow. Hopefully... MUST!
After which, I must practise on my Math!
Then, I'll start on my CLL Lit component. Gonna study selectively as there'll not be enough time anyway. 1 week to study => insufficient. But no procrastination is allowed. I dun wanna fail!
How I admire Naruto for his perseverance and the 'never-say-die' attitude towards rescuing his good friend, Sasuke, from Orochimaru. Even though Sasuke has said that he 'doesn't care about Naruto anymore', Naruto still regards Sasuke as his friend because Sasuke was the one who has made Naruto felt his existence most.
When Sai asked why Naruto is willing to risk his life just to save Sasuke, who no longer regard him as a friend anymore, and moreover, the enemy Naruto is going to face is Orochimaru who is far more powerful than him, Naruto said the following which made me feel touched,
"If my hands are torn off, I'll kick him to death!
If my legs are torn off, I'll bite him to death!
If my head is torn off, I'll stare him to death!
If my eyes are torn off, I'll curse him to death!" [ him = Orochimaru ]
Need to study for Block Test. Gonna finish my 1st round of Chemistry revision tomorrow. Hopefully... MUST!
After which, I must practise on my Math!
Then, I'll start on my CLL Lit component. Gonna study selectively as there'll not be enough time anyway. 1 week to study => insufficient. But no procrastination is allowed. I dun wanna fail!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
rambling
FINALLY, 1st Mar 2008 is gone and my suffering is over!
Overall, I would say BYG 2008 was a success despite the many obstacles we met while preparing for this event.
Sales of tickets 4 days before the actual performance was only a pathetic 25%. Yet, by the end of the performances, the sales was beyond 90%! Isn't that incredible? Unbelievable?! Even me need some time to accept the exponential increase in the sales of the tickets in the last week. I vaguely remembered that 9 days before the actual performance, the sales was really bad - a mere 10%. 5 days later, it slightly went up to 25%. By then, the teachers were damn worried about the sales.
And I was blamed for not being worried, or rather never show to people that I was really worried. My first reaction was: WHAT? Ask me to act and pretend that I was worried about the sales? I hate hypocrites and I would NEVER do such hypocritical acts in my life! I am not obligated to do this. And I was told that by not being worried about the sales, I sort of cause the teachers to be insulted when I looked as if nothing serious had happened.
I do embrace the logic behind it but sadly, I do feel sorry for this reality in life. Sometimes we have to pretend a bit, be hypocritical for a while, all because of the outcome we desire to happen. We can't be like how kids are like, or rather how we were like when we were still small little children, when we could express whatever we felt at any moment and forget about it after a short while.
Regarding the bad sales initially, I do have to be partly responsible for it, but definitely not all, not even most. Sales of tickets require ALL of us to work hard upon, to boost the selling of tickets. It is ridiculous that a group leader is the only one to be blamed for the poor sales. I understand that it is inevitable for people to throw their comments on me regarding the sales performance but I don't give a damn, because my principle is that ALL should work hard to sell their tickets and ALL should be blamed if sales is not up to the minimal expectations.
[I'm glad that my blog gives me the channel to express what I wanna say, especially my principle on this issue, as there won't be anyone who will listen to me rambling about it.]
The problem of 'saving face' can actually turn someone into another person. One will become so worried and anxious that he becomes very agitated when talking to the person who is deemed to cause a particular incident.
I saw the ugly side of human being. It is really ugly, and scary. I detest it to the core.
I was told that I have disppointed people. I have not lived up to their expectations. Regarding the issue of expectations, I am not at all interested. Expectations are what people set for you and it has nothing to do with the person whether he/she has met the expectations. As long as I have no regrets and conscience is clear, things are fine. I don't aim to live up to any people's expectations. There is, of course, a small generalisation I've made when stating the former sentence. I will still work very hard not to disappoint my loved ones - family, ... ... ... for they are most special to me and they are not those ugly people who I will meet in the outside world.
Spent quite some time here grumbling... I intended to upload some photos but well, it's time for me to sleep. So next time ba... ...
I need $$$$$. Broke... =\
On the bright side, my constellation sign - Aquarius - states that I will be spending quite alot of $ this month, but it is all for exchanging with things that are valuable to me, something that can last for a long time. So it's worth it. =)
Overall, I would say BYG 2008 was a success despite the many obstacles we met while preparing for this event.
Sales of tickets 4 days before the actual performance was only a pathetic 25%. Yet, by the end of the performances, the sales was beyond 90%! Isn't that incredible? Unbelievable?! Even me need some time to accept the exponential increase in the sales of the tickets in the last week. I vaguely remembered that 9 days before the actual performance, the sales was really bad - a mere 10%. 5 days later, it slightly went up to 25%. By then, the teachers were damn worried about the sales.
And I was blamed for not being worried, or rather never show to people that I was really worried. My first reaction was: WHAT? Ask me to act and pretend that I was worried about the sales? I hate hypocrites and I would NEVER do such hypocritical acts in my life! I am not obligated to do this. And I was told that by not being worried about the sales, I sort of cause the teachers to be insulted when I looked as if nothing serious had happened.
I do embrace the logic behind it but sadly, I do feel sorry for this reality in life. Sometimes we have to pretend a bit, be hypocritical for a while, all because of the outcome we desire to happen. We can't be like how kids are like, or rather how we were like when we were still small little children, when we could express whatever we felt at any moment and forget about it after a short while.
Regarding the bad sales initially, I do have to be partly responsible for it, but definitely not all, not even most. Sales of tickets require ALL of us to work hard upon, to boost the selling of tickets. It is ridiculous that a group leader is the only one to be blamed for the poor sales. I understand that it is inevitable for people to throw their comments on me regarding the sales performance but I don't give a damn, because my principle is that ALL should work hard to sell their tickets and ALL should be blamed if sales is not up to the minimal expectations.
[I'm glad that my blog gives me the channel to express what I wanna say, especially my principle on this issue, as there won't be anyone who will listen to me rambling about it.]
The problem of 'saving face' can actually turn someone into another person. One will become so worried and anxious that he becomes very agitated when talking to the person who is deemed to cause a particular incident.
I saw the ugly side of human being. It is really ugly, and scary. I detest it to the core.
I was told that I have disppointed people. I have not lived up to their expectations. Regarding the issue of expectations, I am not at all interested. Expectations are what people set for you and it has nothing to do with the person whether he/she has met the expectations. As long as I have no regrets and conscience is clear, things are fine. I don't aim to live up to any people's expectations. There is, of course, a small generalisation I've made when stating the former sentence. I will still work very hard not to disappoint my loved ones - family, ... ... ... for they are most special to me and they are not those ugly people who I will meet in the outside world.
Spent quite some time here grumbling... I intended to upload some photos but well, it's time for me to sleep. So next time ba... ...
I need $$$$$. Broke... =\
On the bright side, my constellation sign - Aquarius - states that I will be spending quite alot of $ this month, but it is all for exchanging with things that are valuable to me, something that can last for a long time. So it's worth it. =)
Monday, February 11, 2008
stressed
1st day of school after CNY.
Received many ang baos... grins... $_$
Played majong with cousins. Though won, sadly, didn't play with money, just chips. Haha, I am the most pro amongst the 4 of us. wahahahahahha!!! And I'm now more confident in majong! =P
Stress is building up.
Transition metals test tmr. Though can bring A5 self-written notes to help, passing the test is uncertain. sigh... Fate shall decides for me. I'm used to it, anyway.
Virus and prokaryotes test this thurs. Nothing much to elaborate on. Same as above. =\
Integration application and Differential equations test next thurs. Same as above. =.=
Chem SPA Skill B and C next Fri! I must score well in it!!! Must!
Bio eukaryotes test 2 weeks after. nothing much to say...
Bio SPA Skill D 2 weeks later. Must score in it too!! Must!
All tests, tutorials and CCA rehearsals are virtually 'squeezed' into this 3 weeks. Many tedious things to do as publicity and ticketing committee. s-t-r-e-s-s. That's the word. And it's building up.
I dunno if I will eventually break down. But I know that that's not a choice for me.
That's life.
Being so busy nowadays, yet I always think about happiness. How great it would be... ...
Life will be so much more meaningful (=
Received many ang baos... grins... $_$
Played majong with cousins. Though won, sadly, didn't play with money, just chips. Haha, I am the most pro amongst the 4 of us. wahahahahahha!!! And I'm now more confident in majong! =P
Stress is building up.
Transition metals test tmr. Though can bring A5 self-written notes to help, passing the test is uncertain. sigh... Fate shall decides for me. I'm used to it, anyway.
Virus and prokaryotes test this thurs. Nothing much to elaborate on. Same as above. =\
Integration application and Differential equations test next thurs. Same as above. =.=
Chem SPA Skill B and C next Fri! I must score well in it!!! Must!
Bio eukaryotes test 2 weeks after. nothing much to say...
Bio SPA Skill D 2 weeks later. Must score in it too!! Must!
All tests, tutorials and CCA rehearsals are virtually 'squeezed' into this 3 weeks. Many tedious things to do as publicity and ticketing committee. s-t-r-e-s-s. That's the word. And it's building up.
I dunno if I will eventually break down. But I know that that's not a choice for me.
That's life.
Being so busy nowadays, yet I always think about happiness. How great it would be... ...
Life will be so much more meaningful (=
Saturday, February 02, 2008
>.<
For dunno what reason, I'm blogging now...on a very plain and simple blogskin.
Things shouldn't be made too complex.
Let's see, what am I going to blog about??
Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.
Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...
Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.
For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...
Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.
GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...
Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...
And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!
Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
...
Things shouldn't be made too complex.
Let's see, what am I going to blog about??
Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.
Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...
Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.
For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...
Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.
GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...
Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...
And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!
Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
...
Monday, January 28, 2008
BYG 2008
After 1 month plus...I'm back! haha...
Seriously kept real busy with academic and CCA! OMG! It's really BUSY! Almost no time for me to take a breath... Damn hectic!!
Why am I so busy?
Well, my CCA is now running a very packed schedule in preparing for 《我们的白云岗2008》which will be held on 29th February and 1st March.
Time: 7.15p.m.
Venue: NYJC LT4
A short intro to our drama:
"This is a riveting play that combines elements of modern life, ancient Chinese history, myths and legends"
The title of this drama is 《银针传奇》or "Legend of the Silver Needle".
Synopsis of the drama:
“ 他是天之骄子，用他人的心碎来构成虚假的完美；他是残暴的君王，用臣民的血肉来铸造金碧辉煌。
他是忠实的追随者，心中所有的痛苦都不为人知；他是直言敢谏的忠臣，却冤枉凄惨的枉死。
她是寄人篱下的孤女，用愤怒的复仇开启了千年的诅咒；她是绝代佳人，不惜一切，将一代王朝覆灭。
她是命运的宠儿，却不得不面对人生的无奈；他是历史的颠覆着，征服了天下却无法填补失落的空白。
历史，究竟是让人觉悟，还是在不断重复着同样的错误？
一根富有法力的银针，牵动了四个家族千年的命运。人，是否无论如何，都逃避不了命运的掌控？还是人性深处那些永无止境的欲望，才是千年来恒久不灭的诅咒？”
Felt compelled to watch? Interesting synopsis eh? haha..
Anyway, this is an annual drama production by Chinese Cultural Society of NYJC.
This year, the style is different from the past years as we're going to do one long show, instead of previous years' 2 - 3 short shows.
Must come support!
Especially me, the in-charge of ticketing and publicity!!
Help me get rid of all my tickets!!
600 seats in LT... 2 nights.... so a total of 1200 tickets to be sold!!!
COME SUPPORT!
Thanks alot!!
=]
My workload and stress would be very much reduced yea....
And tickets will be ready by tomorrow (Tuesday). So that means my job of selling tickets starts tomorrow!
Don't hesitate, grab your ticket now!! =)
and ya... ticket is priced at $8 [=
It's considered a very reasonable price already =)
Seriously kept real busy with academic and CCA! OMG! It's really BUSY! Almost no time for me to take a breath... Damn hectic!!
Why am I so busy?
Well, my CCA is now running a very packed schedule in preparing for 《我们的白云岗2008》which will be held on 29th February and 1st March.
Time: 7.15p.m.
Venue: NYJC LT4
A short intro to our drama:
"This is a riveting play that combines elements of modern life, ancient Chinese history, myths and legends"
The title of this drama is 《银针传奇》or "Legend of the Silver Needle".
Synopsis of the drama:
“ 他是天之骄子，用他人的心碎来构成虚假的完美；他是残暴的君王，用臣民的血肉来铸造金碧辉煌。
他是忠实的追随者，心中所有的痛苦都不为人知；他是直言敢谏的忠臣，却冤枉凄惨的枉死。
她是寄人篱下的孤女，用愤怒的复仇开启了千年的诅咒；她是绝代佳人，不惜一切，将一代王朝覆灭。
她是命运的宠儿，却不得不面对人生的无奈；他是历史的颠覆着，征服了天下却无法填补失落的空白。
历史，究竟是让人觉悟，还是在不断重复着同样的错误？
一根富有法力的银针，牵动了四个家族千年的命运。人，是否无论如何，都逃避不了命运的掌控？还是人性深处那些永无止境的欲望，才是千年来恒久不灭的诅咒？”
Felt compelled to watch? Interesting synopsis eh? haha..
Anyway, this is an annual drama production by Chinese Cultural Society of NYJC.
This year, the style is different from the past years as we're going to do one long show, instead of previous years' 2 - 3 short shows.
Must come support!
Especially me, the in-charge of ticketing and publicity!!
Help me get rid of all my tickets!!
600 seats in LT... 2 nights.... so a total of 1200 tickets to be sold!!!
COME SUPPORT!
Thanks alot!!
=]
My workload and stress would be very much reduced yea....
And tickets will be ready by tomorrow (Tuesday). So that means my job of selling tickets starts tomorrow!
Don't hesitate, grab your ticket now!! =)
and ya... ticket is priced at $8 [=
It's considered a very reasonable price already =)
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Back from Taiwan!
Back from Taiwan, safe and sound!
Taiwan is damn fun! No regret at all for going to Taiwan!
It's impossible for me to blog about how fun Taiwan really is. It will be really damn long that I'm gonna spend uncountable hours on it, which I wouldn't want to waste my time on given the numerous assignments I have on hand now. =\
oh well...
Of course, the most important reason that makes me feel Taiwan is so fun is because of the other 29 friends from HCI, TJC and NYJC travelling this trip together! Without these wonderful friends, I definitely wouldn't enjoy the trip no matter how great Taiwan is, whether is it the food, places of interest, shopping time, bla bla bla...
And yea, I miss Taiwan!
But since I'm back to Singapore, that means business time =(
Time will be mostly spent on getting the piles of homework done.
What a pathetic life of a student...
Miss the friends travelled to Taiwan together most though. After all, it's these friends who have accompanied, played and lived together during the 15 days. Without them, loneliness is what's left. Then it would be no fun at all. Friends are great! And friends last for a lifetime!
Undeniably, it is indeed quite sad when we had to bid goodbyes to one another in the airport. I felt a sense of nostalgia when I recalled the fun we had enjoyed so much in Taiwan together. But the fact in life is that separation is inevitable.
From 方老师 of HCI：“天下无不散之筵席。原种下的种子有一天发芽。完成该完成的，收拾该收拾的。明年好好冲刺！”
Though I was quite shocked to receive this sms from 方老师, I felt touched, especially becaue he's not teaching me yet he sends his regards to me. This message has another effect on me: get my homework done asap or I'll meet my doom next year, which is less than half a month.
lol.
Before checking-in in Taiwan airport, 蓝小姐, the person-in-charge of this Taiwan trip：“离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！”
I thought I will feel very sad and can't bear to leave Taiwan and friends, but because of 蓝小姐's words before leaving, I managed to accept the coming separation readily in the airport and on the plane.
Indeed, as what 蓝小姐 mentioned in the airport, we'll all be facing many similar separations in the future. This fact of life really saddens me. And yes, I'll be facing more separations in the future. I've to be emotionally prepared.
sigh...
I'll always remember: 离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！
p.s.: I bought《斗牛.要不要》原声带 from 玫瑰唱片 in Taiwan! yay! =]
Taiwan is damn fun! No regret at all for going to Taiwan!
It's impossible for me to blog about how fun Taiwan really is. It will be really damn long that I'm gonna spend uncountable hours on it, which I wouldn't want to waste my time on given the numerous assignments I have on hand now. =\
oh well...
Of course, the most important reason that makes me feel Taiwan is so fun is because of the other 29 friends from HCI, TJC and NYJC travelling this trip together! Without these wonderful friends, I definitely wouldn't enjoy the trip no matter how great Taiwan is, whether is it the food, places of interest, shopping time, bla bla bla...
And yea, I miss Taiwan!
But since I'm back to Singapore, that means business time =(
Time will be mostly spent on getting the piles of homework done.
What a pathetic life of a student...
Miss the friends travelled to Taiwan together most though. After all, it's these friends who have accompanied, played and lived together during the 15 days. Without them, loneliness is what's left. Then it would be no fun at all. Friends are great! And friends last for a lifetime!
Undeniably, it is indeed quite sad when we had to bid goodbyes to one another in the airport. I felt a sense of nostalgia when I recalled the fun we had enjoyed so much in Taiwan together. But the fact in life is that separation is inevitable.
From 方老师 of HCI：“天下无不散之筵席。原种下的种子有一天发芽。完成该完成的，收拾该收拾的。明年好好冲刺！”
Though I was quite shocked to receive this sms from 方老师, I felt touched, especially becaue he's not teaching me yet he sends his regards to me. This message has another effect on me: get my homework done asap or I'll meet my doom next year, which is less than half a month.
lol.
Before checking-in in Taiwan airport, 蓝小姐, the person-in-charge of this Taiwan trip：“离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！”
I thought I will feel very sad and can't bear to leave Taiwan and friends, but because of 蓝小姐's words before leaving, I managed to accept the coming separation readily in the airport and on the plane.
Indeed, as what 蓝小姐 mentioned in the airport, we'll all be facing many similar separations in the future. This fact of life really saddens me. And yes, I'll be facing more separations in the future. I've to be emotionally prepared.
sigh...
I'll always remember: 离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！
p.s.: I bought《斗牛.要不要》原声带 from 玫瑰唱片 in Taiwan! yay! =]
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