I am a stranger in this strange place.
And I felt so lonely.
I would never travel alone anymore.
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Life is so 'sian'. I'm sure people around me always hear me saying 'So sian...'. Ppl like quan hui especially... LOLx....
Paiseh ah.....
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If life is so perfect...
I'd be worried
That if everything is just a facade
That it won't actually last long
And will be over soon.
Will I be able to accept the fact then?
Can I handle it?
Life is a challenge.
But it is also a chance.
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On the bed...
Sanshun: Zhenxian, do you love me?
Zhenxian: Huh?? Do you even need to ask this question??
Sanshun: Then say 'I love you' to me!
Zhenxian: What?! I can't bring myself to say those things!
Sanshun: Come on! You should express your love and let people around you know that you care for them!
Zhenxian: I always do that in my heart.
Sanshun: Then they won't know that you actually care for them!
Zhenxian: What's the difference when you keep your love in your heart and to express it out? They're the same!
Sanshun: No! They are not! People wouldn't mind being showered with more love if you want to give them!
Zhenxian: Oh my! You're so childish!
Sanshun: We people are all childish! Come on, say it to me!
Zhenxian: Can't be bothered with you!
Sanshun: Look like I will have to make you say it right now! If you won't do it, you will never say it!
And so Sanshun uses her brute force and strangles Zhenxian round his neck and force Zhenxian to say
Zhenxian: Ahh!!! Let go of me!!!!!
Sanshun: Come on! Just three words! Say it to me!
Zhenxian is struggling...
Zhenxian: I.........love.........you........
Sanshun: Louder! Come on!
Zhenxian: I.............Love............You!
Sanshun: I can't hear you! Louder!!!
Zhenxian (with all his might): I..................LOVE...............YOU!!!!!!!!
Sanshun, satisfied for now, let go of Zhenxian
Zhenxian (panting): Oh my! Can't believe you are so strong... (pant...)
Sanshun: I'll let you off for now. Next time, I want to hear it from you from the bottom of your heart, alright?
Zhenxian (pretending not to hear): Come on dear, let's do what we're supposed to do... ... ...
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Sunday, April 27, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
trip to IMH
Regret for not taking MRT home from IMH just now... I was caught in a massive traffic jam in the bus...
So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.
The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.
So the trip to IMH was indeed a meaningful one.
Before getting to interact with the residents there, there was a fear in me wondering what I would encounter later. Even though people had kept telling me that the residents are actually friendly and approachable people and there's nothing to be scared of, I was still worried for dunno-what reason. When the group of us were about to enter the ward, we had to sterilise our hands first. What made us feel even more afraid was that there were patients looking at us 'interesting-ly' from inside the ward through the transparent glass of the door.
Hiding our fear, we went in and looked calm. When nothing had happened to us, we were relieved. lolx...
So we set up our games we had planned for the residents to play. Most of the patients in the ward were elderly. They enjoyed playing our games and all of us were truly glad. There is one patient who likes drawing and is good at it too. He drew two portraits of my classmates and one of them looks really alike. He can draw the outline of the face very quickly and is in the almost perfect proportion. And he coloured the portraits first before giving his masterpiece to them. I'm sure I couldn't produce the standard like his. I admire him.
The evironment there is serene and peaceful. It is a perfect and conducive for the residents to stay in. They are, in fact, not as scary as I thought they were. I believe most of us have the wrong perspectives of these people. Actually, they are okay and are normal, with the medication. They can communicate with you and you would feel really glad when you know you've brightened up their day and made a difference to their boring lives. If viewed in another angle, the residents are even more normal than us, if you know what I'm trying to say. They lead a peaceful, quiet and contended life, which is what many of us look forward to. There is no hyporcrites in the ward, everyone behaves as they are. Some even show their care and concern towards their friends. They are also very disciplined and do follow instructions, not otherwise which we always think. There is a need to spread the message that residents in IMH are actually friendly people and we must change our perspectives we always have of them.
Friday, April 25, 2008
service-learning =]
Some updates... though blogging is really what I shouldn't do now~
Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[
For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~
There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!
Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.
Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]
There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...
Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...
Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D
Saturdays are packed with events nowadays... The Sat before last week, I went back to college for extra Chem tutorial. Last Sat the college celebrated 29th College Day and we also had Chem extra remedial on Organic synthesis before that. Looking at the awardees going up the stage for their excellent A level results...I just hope that I will be like them next year. And thanks to my cca teacher for his wish. Tmr, a Sat, I will be going to IMH for my service-learning. Well, honestly, there's some fear about going there as I never have interacted with ppl like them.... But my friends said they are actually ok and normal like us, so I guess everything's gonne be alright. Next Sat, NAPFA TEST!!! OMG!! I have many stations to work on... Somehow, I couldn't jump as far as before.. sian... and my 2.4km too! I always wanted to train but just can't find the time to.. Now it's quite late.. No matter what, I will push on on next Sat! I really don't wanna waste 2 months of my life for eXtRa NS training... x[
For the FIRST time ever, I PASSED BOTH MY CHEM AND BIO TESTS!! x)
That's really a big deal ok?! hahax...
It's really not easy to pass tests or exams... Somehow, I've made it! heeex...
To be more emo, I nearly tear when I knew that I have passed the tests... lolx... -.-
There's another Chem organic test next Friday, just when I thought that I can have a good rest on Labour Day, shall do my best in proving to the others that I can manage my work load... =]
Nonetheless, there's always some hidden phobia when attending Chem lessons~~~
There's actually many things which I want to mention... but somehow or rather, I always missed to blog about them.
Firstly, THANK YOU 0705 FOR THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS!!! So MANY of YOU have bought the presents and I AM REALLY TOUCHED!! WAS REALLY DELIGHTED!! x) MANY THANKS!
(Okae, I know that it happened long long time ago but I must mention their kindness and their thoughtful gift! =D)
Of course, not forgeting the 'scandalous family' as it was so-called, though I have some comments about the naming (lolx...), for celebrating my birthday in Swensens =] Thank you!
Next, a thief in the college STOLE my $$$ !! I was DAMN pissed off by the whoever it was! I only found out that my all my notes were gone when I was about to take out money to pay for my KFC Shrooms meal's bill. It was so embarrassing when I had to cancel my order last-minute. The thief was 'kind' enough to steal only the notes, and left my $1 McDonald's voucher, I/C, ezlink, photocopy card and coins alone. And put my wallet back into my bag... Since then, I never put wallet in my bag anymore... I can't believe there's actually a thief going around stealing people's money. I was not the only victim. There are many more. In one case, all the money was stolen from a group of bags which belonged to Floorball guys' team while they were training. Hope that the thief will be caught soon and let him be ashamed in front of the whole college!
Through this unfortunate experience, my level of trust for other people has dropped to some extent. Though it is painful to have lost the 20 - 30 bucks, what I felt more was the disappointment for mankind for their undesirable acts.
Anyway, I was so envious when I found out that the Band will be travelling to JAPAN!
Not only that, the Literature students are flying all the way to ENGLAND!!! waaaah~~~!
Still, my TAIWAN trip last year was memorable enough for me =]
There are many other deep-seated thoughts which I shan't blogged about, at least for now ~~ Well, maybe I would when I want or have the urge to...
Thanks people for the encouragement. Situation now has become slightly better. Yep, I'm taking whatever that comes positively...
Beer tastes so much better than Green Tea.
You know what? You can't drink beer then so I chose green tea instead (I drank beer before the legal age so I know the taste already).
=D
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
cry...
Sometimes I really would like to cry my heart out.
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).
相识满天下，知心有几人
I barely can manage the stressful situation I am currently in.
I embrace every moment when I have managed to be strong mentally and did not let myself break down.
But crying would make one feel better, as depicted by drama and from friends, right?
Yet there is no room nor space for me to cry. This world is just too packed.
I have thought of crying in my room but whenever I am back from college, my parents have already returned home from work. I can't possibly let them hear me cry.
So all along, I've been keeping the almost unbearable and overwhelming feeling to myself. I can't find anybody to talk to. I know there is somebody but the idea is just not feasible since no one is not busy.
Sigh. This world is so packed yet it's so hard to find somebody to confide into (though this person exists).
相识满天下，知心有几人
Friday, March 28, 2008
0705 outing
So after 1h 15min of Bio P1 today, 0705 went to Yuki Yaki at Marina Square for our breakfast and lunch! Since most of us didn't take our breakfast, and Yuki Yaki opens only at 12 noon, thus considered as both breakfast and lunch for us. We spent almost 4 full hours there and I was really full after 2 hours of eating. And I was the first person to 'surrender' to more food as my stomach was really already bloated. I just can't understand how the rest especially the girls, can eat so much -.-" One lucky thing is that we get 2 cups of FREE ice-cream each as today is so-called a 'special day' which I have no idea what exactly it is. Each of us paid only $12.90 which I thought is quite cheap. The food there was also not too bad, up to expectations =]
Slept for 1h+ in the evening and had dinner with my dad outside after that. And here I am online and also to print bio and chem notes. Sports carnival tomorrow =.=" Need to wake up early yet again. Am involved in orienteering, shall do our best...
As a naruto-addict, I shall post some Naruto pictures =P
Naruto Shippuden characters.I find this picture cool, especially Sasuke and Sai at the back.
Forth Hokage! with Kakashi on the right of the front row.
Haruno Sakura. Looks demure here but she's really powerful... see below... lolx...
Naruto was punched ~
Uchiha Sasuke
Sai, a good guy who is once devoid of emotions.
The trio who were trying hard to find out how Kakashi really looks like under his mask. damn funny episode!
Lookng forward to the next episode ...
Slept for 1h+ in the evening and had dinner with my dad outside after that. And here I am online and also to print bio and chem notes. Sports carnival tomorrow =.=" Need to wake up early yet again. Am involved in orienteering, shall do our best...
As a naruto-addict, I shall post some Naruto pictures =P
Naruto Shippuden characters.I find this picture cool, especially Sasuke and Sai at the back.
Forth Hokage! with Kakashi on the right of the front row.
Haruno Sakura. Looks demure here but she's really powerful... see below... lolx...
Naruto was punched ~
Uchiha Sasuke
Sai, a good guy who is once devoid of emotions.
The trio who were trying hard to find out how Kakashi really looks like under his mask. damn funny episode!
Lookng forward to the next episode ...
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
my a lvl tme-table... sigh...
A level time-table is out on SEAB website. Suay...my time-table isn't good for me to have more time to study before the next paper.
This is how my time-table goes:
This is how my time-table goes:
- 30th & 31st Oct: CLL P1 & P2
- 3rd - 7th Nov: GP P1 & 2, Math P1, Bio P2, Chem P3, Math P2 on each day. I hate this week!
- 11th and 14th Nov: Chem P2 and P1 respectively
- 17th and 20th Nov: Bio P3 and P1 respectively
Only 217 more days to my first A level paper. >.<
Need to come up with a formula / strategy / study plan so that I can manage the packed a level schedule soon... Am pondering about it... =\
Just checked my Chem P1 results on litespeed. 29/40. Not bad la hor.... haha... Really am shocked when I found out my result, since my Chem has always been sucky. Hope to get better results next time round. Good Chem notes do make a great difference. lolx... Hope this is able to compensate the poor results which I am going to score for P2... oh well...-.-
1 more paper left to the end of Block Test. Bio P1 coming Friday. Going to school only from 8am to 9.15am to take the paper. Quite dumb.. lolx... But A level will be like this anyway..
There are several reasons for me to like exam period. hahax... Though it indeed will be a stressful period, but I can go home early after taking the paper, since my normal lessons end at around 5pm on average every day. Also, I can sleep longer on days when my papers are in the afternoon session since there's no need to report for morning assembly. And of course, I don't have to go to school when there are no papers for me for that day! Can sleep for as long as I want to. Can slack, I mean take a break, from the routine of doing the exact same things everyday. haha... There's no school for me tomorrow, yeah! maybe I'll go Orcahrd for shopping... lol!
Anyway, I have enjoyed the days during the past 2 weeks of Block test period, to a certain extent. haha... Do I sound like a sadist? Don't worry, I'm not a masochist. lolx..
But now, towards the end of Block test, I need to finish all the tutorials which I have yet to complete! CLL P1 and Complex numbers. This tutorial load is considered light already so I guess I shouldn't grumble, and complete them!
I dreamt a dream. We were together, had a wonderful time after a certain event (which I couldn't recall). Holding hands together, heartbeats went faster, but was enjoying every moment. I thought it was a reality. Then I opened my eyes, only to see familiar objects of my room, diasppointment overwhelmed me.
If only it was ...
How I wish it is ...
But I feel we already are ...
Monday, March 10, 2008
naruto shippuden ep 48
Naruto Shippuden is truly awesome!
How I admire Naruto for his perseverance and the 'never-say-die' attitude towards rescuing his good friend, Sasuke, from Orochimaru. Even though Sasuke has said that he 'doesn't care about Naruto anymore', Naruto still regards Sasuke as his friend because Sasuke was the one who has made Naruto felt his existence most.
When Sai asked why Naruto is willing to risk his life just to save Sasuke, who no longer regard him as a friend anymore, and moreover, the enemy Naruto is going to face is Orochimaru who is far more powerful than him, Naruto said the following which made me feel touched,
"If my hands are torn off, I'll kick him to death!
If my legs are torn off, I'll bite him to death!
If my head is torn off, I'll stare him to death!
If my eyes are torn off, I'll curse him to death!" [ him = Orochimaru ]
Need to study for Block Test. Gonna finish my 1st round of Chemistry revision tomorrow. Hopefully... MUST!
After which, I must practise on my Math!
Then, I'll start on my CLL Lit component. Gonna study selectively as there'll not be enough time anyway. 1 week to study => insufficient. But no procrastination is allowed. I dun wanna fail!
How I admire Naruto for his perseverance and the 'never-say-die' attitude towards rescuing his good friend, Sasuke, from Orochimaru. Even though Sasuke has said that he 'doesn't care about Naruto anymore', Naruto still regards Sasuke as his friend because Sasuke was the one who has made Naruto felt his existence most.
When Sai asked why Naruto is willing to risk his life just to save Sasuke, who no longer regard him as a friend anymore, and moreover, the enemy Naruto is going to face is Orochimaru who is far more powerful than him, Naruto said the following which made me feel touched,
"If my hands are torn off, I'll kick him to death!
If my legs are torn off, I'll bite him to death!
If my head is torn off, I'll stare him to death!
If my eyes are torn off, I'll curse him to death!" [ him = Orochimaru ]
Need to study for Block Test. Gonna finish my 1st round of Chemistry revision tomorrow. Hopefully... MUST!
After which, I must practise on my Math!
Then, I'll start on my CLL Lit component. Gonna study selectively as there'll not be enough time anyway. 1 week to study => insufficient. But no procrastination is allowed. I dun wanna fail!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
rambling
FINALLY, 1st Mar 2008 is gone and my suffering is over!
Overall, I would say BYG 2008 was a success despite the many obstacles we met while preparing for this event.
Sales of tickets 4 days before the actual performance was only a pathetic 25%. Yet, by the end of the performances, the sales was beyond 90%! Isn't that incredible? Unbelievable?! Even me need some time to accept the exponential increase in the sales of the tickets in the last week. I vaguely remembered that 9 days before the actual performance, the sales was really bad - a mere 10%. 5 days later, it slightly went up to 25%. By then, the teachers were damn worried about the sales.
And I was blamed for not being worried, or rather never show to people that I was really worried. My first reaction was: WHAT? Ask me to act and pretend that I was worried about the sales? I hate hypocrites and I would NEVER do such hypocritical acts in my life! I am not obligated to do this. And I was told that by not being worried about the sales, I sort of cause the teachers to be insulted when I looked as if nothing serious had happened.
I do embrace the logic behind it but sadly, I do feel sorry for this reality in life. Sometimes we have to pretend a bit, be hypocritical for a while, all because of the outcome we desire to happen. We can't be like how kids are like, or rather how we were like when we were still small little children, when we could express whatever we felt at any moment and forget about it after a short while.
Regarding the bad sales initially, I do have to be partly responsible for it, but definitely not all, not even most. Sales of tickets require ALL of us to work hard upon, to boost the selling of tickets. It is ridiculous that a group leader is the only one to be blamed for the poor sales. I understand that it is inevitable for people to throw their comments on me regarding the sales performance but I don't give a damn, because my principle is that ALL should work hard to sell their tickets and ALL should be blamed if sales is not up to the minimal expectations.
[I'm glad that my blog gives me the channel to express what I wanna say, especially my principle on this issue, as there won't be anyone who will listen to me rambling about it.]
The problem of 'saving face' can actually turn someone into another person. One will become so worried and anxious that he becomes very agitated when talking to the person who is deemed to cause a particular incident.
I saw the ugly side of human being. It is really ugly, and scary. I detest it to the core.
I was told that I have disppointed people. I have not lived up to their expectations. Regarding the issue of expectations, I am not at all interested. Expectations are what people set for you and it has nothing to do with the person whether he/she has met the expectations. As long as I have no regrets and conscience is clear, things are fine. I don't aim to live up to any people's expectations. There is, of course, a small generalisation I've made when stating the former sentence. I will still work very hard not to disappoint my loved ones - family, ... ... ... for they are most special to me and they are not those ugly people who I will meet in the outside world.
Spent quite some time here grumbling... I intended to upload some photos but well, it's time for me to sleep. So next time ba... ...
I need $$$$$. Broke... =\
On the bright side, my constellation sign - Aquarius - states that I will be spending quite alot of $ this month, but it is all for exchanging with things that are valuable to me, something that can last for a long time. So it's worth it. =)
Overall, I would say BYG 2008 was a success despite the many obstacles we met while preparing for this event.
Sales of tickets 4 days before the actual performance was only a pathetic 25%. Yet, by the end of the performances, the sales was beyond 90%! Isn't that incredible? Unbelievable?! Even me need some time to accept the exponential increase in the sales of the tickets in the last week. I vaguely remembered that 9 days before the actual performance, the sales was really bad - a mere 10%. 5 days later, it slightly went up to 25%. By then, the teachers were damn worried about the sales.
And I was blamed for not being worried, or rather never show to people that I was really worried. My first reaction was: WHAT? Ask me to act and pretend that I was worried about the sales? I hate hypocrites and I would NEVER do such hypocritical acts in my life! I am not obligated to do this. And I was told that by not being worried about the sales, I sort of cause the teachers to be insulted when I looked as if nothing serious had happened.
I do embrace the logic behind it but sadly, I do feel sorry for this reality in life. Sometimes we have to pretend a bit, be hypocritical for a while, all because of the outcome we desire to happen. We can't be like how kids are like, or rather how we were like when we were still small little children, when we could express whatever we felt at any moment and forget about it after a short while.
Regarding the bad sales initially, I do have to be partly responsible for it, but definitely not all, not even most. Sales of tickets require ALL of us to work hard upon, to boost the selling of tickets. It is ridiculous that a group leader is the only one to be blamed for the poor sales. I understand that it is inevitable for people to throw their comments on me regarding the sales performance but I don't give a damn, because my principle is that ALL should work hard to sell their tickets and ALL should be blamed if sales is not up to the minimal expectations.
[I'm glad that my blog gives me the channel to express what I wanna say, especially my principle on this issue, as there won't be anyone who will listen to me rambling about it.]
The problem of 'saving face' can actually turn someone into another person. One will become so worried and anxious that he becomes very agitated when talking to the person who is deemed to cause a particular incident.
I saw the ugly side of human being. It is really ugly, and scary. I detest it to the core.
I was told that I have disppointed people. I have not lived up to their expectations. Regarding the issue of expectations, I am not at all interested. Expectations are what people set for you and it has nothing to do with the person whether he/she has met the expectations. As long as I have no regrets and conscience is clear, things are fine. I don't aim to live up to any people's expectations. There is, of course, a small generalisation I've made when stating the former sentence. I will still work very hard not to disappoint my loved ones - family, ... ... ... for they are most special to me and they are not those ugly people who I will meet in the outside world.
Spent quite some time here grumbling... I intended to upload some photos but well, it's time for me to sleep. So next time ba... ...
I need $$$$$. Broke... =\
On the bright side, my constellation sign - Aquarius - states that I will be spending quite alot of $ this month, but it is all for exchanging with things that are valuable to me, something that can last for a long time. So it's worth it. =)
Monday, February 11, 2008
stressed
1st day of school after CNY.
Received many ang baos... grins... $_$
Played majong with cousins. Though won, sadly, didn't play with money, just chips. Haha, I am the most pro amongst the 4 of us. wahahahahahha!!! And I'm now more confident in majong! =P
Stress is building up.
Transition metals test tmr. Though can bring A5 self-written notes to help, passing the test is uncertain. sigh... Fate shall decides for me. I'm used to it, anyway.
Virus and prokaryotes test this thurs. Nothing much to elaborate on. Same as above. =\
Integration application and Differential equations test next thurs. Same as above. =.=
Chem SPA Skill B and C next Fri! I must score well in it!!! Must!
Bio eukaryotes test 2 weeks after. nothing much to say...
Bio SPA Skill D 2 weeks later. Must score in it too!! Must!
All tests, tutorials and CCA rehearsals are virtually 'squeezed' into this 3 weeks. Many tedious things to do as publicity and ticketing committee. s-t-r-e-s-s. That's the word. And it's building up.
I dunno if I will eventually break down. But I know that that's not a choice for me.
That's life.
Being so busy nowadays, yet I always think about happiness. How great it would be... ...
Life will be so much more meaningful (=
Received many ang baos... grins... $_$
Played majong with cousins. Though won, sadly, didn't play with money, just chips. Haha, I am the most pro amongst the 4 of us. wahahahahahha!!! And I'm now more confident in majong! =P
Stress is building up.
Transition metals test tmr. Though can bring A5 self-written notes to help, passing the test is uncertain. sigh... Fate shall decides for me. I'm used to it, anyway.
Virus and prokaryotes test this thurs. Nothing much to elaborate on. Same as above. =\
Integration application and Differential equations test next thurs. Same as above. =.=
Chem SPA Skill B and C next Fri! I must score well in it!!! Must!
Bio eukaryotes test 2 weeks after. nothing much to say...
Bio SPA Skill D 2 weeks later. Must score in it too!! Must!
All tests, tutorials and CCA rehearsals are virtually 'squeezed' into this 3 weeks. Many tedious things to do as publicity and ticketing committee. s-t-r-e-s-s. That's the word. And it's building up.
I dunno if I will eventually break down. But I know that that's not a choice for me.
That's life.
Being so busy nowadays, yet I always think about happiness. How great it would be... ...
Life will be so much more meaningful (=
Saturday, February 02, 2008
>.<
For dunno what reason, I'm blogging now...on a very plain and simple blogskin.
Things shouldn't be made too complex.
Let's see, what am I going to blog about??
Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.
Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...
Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.
For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...
Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.
GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...
Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...
And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!
Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
...
Things shouldn't be made too complex.
Let's see, what am I going to blog about??
Hmm...I realized I've become stupid, literally. As I grow older, I become more dumb.
Proof: Damn lousy results.
Fail all my H2 subjects tests.
Need to take re-re-test for Chemistry some more. (Wonder how many more "re-"(s) tests do I need to take?)
But the scary thing is: I don't feel sad at all! Perhaps I am already numbed by the "supposed-to-be-sad" feeling since last year and now, flunking tests are just like some daily issues which I have to face. Not really a big deal.
Ironic, isn't it? Scary yet numbed by it.
Really hope to do well in the coming Block Test.
I still have expectations for myself.
I am still persevering...
Learning an interesting topic for Math - Complex Number. Initailly, I am fascinated by the fact that Mathematicians give "square root (-1)" meaning and make use of some properties of complex numbers in modern applications, like satellites. Though I am quite lost now, and teachers and senior said that this topic is indeed complex - not easy - I won't allow my interest in this topic to die out - at least not so soon.
For Chemistry, a subject I dislike since secondary school, we're learning about alkenes. Seems easy to me, but it may not be so when I do my tutorials, or rather tests and exams, since I don't really do tutorials, which may be the main reason that I never pass the tests ever before. Sometimes, I even felt puzzled how did I make it to this stage - that is being promoted, and survived till this moment. The journey itself is certainly not easy.
Organic Chemistry is what we have left to learn after all the inorganic chemistry and physical chemistry are done.
Last lap, 1.5 more term left...
Biology... Learning Eukaryotic organisation... Well, it's just memorisation.
The rigid style of Bio department made me lose my passion for Biology once... Up to the extent that I don't give a damn to Biology tests.
But it's so unfair to me and I've decided that I'm going to like Bio again.
It's a choice.
My passion for Biology is going to rekindle... soon.
GP lecture...Prejudice and Discrimination...Another interesting stuff to me. =p
--All religions are prejudice towards other religions. Even though one religion asks you to respect the other religions, at the end of the day, your religion will still tell you that your religion is the best.
--Are we discriminating gays? Although heterosexuals are the main group that causes HIV to spread, yet homosexuals are often, if not always, the ones who are to be blamed for the spread of HIV.
There are some other interesting phenomena regarding this aspect of prejudice and discrimination, like SNAG (Sensitive New Age Guys). lolx...
Time-table this year SUCKS, a lot. Earlist time of lesson ends: 4.30pm. Latest: 5.30pm. Most energy and highest level of endurance needed: On Monday, 5 consecutive hours of lessons. and on Tues, 4 consecutive hours of lessons.
Really zonked out by the long hours of lessons.
Sleep debt accumulates every schooling day, and I have to pay back on Saturday afternoon, which leads to less time for homework and revision.
Like just now, I just had 3 hours of afternoon nap, which I clearly know that I was paying back my sleep debt.
Isn't it pathetic? I'm actually deprived of the minimal hours of sleep! A human, besides having to eat, to drink, to breathe, sleep is another essential component in order to survive. Yet I am unable to fulfil these basic requirements for survival. How I look forward to weekends... How I hope June holidays arrive quickly. How I hope time passes quickly so that weekends and June holidays can arrive sooner...
And there's CCA rehearsals. Need to stay till 9pm. Hope the month of February passes away as soon as how January has passed by so quicky, or even faster. So that after tha last performance on 1st Mar, my mind, body and soul can take a break!
And by the way, buy BYG tickets from me pls! Thanks!
Though I didn't speak myself, I think you know how I feel, yea?
And though you didn't want to be the one to take the initiative, I know you've been dropping hints here and there and I catch most of them, if not all, to let me know how you feel. And I wanna say thanks for that.
Not that I wanna carry on wasting time, but the situation and atmosphere are never right, did you realise that?
I'm looking forward to our next meet up...
...
Monday, January 28, 2008
BYG 2008
After 1 month plus...I'm back! haha...
Seriously kept real busy with academic and CCA! OMG! It's really BUSY! Almost no time for me to take a breath... Damn hectic!!
Why am I so busy?
Well, my CCA is now running a very packed schedule in preparing for 《我们的白云岗2008》which will be held on 29th February and 1st March.
Time: 7.15p.m.
Venue: NYJC LT4
A short intro to our drama:
"This is a riveting play that combines elements of modern life, ancient Chinese history, myths and legends"
The title of this drama is 《银针传奇》or "Legend of the Silver Needle".
Synopsis of the drama:
“ 他是天之骄子，用他人的心碎来构成虚假的完美；他是残暴的君王，用臣民的血肉来铸造金碧辉煌。
他是忠实的追随者，心中所有的痛苦都不为人知；他是直言敢谏的忠臣，却冤枉凄惨的枉死。
她是寄人篱下的孤女，用愤怒的复仇开启了千年的诅咒；她是绝代佳人，不惜一切，将一代王朝覆灭。
她是命运的宠儿，却不得不面对人生的无奈；他是历史的颠覆着，征服了天下却无法填补失落的空白。
历史，究竟是让人觉悟，还是在不断重复着同样的错误？
一根富有法力的银针，牵动了四个家族千年的命运。人，是否无论如何，都逃避不了命运的掌控？还是人性深处那些永无止境的欲望，才是千年来恒久不灭的诅咒？”
Felt compelled to watch? Interesting synopsis eh? haha..
Anyway, this is an annual drama production by Chinese Cultural Society of NYJC.
This year, the style is different from the past years as we're going to do one long show, instead of previous years' 2 - 3 short shows.
Must come support!
Especially me, the in-charge of ticketing and publicity!!
Help me get rid of all my tickets!!
600 seats in LT... 2 nights.... so a total of 1200 tickets to be sold!!!
COME SUPPORT!
Thanks alot!!
=]
My workload and stress would be very much reduced yea....
And tickets will be ready by tomorrow (Tuesday). So that means my job of selling tickets starts tomorrow!
Don't hesitate, grab your ticket now!! =)
and ya... ticket is priced at $8 [=
It's considered a very reasonable price already =)
Seriously kept real busy with academic and CCA! OMG! It's really BUSY! Almost no time for me to take a breath... Damn hectic!!
Why am I so busy?
Well, my CCA is now running a very packed schedule in preparing for 《我们的白云岗2008》which will be held on 29th February and 1st March.
Time: 7.15p.m.
Venue: NYJC LT4
A short intro to our drama:
"This is a riveting play that combines elements of modern life, ancient Chinese history, myths and legends"
The title of this drama is 《银针传奇》or "Legend of the Silver Needle".
Synopsis of the drama:
“ 他是天之骄子，用他人的心碎来构成虚假的完美；他是残暴的君王，用臣民的血肉来铸造金碧辉煌。
他是忠实的追随者，心中所有的痛苦都不为人知；他是直言敢谏的忠臣，却冤枉凄惨的枉死。
她是寄人篱下的孤女，用愤怒的复仇开启了千年的诅咒；她是绝代佳人，不惜一切，将一代王朝覆灭。
她是命运的宠儿，却不得不面对人生的无奈；他是历史的颠覆着，征服了天下却无法填补失落的空白。
历史，究竟是让人觉悟，还是在不断重复着同样的错误？
一根富有法力的银针，牵动了四个家族千年的命运。人，是否无论如何，都逃避不了命运的掌控？还是人性深处那些永无止境的欲望，才是千年来恒久不灭的诅咒？”
Felt compelled to watch? Interesting synopsis eh? haha..
Anyway, this is an annual drama production by Chinese Cultural Society of NYJC.
This year, the style is different from the past years as we're going to do one long show, instead of previous years' 2 - 3 short shows.
Must come support!
Especially me, the in-charge of ticketing and publicity!!
Help me get rid of all my tickets!!
600 seats in LT... 2 nights.... so a total of 1200 tickets to be sold!!!
COME SUPPORT!
Thanks alot!!
=]
My workload and stress would be very much reduced yea....
And tickets will be ready by tomorrow (Tuesday). So that means my job of selling tickets starts tomorrow!
Don't hesitate, grab your ticket now!! =)
and ya... ticket is priced at $8 [=
It's considered a very reasonable price already =)
Saturday, December 15, 2007
Back from Taiwan!
Back from Taiwan, safe and sound!
Taiwan is damn fun! No regret at all for going to Taiwan!
It's impossible for me to blog about how fun Taiwan really is. It will be really damn long that I'm gonna spend uncountable hours on it, which I wouldn't want to waste my time on given the numerous assignments I have on hand now. =\
oh well...
Of course, the most important reason that makes me feel Taiwan is so fun is because of the other 29 friends from HCI, TJC and NYJC travelling this trip together! Without these wonderful friends, I definitely wouldn't enjoy the trip no matter how great Taiwan is, whether is it the food, places of interest, shopping time, bla bla bla...
And yea, I miss Taiwan!
But since I'm back to Singapore, that means business time =(
Time will be mostly spent on getting the piles of homework done.
What a pathetic life of a student...
Miss the friends travelled to Taiwan together most though. After all, it's these friends who have accompanied, played and lived together during the 15 days. Without them, loneliness is what's left. Then it would be no fun at all. Friends are great! And friends last for a lifetime!
Undeniably, it is indeed quite sad when we had to bid goodbyes to one another in the airport. I felt a sense of nostalgia when I recalled the fun we had enjoyed so much in Taiwan together. But the fact in life is that separation is inevitable.
From 方老师 of HCI：“天下无不散之筵席。原种下的种子有一天发芽。完成该完成的，收拾该收拾的。明年好好冲刺！”
Though I was quite shocked to receive this sms from 方老师, I felt touched, especially becaue he's not teaching me yet he sends his regards to me. This message has another effect on me: get my homework done asap or I'll meet my doom next year, which is less than half a month.
lol.
Before checking-in in Taiwan airport, 蓝小姐, the person-in-charge of this Taiwan trip：“离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！”
I thought I will feel very sad and can't bear to leave Taiwan and friends, but because of 蓝小姐's words before leaving, I managed to accept the coming separation readily in the airport and on the plane.
Indeed, as what 蓝小姐 mentioned in the airport, we'll all be facing many similar separations in the future. This fact of life really saddens me. And yes, I'll be facing more separations in the future. I've to be emotionally prepared.
sigh...
I'll always remember: 离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！
p.s.: I bought《斗牛.要不要》原声带 from 玫瑰唱片 in Taiwan! yay! =]
Taiwan is damn fun! No regret at all for going to Taiwan!
It's impossible for me to blog about how fun Taiwan really is. It will be really damn long that I'm gonna spend uncountable hours on it, which I wouldn't want to waste my time on given the numerous assignments I have on hand now. =\
oh well...
Of course, the most important reason that makes me feel Taiwan is so fun is because of the other 29 friends from HCI, TJC and NYJC travelling this trip together! Without these wonderful friends, I definitely wouldn't enjoy the trip no matter how great Taiwan is, whether is it the food, places of interest, shopping time, bla bla bla...
And yea, I miss Taiwan!
But since I'm back to Singapore, that means business time =(
Time will be mostly spent on getting the piles of homework done.
What a pathetic life of a student...
Miss the friends travelled to Taiwan together most though. After all, it's these friends who have accompanied, played and lived together during the 15 days. Without them, loneliness is what's left. Then it would be no fun at all. Friends are great! And friends last for a lifetime!
Undeniably, it is indeed quite sad when we had to bid goodbyes to one another in the airport. I felt a sense of nostalgia when I recalled the fun we had enjoyed so much in Taiwan together. But the fact in life is that separation is inevitable.
From 方老师 of HCI：“天下无不散之筵席。原种下的种子有一天发芽。完成该完成的，收拾该收拾的。明年好好冲刺！”
Though I was quite shocked to receive this sms from 方老师, I felt touched, especially becaue he's not teaching me yet he sends his regards to me. This message has another effect on me: get my homework done asap or I'll meet my doom next year, which is less than half a month.
lol.
Before checking-in in Taiwan airport, 蓝小姐, the person-in-charge of this Taiwan trip：“离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！”
I thought I will feel very sad and can't bear to leave Taiwan and friends, but because of 蓝小姐's words before leaving, I managed to accept the coming separation readily in the airport and on the plane.
Indeed, as what 蓝小姐 mentioned in the airport, we'll all be facing many similar separations in the future. This fact of life really saddens me. And yes, I'll be facing more separations in the future. I've to be emotionally prepared.
sigh...
I'll always remember: 离别不是感伤，而是力量的扩散！
p.s.: I bought《斗牛.要不要》原声带 from 玫瑰唱片 in Taiwan! yay! =]
Thursday, November 29, 2007
leaving for taiwan soon
Will be leaving for Taipei, Taiwan soon in about 14 hours. The thought of carrying my luggage makes me feel sian.... lol
Saddened by the sudden demise of the 5 dragonboat rowers.
:\
R.I.P
Alright, gonna have my dinner now...
Till then...
Saddened by the sudden demise of the 5 dragonboat rowers.
:\
R.I.P
Alright, gonna have my dinner now...
Till then...
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
recent happenings
Kinetics test on Mon. As usual, scored low marks cuz I forgot the units of rate, which is mol dm-3 time-1. If not for the units, I wouldn't do such badly. CCA exco meeting after that to discuss about CCA Bazaar next year. Damn it. Gonna put up the exact same performance again as in Open House. And I swear I so don't wanna act anymore! No more acting for the rest of my life! Hope the in-charge will change actors. Better do so...
Anyway, I haven't settled the 5 souvenirs I have to buy for Taiwan students. Must settle it by tomorrow as there's no more time left already. Teacher said that we should give something related to S'pore. Seriously have no idea on what to buy.. Merlion keychains?? that's like so LC... but I can't think of what to buy.... maybe keychains will be my last resort, though I really don't want to buy keychains if I'm able to think of something better and nicer to give. But giving something is definitely better than giving nothing yea......
Have not finished packing my stuff.. Sigh.. I can foresee that I'm going to panic soon. Even so, I'm just too lazy to pack... aarrggghhhh! Serves me right for going to panic.... o_O"
Watched Dou Niu ep 2 already! Nice show! Watched it at tudou.com and it load much faster than youtube.
Assignments left: 2 compos, 5 Lit essays, little questions left for Bio and Math and 80% left for Chemistry revision paper, and 5 articles for GP. =\
Anyway, I haven't settled the 5 souvenirs I have to buy for Taiwan students. Must settle it by tomorrow as there's no more time left already. Teacher said that we should give something related to S'pore. Seriously have no idea on what to buy.. Merlion keychains?? that's like so LC... but I can't think of what to buy.... maybe keychains will be my last resort, though I really don't want to buy keychains if I'm able to think of something better and nicer to give. But giving something is definitely better than giving nothing yea......
Have not finished packing my stuff.. Sigh.. I can foresee that I'm going to panic soon. Even so, I'm just too lazy to pack... aarrggghhhh! Serves me right for going to panic.... o_O"
Watched Dou Niu ep 2 already! Nice show! Watched it at tudou.com and it load much faster than youtube.
Assignments left: 2 compos, 5 Lit essays, little questions left for Bio and Math and 80% left for Chemistry revision paper, and 5 articles for GP. =\
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Sunday, November 25, 2007
ponder...
何谓“幽默”？它并不等于“好笑”。这是常被人所误解的。小时候，我也以为一个人很幽默就表示他说的话很好笑。以前的我，尤其在小学时期， 总爱说逗趣的活和做滑稽的动作来逗人家笑。所以，当老师问起我觉得自己是个怎样的人时，我都会说我是个蛮幽默的人。但，我错了。
其实，幽默的原来含义是以最深刻、最严肃的态度理解人生中最严肃的课题（像死亡）。在学《茶馆》时，老师就跟我们说过了幽默不是好笑，它是富有反讽意味的。那是我第一次认识到幽默并非好笑。最近，我翻阅了由教育部出版的《印象》，里面的文章是去年参加了北京和台湾文化之旅的语文特选课程学生写的。其中有几篇写了他们在台湾所学到的幽默的真正含义，所以在此想与大家分享。
幽默的目的不是要让人笑。我想幽默是要我们深思、反省，并让我们对于某件事有个更深一层的了解。笑是幽默的终点，其背后必定有幽默的存在，并有能够让你挖掘的内涵。
那位授课老师就举了这个例子：我们明知自己终必一死，却还能坚决地活着。生不带来，死不带去，活着本身即是文学中最大的反讽！但人类就是这般“幽默”，明知道到头来将归零却依然选择坚持着自己的理想和抱负，继续活下去，努力地、拼命地实现它们。
事实虽是如此，但本人认为既然没人能够逃过死亡，那倒不如在有生之中尽量去做让自己快乐的事，这样至少不会虚度一生。古今中外，又有谁是没有理想的呢？杜甫、范仲淹、苏轼都想为国效劳好让国家和人民能够得到安宁。这类的例子不胜枚举，其他的只好省略了。现代的就有深受新加坡人敬佩的李光耀资政。他成功地改变很多人认为新加坡不能生存的看法，把新加坡从第三世界蜕变成现在一个人人都享有高素质生活的国家。他们的共同点是他们都有自己伟大的理想。
死是必然的。但在死之前，即在活着的时候，我们可以选择自己想要如何度过这短暂的一生，而这选择可左右自己的命运。能够选择或许是自然界所赐给我们的一份礼物吧。生命是何尝的珍贵啊！若要真正了解生命有过么珍贵，或许是当一个人接近死亡片刻、或是死里逃生的瞬间吧。
其实，幽默的原来含义是以最深刻、最严肃的态度理解人生中最严肃的课题（像死亡）。在学《茶馆》时，老师就跟我们说过了幽默不是好笑，它是富有反讽意味的。那是我第一次认识到幽默并非好笑。最近，我翻阅了由教育部出版的《印象》，里面的文章是去年参加了北京和台湾文化之旅的语文特选课程学生写的。其中有几篇写了他们在台湾所学到的幽默的真正含义，所以在此想与大家分享。
幽默的目的不是要让人笑。我想幽默是要我们深思、反省，并让我们对于某件事有个更深一层的了解。笑是幽默的终点，其背后必定有幽默的存在，并有能够让你挖掘的内涵。
那位授课老师就举了这个例子：我们明知自己终必一死，却还能坚决地活着。生不带来，死不带去，活着本身即是文学中最大的反讽！但人类就是这般“幽默”，明知道到头来将归零却依然选择坚持着自己的理想和抱负，继续活下去，努力地、拼命地实现它们。
事实虽是如此，但本人认为既然没人能够逃过死亡，那倒不如在有生之中尽量去做让自己快乐的事，这样至少不会虚度一生。古今中外，又有谁是没有理想的呢？杜甫、范仲淹、苏轼都想为国效劳好让国家和人民能够得到安宁。这类的例子不胜枚举，其他的只好省略了。现代的就有深受新加坡人敬佩的李光耀资政。他成功地改变很多人认为新加坡不能生存的看法，把新加坡从第三世界蜕变成现在一个人人都享有高素质生活的国家。他们的共同点是他们都有自己伟大的理想。
死是必然的。但在死之前，即在活着的时候，我们可以选择自己想要如何度过这短暂的一生，而这选择可左右自己的命运。能够选择或许是自然界所赐给我们的一份礼物吧。生命是何尝的珍贵啊！若要真正了解生命有过么珍贵，或许是当一个人接近死亡片刻、或是死里逃生的瞬间吧。
Friday, November 16, 2007
mundane life
Lessons finally ended today, i mean yesterday (blogging after midnight currently~)!
Was late for 2 lessons, one for Chem and the other, Math. Missed some parts, gonna revise them soon, i hope...
Besides new knowlege gained, new assignments have also been given out! claps ... !! =.=" Seriously helped me to plan how I'm going to spend my so-called holidays... thanks so much cuz I don't have to trouble myself over how to spend this long awaited holiday...
Susi passed me her diary for me to write... It's those book which you wrote on when you were in primary schools yea... Hahax... Made me recall how my primary school friends then were so obsessed in writing such diaries... And now I get a chance to write such diary in JC.... lolx...
Need to wake uo early to hand up my 2 Chinese Lit essays which I've just finished, as well as to return the diary to Susi. Great, I've left 5 more Chi Lit essays! >.<
Briefing for Taiwan trip conducted 'yesterday' afternoon. Last for 2 hours... Was feeling sleepy towards the end of the briefing... nag nag nag...
Anyway, another group of LEP students will be flying to Beijing in like less than 6 hours. Bon voyage!
The taiwan trip will commence on 30th Nov till 14th Dec. Those travelling to Beijing will be back on 30th Nov. So we won't meet for one month. hahax.. and there'll be a few hours when both groups are flying in the air concurrently! that is, students flying back to S'pore from Beijing and the other group flying to Taipei from S'pore. Cool manz... haha...
Looking forward to the really nice food in Shi Lin Ye Shi (士林夜市)!!
But the annoying thing when enjoying is that I have to do 2 reports on the places we're going to visit. aarrgghh...!
Damn loads of assignments to be done. with 2 weeks gone for travelling to taiwan, i'll have lesser time for homework and revision. gonna start doing and get rid of the piles and piles of homework asap!
Was late for 2 lessons, one for Chem and the other, Math. Missed some parts, gonna revise them soon, i hope...
Besides new knowlege gained, new assignments have also been given out! claps ... !! =.=" Seriously helped me to plan how I'm going to spend my so-called holidays... thanks so much cuz I don't have to trouble myself over how to spend this long awaited holiday...
Susi passed me her diary for me to write... It's those book which you wrote on when you were in primary schools yea... Hahax... Made me recall how my primary school friends then were so obsessed in writing such diaries... And now I get a chance to write such diary in JC.... lolx...
Need to wake uo early to hand up my 2 Chinese Lit essays which I've just finished, as well as to return the diary to Susi. Great, I've left 5 more Chi Lit essays! >.<
Briefing for Taiwan trip conducted 'yesterday' afternoon. Last for 2 hours... Was feeling sleepy towards the end of the briefing... nag nag nag...
Anyway, another group of LEP students will be flying to Beijing in like less than 6 hours. Bon voyage!
The taiwan trip will commence on 30th Nov till 14th Dec. Those travelling to Beijing will be back on 30th Nov. So we won't meet for one month. hahax.. and there'll be a few hours when both groups are flying in the air concurrently! that is, students flying back to S'pore from Beijing and the other group flying to Taipei from S'pore. Cool manz... haha...
Looking forward to the really nice food in Shi Lin Ye Shi (士林夜市)!!
But the annoying thing when enjoying is that I have to do 2 reports on the places we're going to visit. aarrgghh...!
Damn loads of assignments to be done. with 2 weeks gone for travelling to taiwan, i'll have lesser time for homework and revision. gonna start doing and get rid of the piles and piles of homework asap!
Friday, November 09, 2007
=( homework... (= friends!
If there's lots of homework to be done during schooling days, then I'll think that it is normal.
But if there's lots of homework to be done during school vacation, then I'll think that it's crazy! Insane! Torturous! whatever you wanna call it!
My homework for this "holiday":
But if there's lots of homework to be done during school vacation, then I'll think that it's crazy! Insane! Torturous! whatever you wanna call it!
My homework for this "holiday":
- GP- read 5 articles related to GP, write 5 facts / claims related to GP, find meanings of 5 new words
- Bio- 1 set of Bio paper
- Math - 1 set of Math paper
- CLL - 7 Lit essays, 1 full Lit revision paper, 3 compos (1 of which at least 1000 words), and quite a number of questions on classical prose
- Chem - yet to be uploaded on litespeed. gonna be many anyway.....
And all homework to be handed in by first week when school starts next year, some of which even have to be handed in on the very first day of school... >.<
The 7 Chi Lit essays are to be handed in on 16th Nov but I don't think I'll meet the deadline.. =\
CCA on Wednesday. Mr Ng, cca teacher, gave me and hui jun, the secretaries, a 2GB thumbdrive each. The thumbdrives are for us to store all CCA related stuffs, such as minutes, and they are to be passed down to the next generation of secretaries, so that they replace the normal practice of passing down files and papers. Isn't it hi-tech? I feel that even passing down stuffs from one generation to the next has become so advanced now. That's so cooL!
Exco outing just now. Went to eat at Marina Square, then went to KBox! Sang with Seokwei, Jasmine Foo and Hui Jun! The rest couldn't make it... Enjoyed!!!
What's unexpected for me was that I met my primary school mate, Andy, who works in the KBox! It's been more than 5 years since we met and talked. At first I didn't recognize him. On my way to the toilet, he kept looking at me and suddenly asked me if I live at Blk 113. I was almost totally shocked as to how did he know that and who exactly he is. Then he revealed that he remember me, a primary school mate to him. A while later, I recalled that we were never in the same class before but we played basketball together before during recess and after school, which I think was the only interaction we had and thus explained why I didn't quite recognized him at first (it's not an excuse!). It feels so great that there are people, though long time never meet, still recognize you. I am totally glad that Andy remembered me. Well, 5 years passed and he is now taller than me. cuz I remembered that I was taller than him during primary school times... lolx.... >.<
I think I am really crazy over Stardust! Because I like the movie so much, I went to college's library and borrowed Stardust book to read! The author is by Neil Gaiman. And I also borrowed another book written by him - Neverwhere. haha...
Too many outings organized and I'm getting broke. Spent over $20 bucks today. Yet to pay $6.50 for the coming BBQ on Monday and also for CCA fund... T_T"
Okay, I'm damn hungry now~
Saturday, November 03, 2007
busy
PW OP exam over on Thurs. Screwed up Q&A session. oh well~ Think only Lily managed to perform well in the Q&A. the rest of us were stumbled by the questions. The assessors didn't ask the questions based on the slides that we presented, instead they asked what the other presenters had presented. i think the questions that were posed to us were the most difficult compared to the other 2 groups. ok, it's all destined to be this way, so be it. i'll stop whining... lolx.... I'm so happy that PW is completely outta my life! Had an enjoyable time with my group members! [=
After our OP exam, we went AMK Hub to celebrate! Went PepperLunch to eat. Because of my damn ulcer that day , i couldn't eat those good stuff, so only ordered a small teriyaki steak sandwich. next we went to watch Stardust! Awesome movie! touched by it. and Zhi Wei cried uncontrollably cos she missed her home (in Sabah) very much. ps. dun worry, u'll meet them very soon. (:
What am I busy with during this holiday?
After our OP exam, we went AMK Hub to celebrate! Went PepperLunch to eat. Because of my damn ulcer that day , i couldn't eat those good stuff, so only ordered a small teriyaki steak sandwich. next we went to watch Stardust! Awesome movie! touched by it. and Zhi Wei cried uncontrollably cos she missed her home (in Sabah) very much. ps. dun worry, u'll meet them very soon. (:
What am I busy with during this holiday?
- LEP PW =.= another PW....
- CCA - production
- Lessons / assignments / revision
Have finished reading 雪山飞狐 on my way home on the bus!
胡斐到底会不会劈下去呢？
Well, i think i'm more on the conventional stance.
胡斐不会劈下去。他自有办法化解这场似乎不是你死就是我亡的斗争。最后，胡斐和苗若兰有情人终成眷属。而苗，胡，范，田四家之间的百年仇怨也就从此结束了。:] haha... quite cliched eh... but this is what i hope it will be.
Watched a play, Living People, at The Necessary Stage in Marine Parade this afternoon. Humorous, i would say.
This play is about whether we should allow patients who have left only 3 months to live to consume drugs to ease their pain. What's the relationship between legal/illegal and right/wrong? It's illegal but it may not be wrong, how should it be handled? Why are some drugs ie. cigarettes and alcohols legalised but not others such as marijuana (when all of them can lead to addiction)? We all know that smokers and alcoholics will not be hanged, even though they are addicted. Is it about ethics and morals, or economy? These are some of the ironies discussed in the play. Quite worth the money to watch (only $10 since we are students. original is about $22). However, i think the ending is rather abrupt. Many of the audiences don't even realised that the play had ended.
Gonna be extremely busy with the my CCA production. I'm in-charge of ticketing and marketing, a job that many people won't take notice of. But it's one of the roles in a production which is the busiest and has the heaviest responsibilities, especially something related to $$$.
Have to make sure that the money collected tally, or I'll meet my doom. Also have to market the production to the public ie. newspaper, emails to schools, radios, contact the alumni etc. It seems easy but there's lots of works to do. o_o
Yet to type the minutes for the latest exco meeting with teacher. gonna type it tomorrow...
Many outings are organised. Class and CCA (one as a whole CCA; another with exco), and SC. But I'm broke. Only a pathetic $2 left in my wallet. v_v"
Went out with yanhong & yukai yesterday to Vivo. They wanted to find holiday part-time jobs, and I went to relax myself.. haha... Watched The Game Plan. I think it's not as good as Stardust. Nonetheless, The Game Plan is quite a funny show, and has portrayed the fatherly love almost perfectly, if not flawlessly. Well, it's not the genre that I like, so perhaps that's the reason I feel that this movie is not quite for me.
There's no real holiday for me until after my GCE A level exam is over. So I'll enjoy as much as I can whenever possible. My CCA teacher told us this too. ENJOY.
JC life is hectic. J1 life has almost come to an end for me. Still have another year to endure! Come on! Test my perseverance! LOLX........
Sometimes looking at other schoolmates who is quite free during the holidays do make me feel jealous since they have the luxury of time to spend on revison, which I myself am deprived of. LEP PW, CCA production - these 2 additional tasks. Life's unfair. It's never fair. Nothing is fair anyway.
Ooops, I see myself whining again. Well, it has sort of become one of my habits already ever since I am in JC. =x
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
ULCER!
I've got an ulcer! qutie big. and it's making me feel painful! causes me to have no appetite to eat cuz it hurts so! and i'm starving at this moment! I hate the ulcer! And feeling uncomfortable when I talk. But I'm not gonna let it affect my OP tmr! Gonna endure and persevere the 5 min of presentation, as well as the Q&A session, and everything will be fine! Today's the 3rd consecutive days my ulcer has been torturing me. I hope that this damn ulcer will disappear, NOW! aaarrggghhh....
Rehearsed for OP today. 6 times. exhausted.
All the best to NY025! [=
pain... ... ... damn the ulcer!
Rehearsed for OP today. 6 times. exhausted.
All the best to NY025! [=
pain... ... ... damn the ulcer!
Monday, October 29, 2007
happenings
It's start of A level today. H1 mother tongue. I didn't have to take this subject, but went to college early to settle PW group project file and working file. Went early also to participate in ............. (secrets. lolx.)
Anyway, thought that I'm gonna take H1 Chinese next year, somewhere in May/June, if possible. If not, given my terrible grades as reflected on my result slip, I doubt I'd be able to score any A grade in A level. Hopefully will ace Chinese if I take next year.
Went to Chinatown to attend free Math tuition by a teacher whom Lily knows. Unlearn and relearn. I practised that in the 2 hours of lesson this afternoon. Refresh my memory. Benefit lots from it. J1 topics are very important as emphasised by the teacher, who wants us to call him Sunny. =p
Sad thing that was announced today - Mrs Saleem, GP teacher, is leaving for School of Arts. Felt quite sad when I knew that I won't be taught by her next year. She's really a good and understanding teacher, who's the only teacher who allows us to eat as she understands that we need to eat somethings in order to have the energy to pay attention, or we'll be unable to focus for long. Because of her, I regain my confidence in writing good essay and do well in summary and AQ. Being systematic in her teaching, I'm able to understand the skills and logics needed in tackling GP. By the way, 0705, my class, topped the cohort in GP results! congrats us! Nonetheless, all the best for her future endeavours! Life's like that. Separation is sometimes inevitable. she said she cannot stay in NY, cuz it's a contract thingy... Life~
Webcammed and chatted with my "my dad's younger sister's son" just now.
Erm..what's my dad's sister's son is to me ar? cousin?? i dunnox... someone care to tell me? =x
He's somewhere in the continent of Europe now. Heard that he went there cuz of failed love relationship. >.< oh well...
Hope that he can bring me there one day. But need lots of $$$. The flight ticket price costs a bomb. Hope that I'm sponsored! hahax..
PW Oral presentation this Thurs. Haven't written my script yet, but know what I wanted to say. Just that a script can help me reduce the number of times of stuttering and the need to rephrase and structure my sentence in my brains before I speak it out... NY025, jia you!
Ooops. I'm hungry. Haven't had my dinner yet, at like 10+pm... o_O"
Anyway, thought that I'm gonna take H1 Chinese next year, somewhere in May/June, if possible. If not, given my terrible grades as reflected on my result slip, I doubt I'd be able to score any A grade in A level. Hopefully will ace Chinese if I take next year.
Went to Chinatown to attend free Math tuition by a teacher whom Lily knows. Unlearn and relearn. I practised that in the 2 hours of lesson this afternoon. Refresh my memory. Benefit lots from it. J1 topics are very important as emphasised by the teacher, who wants us to call him Sunny. =p
Sad thing that was announced today - Mrs Saleem, GP teacher, is leaving for School of Arts. Felt quite sad when I knew that I won't be taught by her next year. She's really a good and understanding teacher, who's the only teacher who allows us to eat as she understands that we need to eat somethings in order to have the energy to pay attention, or we'll be unable to focus for long. Because of her, I regain my confidence in writing good essay and do well in summary and AQ. Being systematic in her teaching, I'm able to understand the skills and logics needed in tackling GP. By the way, 0705, my class, topped the cohort in GP results! congrats us! Nonetheless, all the best for her future endeavours! Life's like that. Separation is sometimes inevitable. she said she cannot stay in NY, cuz it's a contract thingy... Life~
Webcammed and chatted with my "my dad's younger sister's son" just now.
Erm..what's my dad's sister's son is to me ar? cousin?? i dunnox... someone care to tell me? =x
He's somewhere in the continent of Europe now. Heard that he went there cuz of failed love relationship. >.< oh well...
Hope that he can bring me there one day. But need lots of $$$. The flight ticket price costs a bomb. Hope that I'm sponsored! hahax..
PW Oral presentation this Thurs. Haven't written my script yet, but know what I wanted to say. Just that a script can help me reduce the number of times of stuttering and the need to rephrase and structure my sentence in my brains before I speak it out... NY025, jia you!
Ooops. I'm hungry. Haven't had my dinner yet, at like 10+pm... o_O"
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